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Stop thinking about what you can't have. Just think about what you've got and work for it!

Because I believe my six sense!

The second chapter of my NZ life has ended! A bit sad to say goodbye to all friends i’ve made here and the life i used to live happily, though getting excited to start the new chapter in the south! But first…seeing my love in Australia in 2 days!! x

Thought it's already ended as we've separated for long. But I still talk about it often and...because he sent me a letter. I now knew what he wants me to know that how he thinks of me, but...I don't know if I want him to do the same or not. I just...don't know how i feel about it and what I should do for it.

So Lucky that I haven't started working yet! 2 weeks to have rest to get better✌🏻️

#cold #sick

On my way to be back in NZ

Here's some thoughts on my mind right now: This is the day 11. Or, it's even finished already. Whatsoever, i'd just done the 10 days of meditation retreat then came back to the social life! What experiences i had in the past 10 days...waking up at 4 am, sitting down and meditating most times, no dinner (on day 9, there was no lunch either!), sleeping on a concrete bed with a wooden pillow, being quiet and away from any electric device and the social life. I still don't know how to meditate properly and don't really know about buddhism. Though i am so grateful that i made it! I didn't even know that i could be quiet and stop smoking for 10 days. I'd never done that before! What i most enjoyed was YOGA. Oh i loved that having yoga every morning...will continue the practice for sure! And I'll never forget the time when i felt 'love and kindness'. Letting me in their umbrellas in the rain, getting rid of insects from my clothes or belongings...even we couldn't talk to each other, could felt their love and kindness as much as (or even more than) when we can communicate with words. Also it was a great opportunity to know what i need and love in my life. When i was meditating, it felt like impossible to stop music in my mind and to think of my loved ones ( and food, tbh!). So after all, figuring out 'less for more' succeeded?

#suanmokkh #meditation #thailand #lessformore

Going for a meditation retreat in 2 days. A bit nervous though i'm sure i'll make it!

#lessismore

I knew how i'm only me when I'm with my friends. Learning about myself a lot by this solo trip.

Loved asking each other like.. Don't you forget anything left? - nope! What about memories? - A LOT!! (It doesn't really work in English though..)

Things are out of control. I made the same mistake again and I'm sad that i did it again. Even we tried to stop it so hard but we failed coz we actually love each other more than we've ever thought. I just love the way he treats me, calls me like i'm the one, tells me he loves me thousand times and makes me feel like I'm loved by you as i'd never loved by anyone else before. Wish we'd be in the other situation though...

Ok, the whole situation sucks. And it's NOT OK at all. But you know what? It's kinda good opportunity to thank friends who always love me even I'm not a good person sometimes. Also it could be a turning point for me to think about myself. Like, human being. How to be a better person. Not for myself but for people around me. It's not about being someone else to be liked by everyone, but being myself too far isn't always a good thing. Well, now what I need to remember is 'if you can't avoid it, then enjoy it.' Life isn't easy sometimes but that's what life is. That's what it is.

Have worked really hard as i'd never done before then now my body is covered by hives and swelling insect bites. Do I deserve this shit? Nothing is worth this sacrifice. Fxxk my life!

Having no idea what going on my body is. Lots of hives. Itchy as hell *cry*

Need a kiss <\3