Isabelle

𝐚 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬

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The End of Senior Year 🩵

Two days later and I am still unable to erase the to do list that I made on notion for the last week of high school. It's a mess. Everything from finishing projects to turning in textbooks is scheduled on there.

Those checkboxes are how I survived high school. Every assignment that was checked off, everything that I've turned in compiled into a large pile and converted into a grade. It all started with an item on my to do list.

Will I still use notion in college? Will I have a much larger list? Or will it be about the same workload? I had an orientation on Zoom this week. They said that college expects you to treat your study's like a full time job. They even showed us an example schedule of what they expected our weeks to look like. Most of the times were filled with classes, studying, and the gym. I bet my college schedule will look similar to that. But as a girl who has never once stuck to an exact time table, should I be worried? Should I be worried that the time table was so full, so that if I oversleep or spend too long getting ready the whole schedule will be bumped backwards.

I think I'm overthinking. I'll know when I get there. First, I have to pick what dress I'll wear to graduation. I think that I'll wear my doc martens that haven't been broken in yet to graduation.

Isabelle L.

Poet's Note: The fact that I've finished K~12 hasn't hit me yet. As someone who has actually went to school longer than most (not because I was held back) it feels like graduation has been long overdue. I know that I've always wanted to move on to other chapters, but now graduation is less than a week away and I'm not sure how to feel. It still hasn't hit me yet, but I'll be sure to give updates when it does.

Xoxo,

Isabelle <3

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Voting ended onMay 29, 2023

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Isabelle's Sick Day at Home

As the sun set, Isabelle realized that she spent the whole day by herself and maybe she should feel lonely, but she never did.

Due to pressure from school and sports, I've decided to take a full sick day today. I got really sick from the changing weather and bad air quality of the city. My eating habits were really unhealthy and I never had enough energy. I would get angry really easily, even at people whom I loved. This was a much needed break for myself and I was so relieved this morning when I didn't have to wake up and get ready for school.

I don't think that I've taken this many sick days off until this school year. Being a senior is so tiring (from my experience). I just can't wait until I charge my energy and go back to school feeling healthy.

On a more positive note, I still woke up early today due to my alarm. I got some homework done before the time I usually leave for school. Image a vision board to redirect myself towards my true goals in life. Now I'm writing this blog post and taking some time to reflect. Today I'm going to do some frqs for ap stat and ap bio. I'm going to take it easy and make sure to listen to my body's signals today.

[isabelleattheplaza]

Poetry Practice #1

When all you can do is watch

Think of the girl you see today When you want to run away She waits till mid morning to awake And when she touches the floor, the house wakes up too Remember hearing the coffee machine starting the sizzling of grease on her pan as she makes her eggs sunny side up of course. The natural clutter of her kitchen as weeks old mail piles up on the counter seems too artfully placed for you to clean You take a seat on the barstool and watch It is all you are able to do in the moment Watch. These are the moments you remember when you think she will be there with the first fall of snow or when you feel a wisp of wind But she is no where to be seen Those mornings were the last of your time with her And you would do anything to take them back There is nothing you can do So you sit still and watch You wait for her

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My company this week : Sonny Angel Therapy

Sonny angels have been my recent obsession. I've been so stressed from AP tests this year. I think that it's because doing well on my AP's is my last test to prove that I studied well in high school. That I tried my best and that I was a good student. After taking my AP statistics mock exam, I released all of my pent up anxiety by going to the stationary store and spending $. The best therapy for me these days is going to the bookstore that's 13 subway stops away from my house and spending money on books and stationary. On Saturday I acquired 4 new sonny angels. Retail therapy is effective, yet a very dangerous way of coping (if you don't have infinite cash exponentially increasing in your bank account), so I have to be cautious. That being said, four sonny angels is pretty expensive. However, it was worth it for my mental health ~

Some sketching and idea journaling at a cafe with little pink peacock angel <3 I've recently wanted to start learning how to draw because it seems like a fun skill.

Rudie at Starbucks

On Saturday I also picked up a wonderful book by Françoise Sagan called Bonjour Tristesse. It is chronically, beautifully, French. Made me want to book a ticket to Paris right away. It made me think a lot about the correlation of parenting and control.

Here are the other two Sonny angels I got!!! I love the cactus one because it reminds me of my childhood home. My mom got the yellow flower one for herself but she didn't really like it so she gave it to me. (I'm probably going to order another one for her)