screaming into the void.
2:34am. not sure what compelled me to write here. feeling numb, feeling lost, feeling stuck, feeling confused, feeling so many feelings. where to start. hitting walls. walls i built. walls i can't tear down. weighing others down. weighing myself down. nowhere to turn. turning away. closing off. shutting down. again. and again. and again.
i'm not used to this. i never shared before. myself. my soul. not forced to change, but changing rapidly. wanting to change, but tripping over my own feelings. stuck in the past. drowning in buried feelings. pulling others down with me.
how do we resolve this? is there resolution? what can i do? what can you do? what are we to each other. not your job. my job. losing energy. draining yours.
uncomfortably numb for years. dusting off old emotions. dusting off tools once buried, straining to build ones that were never there.
overwhelmed. anxious. terrified.
i'm losing this.




















