🩵. this has been a really hard decision for me and over at least two months of me deciding. Because having a solo blog for a character I am deeply passionate about is so important to me and the amount of love & work l've put into her. But please know this was a decision I made for myself, for my mental wellbeing, For friends and close writing partners that l've made here and stuck around that have truly built true connections + continued interest with sue and I that didn't shame time. The distance makes the heart fonder truly. And for me to continue loving/writing Sue, I think for the time being I may need to take a semi hiatus from a solo blog & write her in a space where I feel the safest, and currently where my capacity can handle. for the sake of my enjoyment and true connection when it comes to building lores and community to write with, I will temporarily write her privately with those that have stuck by me since the very beginning + kept her (and myself) around <3 . her current dynamics are very Very important/cherished by me & wish to continue to nurture and honour them in a way that I’m able to show up , and that is through a different space , which is where my capacity is at the moment. & if I return to marvel rpc one day, it will be a completely new start. Please continue below.
I want to just assure you that my love for her is and always will be, and is so strong but not enough to stay in a space that have exceeded to my personal life of pressure and having to prove my worth to write and have fun with a character esp when I'm also the type to never even cast out duplicates or monitor how one writes a character. my love for her is simply my love for her, and those that have written with me Genuinely knows how much I love her & respect for my own writing and my character as person. Kindness and patience is a big thing for me, and when that is disrespected time over time, over a little bubble of the Internet, it puts a sour taste in my mouth entirely. My safety in this environment had ultimately discouraged me too often over time that I think, I might take a very small break from marvel entirely. Please know it sucks, this sucks because she means sm to me. This has been such a hard decision for me to make and if/when I put Sue on a solo blog again, I need to be in a space where I can write her without the immense pressure I have felt. Thank you for the last few months of good memories & being the reason of my return to tumblr as a whole. I'm truly grateful because without sue, I wouldn't have the best friend I have now. I will one day have Sue on her own blog again, but for the meantime she will remain private and not announce publicly to the dash. I am in a much stronger and safer headspace and wish to stay that way. (pls dm me if we have a dynamic already with sue whether that be small or big and u wish/still would love to continue with the hopes & assurance that u know I would love to as well, but will be sending it privately as I will no longer be following marvel + comics rpc.)
Much love,
