i don't explain myself.

she’s my kind of girl. a little bit of a mystery wrapped in a pretty body. andrea hennessey twenty three protection she’s hard to get to know. but worth knowing.

[hcnlcyss]

          JAX WAS ALONE when he’d first awoke. reaching around the absence of warmth for the soft sizzle of her skin against his own, and coming up empty handed. briefly, he’d felt that white-hot panic – deep and festering in his chest, something that surfaced few and far between, something he would not allow to get the better of him for fear of acting irrationally. she would be back soon and she’would never leave him again.  

          and those thoughts rang true, as though he’d willed her into returning to him, unscathed and slightly cold from whatever round she had embarked on; his arms circling her delicately, hands gentle as they rubbed the warmth back into her – the desert was cold at night. 

          but his sleep was lulled and easy, for a change, having someone else andrea laying next to him made the world of difference. vaguely, his body registered the almost missable pressure against his lips, soft skin grazing the days-old scruff along his jawline. by default, he responded, the soft and lazy pucker of his lips as he kissed her back, arms reaching blindly for her slight figure to press against the slow and steady rise and fall of his chest. he k i s s e d back again, goosebumps littering every available millimetre of skin – without a doubt: not the girl beside him but the weather that surrounded them, yes, that was the cause for sure. a groan escaped his lips as he leaned toward her touch, craving the smooth run of her skin beneath his fingers but not particularly wanting to open his eyes. “i thought we were done with cruel and unusual punishments, andi. it’s too early for this–” he yawned, fingers gripping the skin of her waist as he found it. “ –this bullshit.”

[intcngcble-blog]

          THE WORDS THAT fell from the males lips caused the brunette to let out a chuckle that echoed around the tent that was slowly lighting up as the sun tried to force it’s rays through the fabric, only making the male that was underneath her look even more perfect than he did before. her hair a mess around her face and down her shoulders, she reached up to push a few pieces of her own hair out of her face as she leaned down, pecking her lips against his prickly skin along his jaw line then up to the smooth part of his cheeks and to his nose, making sure she managed to kiss everything but his lips with a small giggle following soon after as his fingers began to grip onto her skin that was on her waist. 

          ‘ c’mon. we must’ve been sleeping for more than we were supposed to. i’m sure the others aren’t going to be very pleased with us, ’ she whispered, her eyes still searching his face to try and see if it was a dream - if it was just her imagination playing tricks on her - worried that she was dreaming the male holding onto her and he was actually outside with a hatred towards her still. but as she leaned down to curl up against his side once gain, she couldn’t help but tear up a bit at the realization that he was here - that things might actually be okay again.

          ‘ --- unless you want to risk it and stay clear for the rest of the day. hide out until everyone is gone then go our own way, ’ she whispered, her fingers tracing circles and figures on his bare chest as she slowly peeked up at him with small, full of happiness smile on her lips.

[intcngcble-blog]

---------- @jaxisms

          HE SEEMED PEACEFUL. with the light shining done on his face in such a way that it was like a halo was moving around his head to make him much more perfect. his eyes closed in a way as though he was in such a relaxed and deep sleep that her insides twisted at the sight. reaching up carefully to push hair out of his face, she managed to keep his slumber in tact with her motions, the smile never leaving her lips as she looked down at him, taking in all the tattoos that stained his skin, her slim fingers outlining each of the lines, her breathing calmed and relaxed - something she hadn’t felt in almost years. that was the affect he had on her, he was able to make her so calm and relaxed that she almost didn’t believe herself as she reminded her mind that they were fighting a war.

          with the blanket covering most of her body, she had managed to pull her pants back onto her legs sometime during the night when she made a late night round to try and let realization hit her that she was laying beside jax --- literally beside him. it was still quite a dream to her, if she was being honest.

          taking in a breath, she slowly leaned down to brush her lips against his in such a light feeling that it would’ve felt like a feather if he was awake, allowing her heart to skip a beat and a small smile form on her lips before she continued to brush her lips against his, hoping it would jolt him awake in a way that he could regain movement of his muscles and hold onto her for a while longer before they had to go back to their jobs. ‘ -----wake up, sunshine, ’ she whispered under her breath, nudging her nose against his lightly.

[intcngcble-blog]

rlly sorry guys ??? been struggling with personal things and all but im still here ! ill get to replies tomorrow or later tonight <3

[thecopyleftist]

“I am a house built out of twigs and stones. I am a house, but I’m not a home.” –You’re the Worst 212

[paulswesleys]

[theliarsgifs]

[hcnlcyss]

        he really thought he’d fucked it all up; the brutality of his response to her and the savage admission of his sins, she should have been looking at him with nothing short of disgust, a permanent molding of her features for each time her eyes met his own. but he couldn’t see, nor could he even think about the fight that had just occurred between them because the force of her lips had pushed all rational thought from his mind. in his shock, his body reverted to autopilot, hands gripping under her thighs and pressing her c l o s e r to him than should have been possible. kiss deepening before he could help himself because he had craved this for so long, craved that closeness from her that he’d missed more than he’d ever admit. a longing that shredded away at a piece of himself he hadn’t even known EXISTED until her lips had first met his own. 

       but this was wrong. a kiss didn’t prove anything, no matter how much feeling had been softly pressed into it. no matter how heavily his heart beat against her own, the heated thud thrumming out a rhythm of STAY STAY STAY that he couldn’t grasp onto. he pulled back, arms still holding her up as he avoided her eyes. “you don’t want me.” he mumbled into the expanse of her collarbone that fit between her shoulder and neck. “you don’t want me.” he pressed again, voice louder this time, as if telling her that this was the only truth. insisting that anything she felt for him right now was clouded by LUST instead of the love she’d claimed. but he wanted needed her to tell him he was wrong. that this period of neglect was not because he wasn’t enough, or because he was too much. to tell him that things could go back to how they were before, even if the constant chaos surrounding them ensured that would never be possible.

[intcngcble-blog]

          THERE WAS A moment where everything froze around her as she felt his hands against her soft skin on her thighs. her heart skipped a beat and her stomach flipped, almost as though she was nervous about kissing him and as though she was doing it wrong and she had never done it before. like she was waiting for him to pull away and laugh at her for the broken attempt to show him how she felt, but he didn’t. he moved his lips against hers and proved that he had been craving the same feelings that she had been feeling since the moment she told him she couldn’t be with him anymore - since the day her brother bled out on the table and people pointed fingers in her direction. her hands moved around to the back of his neck, almost to keep him in place and to cling on for dear life, knowing the moment that they pulled away, it would just be another shit show that she wouldn’t be able to handle. at least right now -- right now, she was able to close her eyes and fall into his embrace and hold his soft lips to her own and feel like she was home once again after the last few months of being lost.

          his breath on her neck triggered a shiver up her spine, her ears hearing every word that fell from his lips but her lips stayed sealed until she knew he was completely done, moving her head back to it’s usual place and her lips close to his once more, her other hand to move up from his shoulder to his chin, making sure that his lips were aligned with hers and his eyes were open so he could look into her own. ‘ --- you’re right, i don’t want you, ’ she whispered quietly, taking a deep breath through her mouth before finishing her sentence. ‘ i need you, ’ she muttered, letting her lips brush against his once again before she let her eyes look into his. ‘ i more than want you, jax. i promise you that. ’

[hcnlcyss]

      the moment her hands collided with his body felt as though an explosion had been triggered in his chest. the air had been knocked out of him, perhaps due to shock more than anything else. things weren’t supposed to be this way with andrea; she was made for soft hands and soft touches and a soft voice that melted like butterscotch, all sweet and golden. not this… rage. the sharp cut to her twisted features and the slice of each word leaving even more gaping wounds that would never be skin deep, newfound hurt anger oozing from each one. “you think you’re the only one in this fuckin’ camp who’s lost somebody? who’s let someone they love die?” he had tried to understand – as much as he was capable of doing – but loss what something jax had learned to glaze over, to hide underneath duty and a personality so abrasive that others won’t touch you for fear of getting scratched. “i’m starting to wonder if you felt anything for me at all, seeing as you just threw me away without a second thought. and tell me? tell me what? you can’t even LOOK at me.”

      his face twisted into something ugly at her words. ‘ love him ’ – he of all people had no idea what that felt like but love- love wasn’t this. love wasn’t acting as if he didn’t even exist, after months of spending almost every waking moment in each other’s company. making him feel as though he’d done something wrong, something to make her hate him more than anyone else did; because at least they liked to remind him on a semi-daily basis. “STOP. shut your fuckin’ mouth.” he tore away from her, hands tugging through his hair as if he could simply pull the thoughts form his own head and splay them out before her. “no, andi – that’s not killing someone. killing someone is putting a gun to their head and pulling the trigger, a single slice to make them bleed out; wrapping your hands around their throat and s q u e e z i n g until you can’t feel a pulse beneath your fingers anymore. don’t come at me and tell me what it means to be a killer, because you haven’t got a fuckin’ clue.” he didn’t care that they were attracting a crowd, that they could all her his shouts proclaiming who WHAT he was. he didn’t care at all anymore. “you wanted me? right, okay,” he laughed again, delirious, and right in her face. “sure got a funny way of showing it.”

[intcngcble-blog]

          SHE STARTED THIS. oh she knew that she started this fight. she was the one that went ahead and began screaming at him and pushing them when she should’ve just stayed silent. or even better, she shouldn’t have told him to fuck off in the first place when her insides were just craving his touch. the moment her hands hit his chest, she cursed herself, taking her anger on herself out on him as she continued to scream but the minute she was done screaming and had to answer to him, she was quiet. she didn’t respond as she stood there, taking it in. she didn’t want to continue fighting, she was tired of fighting. she was tired of pushing all her feelings down - especially towards jax. she knew she loved him, hell - he should know that she loved him, despite her attitude, no matter what, she always managed to watch him leave on his raids and always made sure she was on protection watch when he came back. she was always up late, waiting to make sure he was safe in his tent. with sam back, and with jax probably finding out about him, she knew she was going to blow up even more - but she couldn’t even bring herself to care about the ex boyfriend she had told jax was such a great guy, when in the first conversation they had together upon a reunion he stated that she was the one that killed her brother. pressing her lips together tightly, she really debated on her next motions, listening to his last accusations before she dropped her gun, as well as her bag and jumped up at him, crashing her lips fiercely against his.

          the moment their lips met, she almost regretted it, almost wanted to pull away but the damage had already been done. her hands reached up to cup onto his face while her legs tightened around his waist, keeping herself up without his help as she kept her lips against his, the kiss fierce but also full with every single feeling of love and lust she had towards the male behind it, her insides igniting with a fire as she let her senses finally feel everything about him once again. pulling away after a few moments, but just enough so she could take in a deep breath and talk - her lips still able to brush against his with each word. ‘ how much more proof would you like? ’ she whispered breathlessly, ready to jump down and ready to take the rejection that would come in due time.

[blurintoyou]

Although his design prevented him from showing displeasure by scowling as a normal human would, Julius still managed to somehow convey his annoyance with a relatively placid expression. “Someone just told me that I needed to get laid—as if we weren’t currently in the middle of a war.”

[intcngcble-blog]

          IF ANDREA WAS being honest, she couldn’t give one shit about what the other was talking about, but she managed to nod her head along with what they were saying in hopes it would pay off, only to snap her head in their direction at their last comment. ‘ so? people still have needs in a fucin’ war. if it’s quiet, then by all means, get laid. ’

[rvphi-blog]

“AT least she didn’t cut herself on a scalpel or something.” dakota sighed, shaking his head lightly at his daughter’s antics. he chuckled at andrea’s words. “i haven’t relaxed in a year, don’t even know HOW to do that anymore.”

[intcngcble-blog]

          ‘ THAT’S TRUE, SHE is a smart little girl, though. so i can see why she didn’t go for the scalpels. ’ andi stated with a small smile before shrugging a small shoulder and sitting down one of the stumps she managed to take from protection to sit and watch the small girl in the tent with. ‘ at least sit down. got a few snacks and she’s right there - not like she can get away without either of us noticing. ’

[irasceris]

“ it wouldn’t surprise me if that one was your fault , too , andi. “

[intcngcble-blog]

          SILENCE WAS THE only option after the words fell out of the others lips. her heart raced and she wanted to scream, wanted to cry but there was a time and place for that. ‘ leave. ’ she stated in a cold voice, eyes never blinking.

[supvalmont]

“i’d kill for a proper cold beer. heineken, if possible. honestly, not all this prison-alcoholic-beverage combined would be all that worth. if things weren’t as shitty– i’d even consider giving up on alcohol. thing which never occurred through my mind before. that’s how tragic i find this situation.”

[intcngcble-blog]

          ‘ I WAS A budweiser girl, but i suppose any type of actual beer would be nice. especially if it keeps this quiet and we can manage to scavenge up enough sticks and dry wood for a nice large fire as well. but eh - not like we can do any of that with all the shit going on around us. people will think of negatives rather than actually try and go along with it. ’

[glowsunset-deactivated20190923]

her declaration makes him chuckle, a dry noise coming from the back of his throat. “you weren’t there when he NEEDED you.” it was true, she hadn’t killed him. but she wasn’t there to protect him either, to have his back when he needed her. one person he cared for more than his own life was dead because of the other who’d meant just as much once. “i’m free to do whatever i please,” he states, arms over his chest, “you gonna LOOK at me, andrea? or you gonna hide away?”

[intcngcble-blog]

          SHE COULDN’T ESCAPE from the accusations, she couldn’t grow past the pain and be better or use it for strength because of the amount of times she ran into benji - or even with sam accusing her of killing her own brother. ‘ i wasn’t the only one around, there were others and you have no clue what happened at that attack, benjamin. ’ she said quietly, eyes still looking at the ground ahead of her, refusing to turn around and look at the male. ‘ you’re not worth looking at anymore. ’

[stcrpriince-blog]

“Unless you’ve got a cuppa in those tiny little hands of yours.. or like.. y'know a water bottle or somethin’ – gimme a minute to finish me smoke in peace, yeah?” She muttered, cigarette hanging from plump lips as she spoke. She’d gotten one of the raiders to find a pack on one of their runs.. only if it was no bother of course. Glancing out to the horizon, the soldier, took a drag of her smoke, wondering what on earth they’d be  doing right now if this ‘take-over’ hadn’t had happened. Some days were so much easier then others to get through – even if the faces of her assumed dead family still haunted her awake and asleep.

[intcngcble-blog]

          ‘ STILL TRYING TO learn whatever slang is used for cuppa, but as you can see, i bring nothing for you and didn’t plan on it. was just asking if you were alright. seemed on edge, and also wanted to know where the hell you managed to get a fucking cigarette. ’

[meridiahq]

Nova narrowed her eyes at Andrea’s words; it seemed like mechanics were a species of their own sometimes – hell, counting the days where Nova barely felt like herself, maybe it wasn’t as deviated from the truth as she’d like to believe. “What are you on about?” The mechanic asked, raising her eyebrow, genuinely curious about what Andi had meant. Nova gulped when she heard the other girl’s answer, looking down at the ground beneath them before looking at her again. “Wanna talk about it?” If asked, Nova would say no – but her thoughts didn’t matter, so she didn’t care if people didn’t ask. Andrea might’ve needed to talk, however, and Nova wouldn’t deny listening to her.

[intcngcble-blog]

          IT WASN’T ROCKET science to most around camp about the drama in andi’s life. especially after her brothers death and herself and jax going from cuddly and giggly one day to hating each other the next. typical girl drama, many would say but with her emotions heightened from the war and half the camp blaming her for travis’ death, she couldn’t even bring herself to think of where to start or how to explain to those around her that what was going on actually mattered - and would matter if there weren’t robots trying to kill them. ‘ not really, ’ she muttered as she began drawing a few circles in the sand beneath them, looking over at her and shrugging her shoulder. ‘ talking isn’t going to fix shit. and it’s definitely not going to bring travis back. ’

[oflithe-deactivated20180705]

Adonis had NO boundaries, which explained why he leaned forward and shoo’d the stray hair on the top of her head back into place. The bot then proceeded with combing his own hair back and out of his face with a set of agile, slim digits. “Yeah? He is panting kind'a heavily, but they’re rationing water kinda HEAVILY right now. I tried to get him active when it rains ‘cause he’ll drink the puddles.”

[intcngcble-blog]

           EYES SCANNING THE other in front of her, andi pressed her lips together as the other talked, almost regretting opening her mouth and allowing small talk to happen. ‘ right, well not always the healthiest. would you want to drink from a puddle? ’ andi asked with an eyebrow slowly raising, she knew that a few providers would be willing to put water aside to allow the dog to get what he needed.

[outcrying]

i hate u, i love u / gnash & olivia o’brien