INTP Confessions

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INTP Confession #797

I suddenly realized that all my decisions are motivated by a need for respect. Now I feel as though I can’t trust my own desires, since they are conjured by that need and no longer seem genuine.

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INTP Confession #796

People think I’m really smart, I’m really not. I just have a personality that lends itself towards seeming intelligent. Yes, I have a good memory and voraciously consume information, but that’s it. I frequently tell others that they are confusing what I know with my ability to learn.

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INTP Confession #795

I have a love for the arts as well as the sciences. My dream has always been to be an actress, but I'm rational enough to realize that this is highly unlikely. Now I'm leaning towards being an aerospace engineer, but I worry that my mind is diverting me from a career that, although is highly unlikely to succeed, could possibly makes all my wishes come true.

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INTP Confession #794

Relationships seem like solely emotional grounds to me now. Talking to partners is like playing Battleship: Feelings Edition. I’m good at picking up subtle changes in emotional states around me, but once I figure that out, I’m pretty much calling E5 into the abyss and hoping for a hit.

Worse is expectations of how I should feel when xyz occurs and how I should configure my face and body to demonstrate the correct response. The guessing games never end, so there’s little room left for the way that I think and what I need in a relationship, like the freedom to word vomit and nitpick at ideas aloud. At best, I get bored when my partner doesn’t encourage and support my Ti. Too long forcing Fe and neglecting Ti and I have to up my meds again so I don’t upend myself.

The emotional landscape of an INTP is not a pleasant place to set up camp.

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INTP Confession #793

I am an asexual INTP and it is absolutely awful when it comes to the prospect of having a relationship because I already have issues being open to people and then having to explain to someone that I am not interested in sex with them leaves only the emotional part in a relationship.

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INTP Confession #792

the more I try to search for my identity, the worse my anxiety gets because my longing for definition is not something that can be sated by an inevitable grey area

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INTP Confession #791

I am wary of doing things that recharge me because then I would feel the need to spend that energy by spending time with people, whom I know will disappoint me, and I am fed up of being disappointed. I am a bachelors engineering student and I find the masters students and even some of the PhD students simply dumb and pointless. This situation has been existing for such a long time that I sometimes wonder if I just am too arrogant. This is killing me. I cannot bear to think that I am arrogant. This self-negating thinking has caused me to break-up with a girl I was crazy about (Yeah, INTPs can fall in love). And, I still am questioning myself if I was in love with the girl or with the feeling of being loved so much and having someone to love. Even though there is no answer to this question, just trying to answer it revealed a lot many interesting things. I invite you to think about it.

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INTP Confession #790

I am a total INTP, but I also am emotional. Just internally. Like I controll my feelings. Yeah, I like to control myself. And I like to make plans - I just don’t abide them…

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INTP Confession #789

Right now i’m starting to feel stressed because i occupied one of the 2nd places in the examination you go through in your last year of high school in my country (it is the total population that presented the examination divided by 1000, with this they make groups of 1000. so i was the 2nd out of 1000), it is required to apply to an university. Everyone is expecting me to choose a career like medicine or an engineering, but i’m not that interested, i just want to study something challenging where i can participate in a lot of investigation projects, like chemistry, physics, biology, or even astronomy. I feel like i want to do a lot of things a bring a lot of discoveries to humanity, and help them improve. (i have this habit that when i talk about humanity or people my age, i tend to talk about them as if im not one of them)

But again, people think that it is a waste (they don’t say it, but i know. The gestures they make, are easy to read).

I got the results 3 days ago and now i’m starting to feel the pressure, now i remember why i never liked to get good grades and just went through school with the satisfaction that if i wanted i could beat all of these over achieving guys that liked to step on others.

how do you deal with stress when everyone is expecting something from you, and you just have a few days to choose what to do with your life?

i just wanted to let this out somewhere, because if i dont, i dont even know what ill do.

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INTP Question

I was just wondering if other intps have trouble finding out what they want to do as a job? i'm 26 and I already tried like 6 different fields of study. i have this idea lately to start an online homemade bodycare shop and i'm seriosuly getting into aromatherapy and stuff, but i'm scared this will end up boring me as well. just want to know if i'm alone having that problem, and maybe get some advice from intps who found their path?

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INTP Confession #788

I’m not easily tempted. I don’t want much and that makes it hard to live.

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INTP Confession #787

I get depressed about things that are stupid. But I reconigize how stupid it is to be depressed, but then I end up even getting more depressed because I can't make myself not be depressed. Haha it's a bad cycle

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INTP Confession #786

It always bother me how a lot of people equate having inferior Fe with being sociopathic.

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INTP Confession #785

I would very much so appreciate it if my sexual desires and my desire for love would sync up. I don’t equate the two at all right now.

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INTP Question

Does anyone else put on the ENxP mask in public?

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INTP Confession #784

I find myself being incredibly intolerant of other types. I know that I should be more accepting of other people and I constantly tell myself off for being so judgemental, but being surrounded by INFJs and Exxx people all the time will kill me, I'm sure. I don't understand them at all.

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INTP Confession #783

I spent the last two months trying to develop myself into a sociable, caring person. As a result, I turned into a highly emotional, unproductive idiot. In the end, It’s inevitable: I have feelings. It’s just that I’m not ready for them.