shitpost (complaining) about art
idk i am currently watching a "make art less of a chore" video and the advice was like "sometimes draw something that you know so you can feel a sense of accomplishment" and "draw what you like".
thanks dawg i wish i fucking knew what tiny thing i'm into drawing cause i don't find most subjects enjoyable at all. i can't even draw my own fucking characters because i complicated them (not design wise but style wise). the draw "what you know" is also funny because i found myself in a weird situation where there is something i know how to draw because i was doing just that throughout my teens, which is goddamn cartoons (not just the animation but like simplified big-eyed cartoons in that youtube animation meme style). now i just kinda happened to fucking hate drawing these so there is literally nothing that gives me a sense of accomplishment combined with the absence of imagination (besides nonsensical purple prose). hence i can't determine whether i'm in or out of the artblock even when i've done something. there's always the next "simple" drawing that i'll take 3 fucking days to complete. it's the stuff that most artists manage in 6 hours.
currently yapping here on tumblr because i have a friend with a chronical crippling disease and i fear complaining about anyting in telegram will just result in more moods being worsened. i know none of my issues will ever be this bad, none of them will ever be important and it's alright. i'm just isolating these complaints into a place scarcely anyone will find them in.
"journal then" -- fuck you
pointless rant for pointless goals, as always it has been
