june

ㅡ Who were you before they broke your heart?

[lizzieather]

pink lockscreen.

[ghostllykisses]

One day, I’ll die and you’ll think I’m offline.

[becherdireinen]

I be like “idc”, then my chest starts hurting.

[itronum]

I tried organising my overthinking (just a vent)

where are you?

what are you doing?

are you having fun?

why aren't you answering me?

are you okay?

are you having fun without me?

do have more fun when you're with others?

am I annoying you?

did you forget me?

are you thinking of me?

do the others make you forget me?

don't you care about me anymore?

didn't you want to call me?

are the others more important to you?

why can you go hours without messaging me but I'm a mess after mere minutes without you?

why do I expect so much every time?

why does it still feel like you don't actually want to spend time with me?

why do I feel so hurt by you in moments like this?

why don't you check up on me if you know how I'm feeling at the moment?

am I nothing to you?

are you having more fun with other people?

why am I so fucking dependent on you?

how can you hours without thinking of me?

do you forget me so easily?

[itronum]

why do you promise things you can't keep?

[itronum]

why do I feel so empty without you, even though I have you?

[deadbyinsidee]

[deadbyinsidee]

every night

[perfectquote]

“The strongest people have a past filled with chaos, heart break and disappointment.”

— r.h. Sin

[jupitersmusings]

good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

[overlord-fire-bubble]

THIS ONE FUCKING WORKS. REBLOG IT.

[midnatwilight13]

For the Overwatch fans, I made the logo. Makes an awesome flag, or picture in your house. :)

[spilledclouds]

im overwhelmed. i need you to lean on; but you're nowhere to be found. i was there for you, in your darkest time. always fighting away the demons in your mind, reminding you how truly amazing you are. but yet again, here I am. alone. when will I remember to watch out for myself before anyone else?

-im all I've got

[karmenxxkarma]

I’ve always been the happy friend, you know the one who laughs the hardest and longest. The one who cracks stupid jokes and makes u grin while your upset. I’ve been constantly told that things don’t feel right when i’m not around. Always smiling, and never getting too mad, never getting sad. I’ve been the shoulder that they cry on. Everything they say I make sure they know i’m truly listening. The strong friend, the happy friend who seems like there isn’t anything that can get me down. I’ve been told that they wish they could be like me, not let things get to them.

However, I have no one to go to when i’m upset. I feel like I have to continue the show that is my smile even when the sun goes down and true feelings are exposed. People expect that of me. I’m the one they go to, I don’t go to them. I never have anyone check up on me, because they assume everything is alright. What possible thing can make the girl with the biggest smile in the room upset? The one who looks like they have their whole life together, what the hell in the world could make her upset?

This one time I didn’t have it in me to smile. Nothing in particular was wrong. I just was not putting on that mask for a moment. I was with my friends and one asked what’s wrong, I told her nothing, because nothing was. I wasn’t crying or even had a frown, but since I wasn’t smiling, something had to be wrong. She turned to my other friend and goes “she’s probably acting like this for attention”. In that moment I realized that I could never be pittied, because no one believes anything could be wrong. The fact I wasn’t constantly smiling that day, I had to be looking for attention. I wonder what they would think of me if I actually was in tears. Now I know they would think the tears were a show, I wonder what they would think if they knew the smile was actually the show.

[itronum]

*me staying up all night bc my bsf is sad and I try to cheer her up*

*me telling my bsf at school that my bf will probably break up with me at the same day*

*bsf just doesn't care and goes to sleep while I'm crying like a mess, just wanting her reassurance that everything will be alright*

thanks for your support, "bestie".

[itronum]

"if anything bad happens, call me! I will help you at any time of the day"

*my boyfriend breaks up with me and I call my best friends at 11pm*

"what do you want?"

*explains situation*

*bsf just goes offline and doesn't answer anymore*

thanks for your support, "bestie".

[support]

Everything Okay?

If you or someone you know is struggling, you are not alone. There are many support services that are here to help. 

If you are located in the United States, consider reaching out to the National Alliance on Mental Illness HelpLine.

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[ofmilknhoney-deactivated2023032]

I'm lost but not missing because no one is searching for me