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Depression

I’ve been alone for must of my life I’ve been alive. I have constant war that is going on my brain. I might not be physically hurt because I don’t see wounds but I’m in pain. Pain that hurts as much as a getting puched,stabbed, shoot, or burned, but it’s a pain that will be in the back of my head forever. I had a diffult times in my life that I remember that’s goes back to my childhood. No one is perfect so I can’t really blame my parents. I get into a wave of everything is meaningless and start wondering about life. Why are we here? Why are we alive? What purpose does our life have? I carry a deep emptyness that somehow drags me down. It’s amazing how much emotional pain is hard to fix. I can’t put a ban-aid on my emptyness. No way to speed the healing. Everyone goes through something that they struggle with. But for me the experiences I had and the way my thoughts form; I struggle sometimes to find any willingness to live. I have an addictive personally that it’s all or nothing mindset. I use weed to numb myself. However over time weed loses its effects and now I’m just high and sad. I’m just writing this to blow out some emotions, like a journal.

Rip XXXtentacion- I know the pain of loneliness he must of had.