defiance

H, 33 Things change, and now they're getting strange.

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I worked i coloured i read i cooked dinner i had a videocall w dex. A very nice Monday as they go.

[shadechamber]

A fruit bat sharing his lunch with a butterfly.

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Going from this to working in a office today is hellish

[chiarrara]

why was messi lowkey serving saddam hussein hiding spot

[itswhatits]

The streets are alive w idiot drunk football men make it stop

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I feel like a person who has spent the last week existing normally in the world and I am a tiny bit sad bc i know it cant last but also v happy with it all. Looked after my nephew! Had dinner at my pals! Went to wales for both hiking and relaxing. I know this doesnt seem very much to people who can just Do Stuff but I am so proud I didnt cancel anything and I didnt get too mentally ill to enjoy any of it. Even w broken hand(s?)

It has definitely done good things for my brain to be doing such lovely things but then i worry bc im scared im gonna be too wiped to do nice things this week. It's funny cos like. I dont have a chronic illness except for depression and anxiety, which is so hideously invisible it makes me just seem like a flake and a shit person and I struggle with that so much.

This has turned sour i need to stay on point which is i had a really good week where I did all the things I wanted to do!!!

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I really value the parts of my day when i get to remove something i didnt realise was bothering me that much and feeling a v intense relief. Bra off? (If I have bothered to wear one) delighful, free the girls x trainers off??? Amazing didnt even notice my feet hurt but now they dont what a delight! Trousers off !!!!!! Instantly cooled down, stomach relaxed more. Lovely. My final one if is my fav tho, when i get into bed and dont need to see anymore and I take off my glasses!!!! Oh the absolutely ecstasy let me tell YOU

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The week ahead will be very chilled. I have a whole £8 to my naaame so it will just be dinners this week ! Payday friday tho woo. I just have work, and maybe after work ill try get out to some grassy places to read my book. Then off friday to go to norwich! Excited to see dex, nervous to meet some of his family but im sure it'll be all good.

Tonight im gonna cook some nice dinner shortly and maybe read ! Mustn't forget the bins

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Just got back from waaaales oh it was so nice. Am really glad we just chilled yesterday because today was a big hike! With waterfalls at the end!! It was mostly alongside the river but a bit of a scramble at times which was a lil scary w a broken hand (probably 2 broken hands lollll) but i didnt do any damage. We went to a bakery for matchas after then drove back. Really glad we did the hike early- left the campsite at 8am, cos when we were finishing up about midday it was getting hella busy. Glad to be home, just gotta do the bins so will be nice n chill.

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Campsite with a pub and on a river?? Been paddling and sitting by the water, had a pub dinner and now to wind down at our shed w a bed

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Made fancy everything bagels for lunch for later, got bombay mix for the car, hiking boots + rest of my gear and am ready for some big ass walks in Conwy. Omw to meet Sarah in North Manchester so she doesnt have to drive into town im so excited to be out in natuurreeeeee

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Dinner last night was fantastic ft the fancy matcha I had at lunch.

Met Alex n lil Henry straight from work at a new pub in Ancoats which was really nice - The Spinners Rest - will deffo be going back. Had a pint and a hang, Henry is so chatty it was wonderful. Went back to theirs and i entertained the kid whilst Alex made dinner, spiced chickpeas and tomatoes w a vegan coriander yoghurt and he made his own flatbread ! (Didn't rise v well and kinda fell apart BUT the flavour and texture was v good) and after Henry went to sleep we had a tinny in the garden.

The walk home was gorgeous, it was the perfect temperature and I really wanted to stop in a park and sit and read buuut I also wanted to get home and do a synchronised Ozark watch with dex so did that for a couple episodes. I got extremely high and I think ive woken up a lil high also oops.

Plan today ! Need to pack for wales, wash up, tidy, shower and do a packed lunch.

[seracadash]

My hate for the military vs my love for the 🫡 emoji

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Today feels very slow and time is treacle. I will finish at 4pm then go meet Alex and little Henry. Be nice to have dinner cooked for me!

Ha as I was writing this i got an email from a creditor saying they've agreed to write off my clients 20k debt aaahh yaaayy

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Woke up at 4am and not managed to get back to sleep, nearly 6am now so probs just gonna stay uuuup. My uni library doesnt have the imagination by sartre, will need to check central library at some point as I want to read it! Ive been getting into thought experiments and philosophy when I should be deciding what to focus my MA dissertation on and getting a head start on research methods and yet

[songsforgorgons]

From The Female Man by Joanna Russ (1975).

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Alex asked Henry (his son, 2.5 yrs old) if he wanted to go to the pub tomorrow and apparently Henry replied "with Hana!!" Love 2 be my pals kids drunk auntie x