starving whore

TW: active ed blog as of march 2021. this is my vent space. she/her 17

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being a student with an ed is so hard. i want to get good grades and do well in exams and work but then the lack of energy means i can never do my best but i can’t just eat. it’s so hard. i hate it so much.

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no because why does my stomach have to do me dirty everytime i say i’m not hungry? mf has to rumble every time </3

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sometimes i stop and think ‘why tf am i starving myself for a body that is pretty much impossible to have’ and then i just get straight back to drinking black coffee and eating just a salad a day lmao

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holy shit the dizziness when i just worked out... messed up but i kinda missed that ngl

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not me like finally coming to the conclusion that i really do have no one that cares about me. like i’ve always known but it finally hit hit me :”) </3

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there’s something so comforting about sitting outside at night alone and looking at the sky

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i want to follow more active ed accs. please like or reblog if you’re an active ed acc

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im so glad my mum doesn’t understand calories bc i can literally eat just a sweet potato or boiled egg and salad for the day and she’ll be like ‘i’m glad you’re eating well’ lmao

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i really hate being confronted about my eating habits. my mum thinks her aggressively shouting at me about it is going to make me feel any better and want to start recovering? if anything it makes things a million times worse. i really hate it.

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we love triggering ourself by looking at pics from our lw </3

[int4k]

my face is looking less fat omg. praying for more. i need more more more.

[int4k]

i will lose 5 kg this week no matter what.

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anyone on here wanna be friends? keep each other motivated when we wanna binge and just like talk and be friends in general? i’m not pro so i don’t encourage ed behaviour but we can help each other not binge and stay on track and we’ll be able to relate to each other ?

[int4k]

i drank so much yesterday so i can’t eat today. the calories in alcohol holy shit. calorie free alcohol when?

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i literally hate how no matter how much i sleep i’m still so tired bc the lack of energy in my body. i could sleep 14 hours and still wake exhausted

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can’t wait to dig into my first and only nutritional meal of the day at 6 pm. soup. REAL NUTRITIOUS and REAL FILLING😌

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idk if i’m overreacting but my best friend asked about my eating habits and implied it’s easy to just eat and i explained how hard it is and she left me on read and now she’s messaging me as if nothing happened. idk if i’m being dramatic but i feel like she should like apologise bc i was real hurt by her basically invalidating my feelings and leaving me on seen when i explained. but i could just be being dramatic ugh