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I'm no bullshitting fitblr. I want to lose weight, I'm not reblogging buff, skinny or healthy girls, because that's just redefining perfect. I'm 18. From London.

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The Tumblr Guide to Healthy Living a compilation of resources to help you eat right, exercise, and be happy! How to Start a Healthier Lifestyle

Nutrition  Eating Clean Principles Non-Dieters Diet Your Flat Belly Day 1 meal plan by Women’s Health Magazine Your Flat Belly Day 2 meal plan by Women’s Health Magazine Your Flat Belly Day 2 Meal Plan by Women’s Health Magazine Eating Low Carb What is Paleo Portion Size Guide Get lean grocery list 80 Healthiest Foods 100 Foods that Dr.Oz wants on your Shopping List Shirataki Noodles Tips to Snack Better 10-Calorie Sweet and Crunch Snacks Why Eat Raw Foods? 10 Commandments of Dieting Tips for Staying Healthy in School The Happier way to Diet Menu Food that makes You Prettier Look Better Naked One Week Meal Plan Part 1 Look Better Naked One Week Meal Plan Part 2 Portions Dr.Poon Diet The Best New Superfoods 12 Best Foods for your Abs Clear Skin Diet Foods that Melt Flab Away Raw Food for the Rest of Us Quick Combos 5 Ingredient Eating Clean Recipes Herbs that Heal What to Eat When You’re Craving… Eating Clean vs. Junk examples Transition to Healthy Living Eating Clean Video

Recipes Eating Clean Recipes Healthy Meal Ideas for Breakfast, Lunch & DinnerBefore and After Workout Snack Ideas Super 8-Step Salad Wraps Not-Quite-Unnecessary Raving about Broccoli Slaw Grocery List  Foods that Cause Bloating Eat Breakfast, Here’s Why Making Conscious Health Choices: Who Decides? Not eating enough…but not hungry either? Sunshine Oatmeal Recipe Oatmeal from The Pea Pod Chocolate Oatmeal Cookie-In-A-Bowl An Overwhelming Amount of Oatmeal Recipes More Recipes Starbucks Drinks Under 200 Calories Snack Attack Smoothies

Healthy Desserts Healthy Dessert Blog Banana Bites Grapefruit & Strawberry Popsicles (make them without alcohol) Peanut Butter & Banana Sandwiches Frozen Yogurt Blackberries Skinny Coconut Cupcake Nutella Fudge Pops Banana Split Cheesecake Bites Frozen Fruit Pops Watermelon Tart Healthy Banana Almond Chocolate Ice Cream Banana Split Cheesecake Bites Fruit Ice Cubes Banana Ice Cream Frozen Yogurt Strawberries Peanut Butter Chocolate Ice Cream More Frozen Banana Bites Apple Cupcakes Raw Tropical Ice Cream Cucumber Melon Popsicles Chocolate Covered Bananas Jello Skies Apple Peanut Butter Slices Frozen Banana Popsicles Banana Berry Soft Serve Volume Ice Cream

Cleanse/Detox 3 Day Detox The Look Better Naked 2 Day Cleanse Jillian Michaels Detox Detox Recipes Detox Essentials Lean Green Smoothie Detox Smoothie

Veganism/Vegetarianism  Free Vegetarian Starter Kit by Peta Vegetarian 101 Making the Transition Recipes by Peta Shopping guide by Peta Easy Sweet Potato Veggie Burgers with Avocado Shirataki Noodles Onehappyvegan VeganYumYum TheVeganStoner

Weight Loss How to Determine Your Ideal Weight How to Overcome A Plateau Beat a Weight Loss Plateau Why You Aren’t Losing Weight  How to Burn Fat Fastest Metabolism Boosters 5 Metabolism Boosters How to Conquer Cravings 20 Secrets of Very Fit People Fighting Belly Fat How Do I Lose Weight Thinking of Giving Up? The 2 Minute Visualization How to Keep Yourself Full for Longer Lose Weight without Dieting Flat Tummy Tips Commit to Fit 10 Ways to Get Your Diet Back On Track Constructing A Plan

Calculators Body Type/Frame Size Calculator Calorie Calculator Ideal Weight Calculator How Much Weight You Can Lose By Prom/Summer/Your Wedding/This Thursday/Tonight

EBooks Winning by Losing - Jillian Michaels 

Exercise Lift Weights to Help You Lose Weight How to Start Running [Couch to 5k] How to Tone Any Area of Your Body Building Lean Muscle vs. Bulky Muscle But I Don’t Want to Get Bulky! Abdominal Exercises for Beginners Running for Weight Loss Gym Cheat Sheet The Lazy Girl’s Guide to Interval Training Archive of Online Work Outs Top 30 Free YouTube Work Out Channels  100 Best Workout Songs Workout Basics Insanity Workout Videos and Calender Tone Every Inch Top 10 Calorie Burning Cardio More Links to Online Workouts Workout Finder Victoria Secret Angel’s Workouts 30 Day Shred Printable Chart and Videos BodyRock inspired Workouts Yoga: The Basics and How to Get Started 77 Reasons To Do Yoga YouTube Yoga for Beginners YouTube Yoga Routine YouTube by Body Part Bye Bye Arm Jiggle The Workout MovesLunge 101 Lean Thighs - No Lunges Target Workouts Yes, You Can Yoga!

Mind Feeling good 10 Ways to be Happy How to be Confident Gandhi’s Top 10 Fundamentals Focus Happiness Manifesto 3 Simple Rules in Life Zen Flow Chart Karma Cleanse You Don’t Have to Be a Size 0 to Be Beautiful Fine Bauer Mary Christina Hendricks Lexi Placourakis Kasia Pilewicz More beautiful girls

Battling Eating Disorders The Minnesota Starvation Study Why Starving Seems to Work  Stop the ED Hate How Bulimia Affects Your Body “The Binge” and Why You Should Eat When You’re Hungry What to do After a Binge by MatchStickMolly  What is Intuitive Eating?  After a Binge Tips to Control Binging Help with Eating Disorders National Eating Disorders  Dealing with Eating Disorders National Center for Eating Disorders UK

Inspiration people that have changed their lives and have lost a ton of weight!  soldiering-on  tillicanseemylovelybones funeralformyfat roserevitalized anotherdreamanotherlove peacefulserenityxhealthylife more inspiration and some more jessicablossoming hopetogether-staytogether 130 lbs Lost! amazing transformation theysayanythingispossible a tumblr dedicated to before and afters noexcusesgetfitnow88 jazzie-onamission

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"Love is louder than the pressure to be perfect"

Is the most bullshit thing ever.

The pressure to be perfect is so blinding, and so loud, it makes you deaf and dumb, you can't hear the "love" that is screamed at you. People tell me they love me ALL the time, I don't believe any one of them, I know that I love them, I truly do! I really love them. But I can not believe that they love me, why? Because I'm too ugly and too fat, they shower me in love, but I don't feel loved because of the pressure to be perfect.

I honestly do believe that once I am "perfect" (with the help of cosmetic surgery) that they will have a reason to love me and I will accept that they love me.

Also as much as the fitblr community seeks to encourage and promote healthiness and exercise it is part of this "pressure to be perfect". It's implied that healthiness is the 'ultimatum' once you get to your UGW you're some sort of guru, you have all the answers, you become popular and post your before and afters, you're completely idolised for being healthy and what not... I don't see how that is any different from the way the media idolises celebrities and do stupid columns on their tips and tricks to maintaining their weight. 

It's the same everywhere I look, the only difference between the tumblr fitblr community and the pressure that society creates, is that fitblr community denotes that perfect is "healthy". 

I honestly think this whole "love is louder..." nahhhh, if love was really louder I don't think the pressure to be perfect would exist.

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So last time I posted I was about to kill myself

But clearly, I didn't. So this is what has happened in the last 6 months:

I did try to kill myself, I took all my prescription medicine at once (iron, vitamin  and 8 months supply of anti-depressants) and I had the worst belly ache and dizziness, I was really nauseated and I, ironically, felt like I was going to die.

I still remember the taste of that drug cocktail. yuck

I had my stomach pumped and left hospital (they didn't ask any questions really)

So then I carried on with life, you know school and applying to uni and that, just trying to rebuild myself and it was all going well, but at the same time, I started to gain weight.

I did alright at AS, I got ACC so my predicted grades are ABB, but now I've slipped back into my bulimia and self harm all over again. Now I am failing....again... I do have a counsellor, she has referred me to a psychiatrist :/ 

I wouldn't say I'm doing better, but I'm alive which must count for something. I do want to thank everyone who tried to talk me out of it and prayed for me :* thank you so much!

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i seriously doubt any of those people will be happy