Glittering Soul @izzatenshi - Tumblr Blog

The more I look at you,

The deeper my love for you takes root.

The more I see you smile,

The warmer my heart becomes.

With the ever growing feelings,

How am I supposed to suppress these emotions

When I should have distance myself

And yet, this heart that desire you

This soul that is yearning for you

Unable to move forward

And still, it longs for you

And only you

Who make me feel alive

And you

Who showed me how to feel again

This heart of mine that beats for you

Like the pulse of the twinkling stars

May it radiate across the universe

tinylilemrys

The writer's barely disguised longing for a soft life shared with someone who loves them

Everyday I’m reminded

Of the distance between us

Of the barriers separating us

My selfish desires keeping me in these delusions

Wouldn’t I be happier if I let myself be immersed instead of questioning my sanity every single day?

No matter how much I screamed for you

You would never hear me

No matter how much I reach out my hand towards you

You would never grasp onto me

As firmly as the way my heart hold you

As gently as the way my arms embrace you

As lovely as the way my eyes gaze at you

The darkness in my soul that is constantly seeking for your light

Perhaps the beauty of your warmth is addictive to me

Perhaps it is precisely the reason why I couldn’t let you go, wouldn’t let you go

No matter how much it hurts me

#imissyou #so much #iloveyou #my selfish heart #my silly heart #that still want you #my broken mind trying to wake me up #from these so called illusions #is this a dream #or is this a nightmare #is this a lesson #or is this my ruin

This contradiction that is plaguing me

The struggle between I want you to know that I miss you and I want to stay hidden because you wouldn’t care anyway

Is making my heart in pain

These dull throbs and aches spreading inside me

And these tears that I forcefully swallowed are now flooding my chest

I feel suffocated

#iloveyou #willyoucare?#perhapsyouwon’t #istillcantletgo #mysillyheart

Happy Birthday to the love of my life💕

The person who makes me smile just by seeing your face, makes me giggle with your adorable antics, makes me flutter just by being you, makes me calm with your comforting presence, melts my frozen wall of ice with your warmth and tenderness❤️

I love you and all that is you with every fibre of my being🥰 I only want but happiness for you🥹

I love you

I truly love you💕

I love you so much that my heart swells

I love you so much that my whole body is tender

I love you so much I only want nothing but happiness for you

I love you so much that I’m fine being in pain as long as you’re always shining

I love you so much my soul is aching at the slightest warmth that you’ve shown

I love you so much that it terrifies me

I love you so much that despite the fear, I want to be brave

That it’s okay even if it’s such a laughable one sided love

Will I ever love another person as much as I love you right now?

Can I?

Maybe I don’t want to love another person other than you

Maybe I’ll forever be this pathetic

Because I love you so much and my heart knows nothing other than to keep on loving you, in pain and in scars, in tears and the ache, I shall keep on loving you

#im just this crazy bitch #sometimes i think if i have no dignity left #do i have no pride

My brain so traumatised it really tries hard to delete memories of Taipei. I barely have any recollections. I can’t recall anything. Even if I did, it didn’t excite me. I felt nothing. Numb.

Even when everyone gave their all. I did too. I tried hard to enjoy myself. It just wasn’t enough. I feel bad. So regretful…

My Taipei seat really brings me back to reality. Reminding me of the distance. It has always been far, unreachable, unattainable. We’ve always been strangers. I’ve always been an outsider. Watching the concert from that far up, truly made me feel like an uninvited guest. I was in the venue but I was not in the circle. It was as if there was an invisible barrier between us. That I am alone. Always will be.

I am usually neutral with regard to concert venue but somehow, the venue this time left me with a bad taste.

But you were really happy and excited. I’m sorry I can’t share the same happiness. I’m sorry I didn’t try hard enough. I want to be like you. I still can’t. I’m still full of despair and grief and pain and darkness.

Perhaps I am truly unlovable

I miss you

So much

That even the transient breeze

Feels like the sound of your whispers

That every passing moment

Feels like the memories of us, frozen

That even the blinking stars

Feels like the sparkle of your eyes

Gazing deep into mine

As I gaze into yours

Our souls interweaving