How I see the world...

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Enterohepatikus körforgás

És akkor eljön a pillanat.

Ülsz magadban.

Némán.

Sorban pörögnek a zenék, de neked fel sem tűnik, ahogy váltakoznak.

Te is váltakozol. Pánikroham, csend, kattogás, sírás, megnyugvás. Aztán kezdődik újra.

Mélylevegő. Be. Ki. Újra. Tízszer egymás után.

Most jobb.

Tíz másodperc néma csend, gondolatok száza.

Könnyek, fájdalom.

Akárcsak az enterohepatikus körforgás.

Vajon meddig mehet ez így?

Talán mire megoldanánk, már nem lesz mit megoldani.

Minden egyes kör végén egyre kevesebb vagyok, egyszer el is fogyok.

Reméljük nem lesz túl késő.

Jelenleg csak ülök és éppen készülök a következő alkalomra, mikor a mellkasom összeszorul és levegőért kapkodok.

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What is the meaning of the life? III.

What can you do if your love is sad because of you?

Am I the bad person?

I am the bad person.

I disobliged him.

He is sad.

He said to me he loves me, but it was no fire, no love, just some words.

I said I love you always more. And another day he said I adore you always more.

But today he didn't say it.

Just he looked at me with glance full of sadness.

It's horrible.

What can I do? How can I be a better person?

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What is the meaning of the life? II.

I don't know you, but I know you're a good guy.

Everybody is a good guy, but some people can't use their goodness and they do bad things.

Like you. (OK, I understand you don't know who am I thinking about, but it doesn't matter)

I lost some people. Too much.

And I don't know I am the bad person?

What can I do?

On Monday I knew one of my good friends went away but he is here still. Because his girlfriend took from us him.

It's horrible. People can sacrifice their lifes, their friendships and they forget everything what was before their partnership.

I lost some people, because they don't need me. And I have a love too, but I remember my people. Because they are my friends.

I lost some friends. I don't need them.

What can I do?

I lost some people. Too much.

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What is the meaning of the life?

I knew a girl, who lived in Italy and she was 17 years old, when she killed herself. She jumped to the dark.

I saw a week ago her pictures in Facebook. She's family was very good, she had a lot of friends and I saw her smile is real. But she struggled with depression. And her friends and family didn't see it.

It's horrible.

She wanted to be a doctor. I liked her.

But she dead.

I can't understand it.

And I need to write this story.

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"I love you once. I love you twice. I love you more than beans and rice. "

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(Szeretlek egyszer,szeretlek kétszer,jobb szeretlek mint dzsemmet kekszel.)

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'Cause what about, what about angels?

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