DIVINE

Tan [she/her] | ‘98 | 18+ minors dni

[j-0ne25]

Hey my dears,

just so that no one is confused or anything:

I know I’ve been on (writing) hiatus since last summer but I decided to take down my stories for now.

I’ve been in a very challenging time of my life this past half year and although I am grateful for all good things happening and the chances that I get, I underestimated it, too. Without wanting to overshare too much, I’ve been busy with many things irl and for the first time I am learning what real breaks are and how important they are for your health. Basically, I have been overworking myself these past months and experienced symptoms of severe burn out. Not that surprising when you juggle a career and university at once with ADHD.

However, I somehow lost my connection to kpop and fanfics as a hobby somewhere on that journey. I haven’t been keeping up with anything regarding skz and during this time it doesn’t bring me much joy either. Which is so sad. But I want this to be a safe space again, which is why I’m taking this step. And as long as I feel this way, it’s more comfortable for me to not have my stories online. Please respect this.

Creative writing will never leave me. I’ve been doing this since I was 4 years old and begged my mum to teach me the alphabet so I could bring my ideas to paper. But keeping up with kpop and basing my ideas on it has been hard. I can’t completely understand or explain it yet.

And for me, personally, passion is most important when it comes to creativity. Unfortunately, I don’t have the energy for this right now. But it will come back, I know it.

And please, for the love of God, take proper breaks. Open a window. Drink some tea. Stare out in the distance. Take a breath. Take a walk. Talk to someone. Do NOTHING for a minute. Don’t make the mistakes that I made. The most productive thing you can do is taking a break. You can’t fuel a car while its engine is running. Nothing in this world is worth neglecting your health. Nothing.

Plus: try to get enough sleep.

Be kind to yourselves.

Love,

Tan 🍓

[succubusboyfriend]

you have permission to pick that 2 year old "abandoned" project back up. it's not mad at you for setting it aside. and maybe time and distance have helped ease or erase the things that made you put it down in the first place.

[j-0ne25]

to all my neurodivergent / chronically ill darlings in university out there: ask for compensation for disadvantages/disabilities

this sounds silly but for the longest time I wasn’t aware I was allowed to ask for this too, even way after my diagnosis. perhaps because of internalised ableism idk. it would have made exams and all that stuff a lot easier.

some universities (at least in germany) even offer free help courses and such and you don’t need a diagnosis for this. two of my friends even got their diagnosis at the mental health centre on campus. i know it takes fucking long to get an appointment but still try.

and always remember: school isn’t everything. just because someone finished uni early, doesn’t mean they’re smart (believe me. i have met people 😭). life is more than that.

[j-0ne25]

just a typical day of writing (my job) and writing (university) and writing (silly fanfics)

[j-0ne25]

this aged like milk. i have tenosynovitis from too much writing/being on the computer 💀 no more writing for me for now

[ahopefulsun]

Wishing all of you a very merry "I suddenly have the motivation and time to write a minimum 10k fic"... please

[festival-of-pudding]

[j-0ne25]

btw

you need to make that story exist first. you can always make it good later. that’s what first drafts are for.

[j-0ne25]

just a typical day of writing (my job) and writing (university) and writing (silly fanfics)

[j-0ne25]

On a day when you have 10% energy and you give that 10% that’s you giving 100%. Just saying.

[j-0ne25]

Pomodoro technique. 5 minute rule. Discipline. Time blocking. Etc.

If this does not work for your writing either, try the following:

Don’t set a timer—use a stopwatch instead.

Write that dialogue, write that scene, write that paragraph, write that sentence. Fuck chronological order, you can assort the puzzle pieces later when you have collected all of them.

At some point I realised why I have struggled so much with these common methods: My brain doesn't do marathons. My brain does sprints. My brain works better with a detailed task. The more specific, the better. I don’t stop until I’m done. The dopamine I get from this works better than any motivational quote on Pinterest.

Instead of asking how many kilometres you can run in an hour, ask yourself: How long does it take me to run a single kilometer?

Instead of planning to write for an hour every day, ask yourself: How long does it take me to write this scene? To outline this chapter? To brainstorm the next dialogue?

And then: Do it.

(This is for creative stuff or hobbies when you have issues focusing or starting a task. This might not work for everyday errands that are boring to begin with, but you can still try using this method as well).

[j-0ne25]

Sometimes writer’s block is fear. Sometimes you are just scared.

Because it’s been a while. Because putting your thoughts on paper makes it more real. Because you are afraid of what others might think. Because you are afraid of what you might think. Because you are afraid of not living up to certain expectations. Because you are scared of failure after putting lots of work into something.

But you don’t have to be perfect, you just have to be brave.

[moontidez]

[j-0ne25]

i missed you too, sugar plum! just in case, i meant no rush, just making sure you know you’re loved regardless

i really hope writing is your safe space it’s very important yesyes

smooch 🤡🔫

no worries! i didn’t feel rushed or pressured at all, I know how you meant it <3 and it really helps to hear this… after being on hiatus for so long i am a bit scared to come back idk

yes it is!! i hope i can get more time again soon to write. especially now in spring while sitting on my balcony 😻 (why does the sun make me so motivated to do things lol)

sending you lots of love and many hugs and kisses 🫶🏻

[strayklds]

HAN @ 'Salmokji' vip premiere (260330)

[j-0ne25]

the day you’ll feel fine writing again, i’ll go outside, kissing men and women on the lips (utterly lovingly) 🤡🔫

oh my dear anon i missed you!! 😭 i have been writing these past months,,, just not a lot and nothing complete you know? but mentally i have noticed how much i miss it… like creating something is such an important tool for balance in everyday life??

[minsung-archived]

HAN — abracadabra challenge

[cb97percent]

blocking serial likers is interesting like... sorry for enjoying your work i guess i'll do it more quietly

I'll try to put this as kindly as I can.

I feel really uncomfortable having to repeat this over and over again, but let's please accept this as a hard fact once and for all: creators depend on feedback to keep creating, otherwise they cannot know if someone is enjoying their work and whether they should keep going.

Case in point: If it weren't for this passive aggressive ask, I would have no idea you were enjoying my work. I wish you had instead sent one to tell me that, or dropped a comment that said, "Hey, I enjoyed this!"

In case you may not be familiar with how Tumblr works, I'll try to explain:

Here, 💓 does not mean "I like this" like it does on Instagram or TikTok. Tumblr works on reblogs (even if it's blank), which means sharing. In the context of fics, leaving likes may translate into, "This isn't worth sharing, but have a like I guess". People may interpret it as they aren't good enough.

(No one can discern if you read the work or just bookmarked it, which is why it's not advised to like stuff to make a tbr shelf. If you don't wanna reblog with a #tbr tag, here's an idea: hit the reblog button but don't post, save it in your drafts instead. You can find everything you want to read in one place now.)

But when you like everything back to back, you are confusing them because... if it's good enough to binge, can't you spare a reblog to tell them "Kudos! I had a great time"?

There used to be an established feedback culture in the Tumblr fanfiction community. It was the norm to engage with authors about their work (through reblogs, comments, asks...) because everybody knew fandom is cyclical. It's give-and-take. If you give one, the author will very enthusiastically give back two. They knew engagement didn't mean "Part 2?", it meant a genuine conversation and reaction to the stories. There are works that come out of 3-year hiatuses just because someone sent a comment to the author, it's that powerful.

Isn't this why we created blogs here in the first place? To be social?

Then an influx of new users from other social platforms arrived, and that was when the relentless passive consumption started. Because these users thought (some still think, like yourself) Tumblr works just like other social platforms. It doesn't. At the expense of annoying my long-time readers, I frequently shared reminders on what not to do. I genuinely assumed, "I think these people are new and simply don't know. Surely it can't be the same people willingly ignoring what authors are vocally begging for."

So many amazing writers left because of this passive consumption, and they still do. I tried being nice about it; it didn't work. I tried being aggressive about it; it didn't work. I flat-out begged; it didn't work. I got so frustrated with not being heard that I put it on my bio, pinned post, library post, taglist form, member-specific masterlists in large header font, and I still get ignored every day. Every day.

I've run out of ways to deal with it, and I'm exasperated. What will it take for you to please hear me?

So yes, I block serial likers because it is a form of silent reading. Yes, I selfishly want my work to exist for readers who are willing to engage with me. Yes, I criminally want to write for readers who don't treat me like a content machine and remember that I am a human being with feelings.

I can't put out 15k every other day like some do because I write my work myself.

All that is to say, if you were truly enjoying my work, I just wish you'd let me know. If you think it's too much hassle to at least press one (1) button to show appreciation for something you enjoy, I invite you to please reconsider for other authors you may like. This is a rampant issue that is extremely demotivating, and by keeping quiet, you are slowly driving organic writers away from something they love.

And I would prefer it if my flowerbeds didn't turn into a wasteland of ai slop.

Thanks.

[chimivx]

This. Literally this. Genuinely what a writing community is supposed to be about.

“I’ll enjoy it more quietly”

“I’m a silent reader”

“I was scared to send a message”

Then enjoy no more writing from me.

In the start of my being here I watched sooo many talented writers leave this space, and I thought, oh no, is that what happens??? I watched incredible writers leave ‘cause they feel like ‘they suck’ or that what they write isn’t good enough. Doubting themselves because of the silence.

You think authors write books from silence?? You think blockbuster movies are created because of silence?? You think any community survives in silence??

Imagine standing in a room full of people, saying something out loud, and everyone gives you a side eye, and ignores you.

It is Not hard to leave the tiniest comment. An emoji. A ‘loved this’. To let us writers know that you were here. That you enjoyed something.

What are you scared of? What are you embarrassed for? You think us authors are going to swat you through the screen?? One simple comment or message I guarantee you (at least personally) will have your author JUMPING for joy and sooo incredibly giddy. You will make their day. You will have them thinking about your message/comment for the rest of the week.

I’ve heard of some readers comments SAVING the story. SAVING the fic. SAVING the writer and pulling them back into their work.

It is NOT that hard. And in a writing community, writers shouldnt have to beg.

Give and Take. Give and fucking Take.

You can’t keep taking. We’ll have nothing left to give.

[writingdose]

your inner child is so proud of the writer you’ve become