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Currently doing a 58 day challenge. Another weightloss blog of a morbidly obese woman. I post progress pics, meal ideas, recipes, and my own story every now and then. Female, 24, 5’0” HW 309lbs SW 298lbs [May 13 2019] CW 235.0lbs GW1 198lbs, GW2 140lbs, GW3 118lbs, UGW 110lbs

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Sorry for the pause. I have been needing a break due to my dad’s funeral today, August 21st. I’ve been trying my hardest to stay within a deficit, which I have been according to my Fitbit calories burned vs my Lose It app’s food log. I have been having an evergrowing hard time of coping without absolutely losing my shit. I’m sorry if I fucked up the daily consistency here on my blog, but I’m going to post everything as soon as I get back, possibly tomorrow evening as a distraction, if I’m being honest. It’s 12:41am as I write this. Anyways, thanks for following along if you have been. I’ll be back soon with updates that are less than perfect. At least I’m not heavily drinking or doing a line of ket. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I feel like doing both but I’m really putting in the effort to stay on this cleaner path so I can be of sound mind and body all the time. I quit all that years ago, but breaking all my bad habits, including indulging in food that makes me feel good, has been rough as I’m forced to actually face my problems head on.

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August 15th, Day 16

I actually stayed right on budget today. Who could’ve ever thought it was possible?

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August 14th, Day 15

I’ve been out and about all day getting some really important things done. I finally got my tire fixed sinc the entire valve system needed to be replaced, and so I put that back on with help from my neighbor, did some grocery shopping for the next two weeks (and only spent $48.31!!!), hung out with one of my besties and I had a couple tacos with her, and we went shopping.

I spent $98 at TJ Maxx, but I know damn well I needed everything I got 😁 pic of my haul is below!

I’m still so sore all over from lifting and the house demolition and yet couldn’t sleep well last night. 🙃 so there’s that. I think I’ve got an issue but we’ll just ignore it and hope it goes away.

Here’s my log for the day!

Super excited for the maple bourbon pecan syrup 😋

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August 13th, Day 14

Today I did some house demolition and tore down an entire wall and it’s siding. It was build in the 1930’s, so the wood was not only old but it was also red pine. Which is one of the hardest woods you can use to build. It was actually not used often after about 1875 because it became endangered since it is such a good building material and lasts such a long time. This was also an issue. Anyways, I was swinging a huge sledgehammer for hours and prying out everything with a crowbar. I got eaten up by mosquitos, cut and bleeding from splintered wood, covered in old insulation, mold, and lead paint. I worked in this house for nearly four hours in 100 degree heat. I’m cheap labor so my friend paid me in breakfast, dinner, and a couple drinks. 🥴😂 anyways, here’s my log.

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August 12th, Day 13

I weighed myself this morning and I’m now 235lbs!

That’s a 6.6lbs loss so far! I’ll update this at the end of the day! 😁

I ate a little bit more today since I actually felt hungry. I feel shitty for eating tacos for dinner. Like, physically. Lol it isn’t settling well and I now have a headache from the sodium. Anyways, here’s my log for the day!

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Via Pinterest

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August 11th, Day 12

I worked a 9-5 shift, lifted weights, did 12 minutes of cardio, walked 4.39 miles, and climbed 6 floors of stairs. I’m not feeling hungry still. I don’t know what is wrong but I don’t care at this point. 🤷🏻‍♀️ just fed up with everything in my life and want to at least be happy with my body.

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August 10th, Day 11

I’m frustrated with myself. I’m not getting enough sleep and I’m eating MORE because of it. I’m averaging 3.5 hours of sleep at night. I have been up since 6:55am and I only managed to eat this amount, which I’m personally okay with because I’m still in a deficit, but not okay with because I’m trying to do this challenge right. Today I did a favor for my friend and drove her to her appointment and back because I knew she would be in pain and she bought me breakfast and lunch. I never have breakfast I was feeling weird and had bad acid reflux from not eating, so I ate. Dinner was snacks I could find because I’m too tired to make something. But here it is, accounted for. I’m going to get good sleep tonight and do even better tomorrow. I plan on going back to the gym after work because my job isn’t being enough all the time. If they’d just give me the overnight stocking position... ugh I’d be set. It’s a workout and the type of work I enjoy.

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Another song I dance and break a sweat to

https://youtu.be/7Gr63DiEUxw

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Herb Ritts outtakes, 2001.

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August 9th, Day 10

I weighed in today at 237.8lbs, a 3.8lbs loss so far. I will update this as the day goes on until night time. I haven’t felt hungry but I’m really diggin these Alani Nu energy drinks because they don’t make me feel shaky when I have them when I haven’t eaten. 😁

I didn’t feel like eating much today. I spent most of my day meditating and writing down lessons.

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August 8th, Day 9

I’ll start off with saying I have had a very strenuous and shitty day. Started off with three hours of sleep last night, but it felt like I got zero. I felt awake the entire time. I then had probably one of my most active days yet, clocking in at a total of 189 active minutes (constant activity, I was frantically stocking 50lbs cases of alcohol all day), 5.28 miles, 6 floors, and over 4,116kcals burned as of 10pm. Not even midnight yet. And you know what? I wanted Panda Express. I had it with today. I’m jumping back on track immediately but seriously, fuck today in particular. Here’s my food log still because consistency is key or some shit lol

The 408 at the end might not even be accurate 🤷🏻‍♀️ I think I over estimated but fuck it. I’ll pretend it’s accurate.

I’m going to chug this last liter of water and I will be passing tf out. G’night.

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August 7th, Day 8

I had a late night adventure and didn’t fall asleep til like 3am or so, and I was seriously hungry for some eggrolls from Jack in the Box. I accounted that towards the day! I actually didn’t feel physically hungry all day today, which was weird for me. I could feel my blood sugar drop a little bit sometimes but I have been having this new sense of energy lately!! I’m excited for that. I weighed myself before my shower after work (at about 6:50pm) and I weighed in at 237.6lbs! That’s 4lbs in 8 days, considering it was also the end of the day I’m excited. I won’t do an official weigh in until Sunday, though. 😁

Here’s my dinner: it was a vegetarian burger with green beans 😋 very yummy and filling for 307kcal all together!

Today I walked 4.38 miles, too!!

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August 6th, Day 7

Very strange day energy wise. I didn’t feel hungry all day until I got home at 5:30pm and ate something. I even had a latte and a protein bar earlier and didn’t feel as ravenous as I did when I had dinner. Maybe it was all the water? Maybe my body is getting used to the feeling of hunger rather quickly? I’m not sure. But I had a LOT of devilish energy! I also noticed how my resting heart rate went from 70 bpm at the beginning of this challenge and now it’s 59 bpm. I’m starting to feel normal again. Anyways, it’s hard getting exact calorie counts 😓 9 calories over but I guess that isn’t so bad when I consider everything lol

But don’t be fooled. I really do try my best to get it as on point as I can. It’s just especially hard when you can’t feasibly carry a scale around with you at all times.

I was seriously craving some fire yakisoba because I can’t EVER find it. I know I know. High in sodium and has absolutely no nutritional value whatsoever. I did, however, break a sweat eating it so, I mean 😂

Oh and also I got in 3.46 miles and climbed 12 flights of stairs!

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August 5th, Day 6

I’m not having a very good day today because of some personal matters, so I just ate for the first time today but went over by 37 calories on accident. 🤦🏻‍♀️ at least it’s accounted for

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August 4th, Day 5

Would you believe me if I told you I did the thing?

Well I did!

I had exactly 1,270kcal today and walked 2.79 miles today and did 10 flights of stairs 😁