chaand.

she/her // I am dirty,infinitely dirty,this is why i scream so much about purity. -Franz Kafka

[isthisatrashcan]

What can you do for love??

I am SOBBING DHDHDdnsns

Anything really, I'll cut myself open for love to reside in, I'll cause any chaos for love, I'll be the apocalypse for love,

I'll tear oceans apart for love. Anything.

[isthisatrashcan]

lady bird <3

I want you to be the very best version of yourself that you can be. What if this is the best version?

[la-dama-de-rosas]

tea as a love language

my lover who lives far, camille t. dungy / absolutelee / ousia-poetica (via siir-poesia) / salman toor / salman toor / chennai-expression / tea, brendan benson

[atticdiaries]

Portrait of your home

The boy you think you love, actually you don’t.

You rot inside the idea of it, of him,

His glances, tongue laced with lies, hands that worshipped ferociously.

The feeling you thought you couldn’t fathom into words lies in your hand like jewelry your sister wore, like gold like chains; in the house, you thought caught fire.

You lay beneath the white ash and remains of what used to be home, under your skin and walls clenching together, shrinking bit by bit,

How you see the windows for escape but you cant,

You find yourself somewhere between falling in love and losing sight of it. You hold our your chewy heart, with bleeding gums and crooked teeth clenching with morbid fantasies turned cement

You smell like violence and pain and warmth of love today,

Tomorrow maybe of fruits and flowers again.

You preach what’s not yours and cling to souls,

Soul of your bedframe, of your nightstand, of your tea, of your clothes hanging outside, of your kitchen,

You reside in everybody’s soul except yours;

Anything but your own.

You linger through shades of motherhood you’ve tasted, caressing your hair and bruised mind, you’ve met your fears and soaked them in your eyes.

-vedanshi

[isthisatrashcan]

hehe <3  GO CHECK IT . OUT. NOW !!

[isthisatrashcan]

you find yourself looking at your dirty hands again, hoping to find a window to your soul to fix the ache, to look at yourself with a bright smile just like always, to find yourself clean and stainless like before, to see past the hinging doors, to try again and again and again and again and again until something deep inside you dies

[isthisatrashcan]

it will be morning and your pain will be glossy again, wrapped up in words that you almost believe every time, laced with love which ends up turning you blind, with a heavy heart you look past it, because thats what love is to you , thats what its always been.

[isthisatrashcan]

its hard to think from your cold blooded brain when warm loves turns icy, when every touch of it feels like welcoming a ghost in you, when it turns into wordless  violence, when you beat yourself up, losing track of time, thinking what wrong step you made, to let yourself feel so pathetic, so so deep into it.

[mielnah-deactivated20220722]

this blog is my diary it's my sketchbook it's stuff on my bedroom wall it's a pdf it's an unpublished novel it's a collage. it's all of these things

[un-love]

tumblr feels like my tiny little corner ,, a dusty hidden shelf at the back of my brain , or even the corner of a terrace no one knows about . i come n go as i please <3 no pressure

[isthisatrashcan]

i wrote three pages, loathe them. made a cup a tea, sat outside thought about laying on the wet moss, went back inside wrote 4 pages, i think i like it.

[sweetpeauserboxes]

[calm-reef]

Make me admit stuff?

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? 3. Have you taken someones virginity? 4. Is trust a big issue for you? 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? 6. What are you excited for? 7. What happened tonight? 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? 9. Is confidence cute? 10. What is the last beverage you had? 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? 14. What are you going to spend money on next? 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? 18. The last time you felt broken? 19. Have you had sex today? 20. Are you starting to realize anything? 21. Are you in a good mood? 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? 24. What do you want right this second? 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? 34. Listening to? 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? 38. Who did you last call? 39. Who was the last person you danced with? 40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? 41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? 42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? 43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? 44. Do you tan in the nude? 45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? 46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? 47. Who was the last person to call you? 48. Do you sing in the shower? 49. Do you dance in the car? 50. Ever used a bow and arrow? 51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? 53. Is Christmas stressful? 54. Ever eat a pierogi? 55. Favorite type of fruit pie? 56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? 57. Do you believe in ghosts? 58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? 59. Take a vitamin daily? 60. Wear slippers? 61. Wear a bath robe? 62. What do you wear to bed? 63. First concert? 64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? 65. Nike or Adidas? 66. Cheetos Or Fritos? 67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? 68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? 69. Ever take dance lessons? 70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? 71. Can you curl your tongue? 72. Ever won a spelling bee? 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? 74. What is your favorite book? 75. Do you study better with or without music? 76. Regularly burn incense? 77. Ever been in love? 78. Who would you like to see in concert? 79. What was the last concert you saw? 80. Hot tea or cold tea? 81. Tea or coffee? 82. Favorite type of cookie? 83. Can you swim well? 84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? 85. Are you patient? 86. DJ or band, at a wedding? 87. Ever won a contest? 88. Ever have plastic surgery? 89. Which are better black or green olives? 90. Opinions on sex before marriage? 91. Best room for a fireplace? 92. Do you want to get married?

[isthisatrashcan]

ASK!!! (anything )

[weltonboys]

going home isn’t an option

my tears ricochet - taylor swift / looking for alaska (2019) / dead poets society (1989)

[inthetags]

Reblog and put in the tags ur signature piece of clothing, accessory or hairstyle

[isthisatrashcan]

#big black tees(???)

[isthisatrashcan]

how to stop loving you?? atleast lessen the feeling???? it's growing more and more, i can't help it even though ik you can never be mine

eat bananas<3

[isthisatrashcan]

kjsafhkdsf i think they meant to ask that question from one of the long questions post you might have posted lol

i literally went through my tumblr- i havent- posted anything like that - (??????????????? have i ) thoughh thankk youuuuuuuu<3 idhfsif

[isthisatrashcan]

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help what !?!?!?!?!? (is this something i dont understand?)