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[j-xtkins]

I’m deleting this account and all of the works on it.

Due to the content displayed in Season 2 especially the last episode, the good immensely outweighs the bad and I refuse to support it in any way.

I’ve reposted a few accounts that explain my thoughts towards it.

[zombiebaer]

Spoiler for 13RW S2 I guess

Eh im swearing a lot and my english sucks im just so angry

I fucking HATE the Bathroom Scene. NOBODY needed that fucking Scene. That’s the same fucking Problem with the Suicide Scene from last Season. The Suicide could be excused as artistic and showing how it is to get people talking but that was just useless disgusting Violence. They just ignored every criticism and did the same fucking thing again just to be SHOCKING and BOLD.  I feel awful after seeing that scene and cried for a few minutes. Sure there were TW but I’m fucking 20, completely untouched by gore most of the times and STILL it affacted me not in a good way. It caught me off guard (even more so bc you dont know WHEN the possible trigger can happen) and it is a Series only rated 16+??????  For me it feels like the Maker want to be the cool people who DARED to do such things but it just takes the focus away from the other issues that fucking Season was about. Like yeah bullying is awful even more when there is Violence like that happening but it didnt needed to be in Season 2. They just wanted a Reason to make a Season 3. I’m angry and Disgusted. Fuck 13 Reasons Why

[evering]

i really feel like that bathroom scene with tyler crossed a line. it was without a doubt one of the worst scenes i have ever seen. i still feel sick at the thought of it now, hours later. i know there was a warning and i know it is my responsibility what i watch, but the question is what exactly was the benefit of making the scene as graphic as it was? wouldn’t it have been enough to just almost drown him in a toilet? did they have to rape him with a broomstick? literally nothing was gained by this scene. i can excuse the s1 rape scenes and even hannah’s suicide scene, but this? no.

edit: for those wanting to skip this horrific scene, it’s 2x13 and starts around 38:00 and ends around 39:50

[mtvstyles-deactivated20190419]

this is just my anger towards the final episode of 13 reasons why, that had a massive impact on me watching it last night - there isn’t many, if not any spoilers in this post - but please be careful when watching this episode because there is a graphic and very violent rape scene that was never disclosed along with gun violence and drug abuse scenes.

i dont get affected by these things but season 2 episode 13 of 13 reasons why really had me shaking and crying and unable to breathe.

[icantbebotheredtothinkofnames]

minor rant

ok so I have almost finished 13 reasons why season 2, and on the whole it was ok for me personally [although obviously would be triggering for others] but the assault scene in the bathroom, the one where a broom was involved. Too much. I physically couldn’t watch it after that part. As somebody with no triggers or experience of any kind of assault, I almost threw up and started shaking violently and I hope anybody who sees post this is warned that it was extremely intense for me and I never even watched it the whole way through. That a widely distributed television show would show a assaults such as these [I feel the same way about them showing Hannah’s and Jessica’s assaults in season 1] is extremely irresponsible and a clear sign that the producers of the show don’t care about the triggering aspects of these scenes. A notification at the beginning of the episode is not enough. The major act of the scene that was so upsetting doesn’t even seem necessary for the story!

[asongofmarvelanddc-deactivated2]

My Thoughts ON 13RW S02

This show absolutely fucking sucks, and here’s only two reasons why.

SPOILERS BELOW

Keep reading

[j-xtkins]

Hey I love your Jeff posts and was wondering if your still writing for him

Hey! Thank you! Unfortunately I am not writing for him anymore because of personal feelings I have about the show (clarified like four?? scrolls down) But I do invite any other writer to take my stuff and write a pt 2 or something! Just tag me in it so I can read it.

[j-xtkins]

Yooo you have to at try making a part 2 of lose yourself. I cried even tho I said i wasn't gonna cry (after reading it the first time). In my opinion, there's a lot of potential for a second/ final part (how Jeff is just as heartbroken, how this impacted their friends,etc). But in the end, it's up to you. You did a great job though 🤔😭🙃

Yoooo thank you so much for gassin me up. Unfortunately, I’ve prettyyyyyy much retired from this blog. I have a post a few scrolls down about my issues w the show and I don’t feel connected to the characters or story for the time being. That and I’m in my junior year of film school. So a little busy.HOWEVER, I encourage you or any other 13rw writer to do sequels of my stuff and tag me in them so I can read it to!

[j-xtkins]

YOU ARE A RAY OF SUNSHINE 🌞 SEND THIS TO 8 PEOPLE WHO DESERVE IT AND TRY NOT TO BREAK THE CHAIN 💜

Cool cool cool

[imaginesforanyonex]

I was just talking with my friend and it sucks that I need to say this but

Justin Prentice is NOT Bryce Walker.

Steven Silver is NOT Marcus Cooley.

Michelle Selene is NOT Courtney Crimson.

They are all, actually, adorable children, especially Justin.

It’s pretty fucking stupid this needs to be said, but here we are.

[j-xtkins]

Headcannons?

YO. HONESTLY. What do you wanna know? I live for this shit. 

[marisatomay]

how do 38 people reblog a post of mine and none of them put anything in the tags how am i supposed to know what yall are thinking? do you love me? are you laughing at me? i guess ill never know because yall dont tag anything 

[j-xtkins]

Are you going to do the second part to Mija? x

Yeah, I have 4 versions in drafts. Smut is just hard.

[j-xtkins]

Please tell me there's gonna be a part 2 to lose yourself I started crying it's so good pleaseeeeeeeeee❤️

Prolly not. I don’t think any of my pt. 2’s are as good as the pt. 1, which is literally why I have 4 versions of Mijo pt. 3 in my drafts. But also I think from the request, it was meant to be a stand alone angsty fic. Sorryyyy

[j-xtkins]

IM SCREAMING @ YOUR DESPACITO FIC !!! FUCKING !!! DROWN !!! ME !!! IN !!! HOLY !!! WATER !!! (also like the thought of jeff fluEntLy siNGING THIS SONG IS A SIN ITSELF) AMAZING

IM S C REAMING DESPACITO IS 👏🏾 A 👏🏾 BANGER 👏🏾

[j-xtkins]

JUST FRIENDS HAS ME EFFING SHOOK! IMCKEKXKS KINKY STRINGS?¿ JEFF STOP URSELF IM DYING, HES SUCH A SMOL BEAN WITHOJT EVEN TRYING LMFKS.

Smol

[j-xtkins]

Why I haven’t written / Update

There’s a bunch of reasons that answer the question in the subject line. But before I go into some 2K word paragraph I want to say that this is my own opinion/belief. You do you. I would appreciate if you read the entirety of it though.

I have hella issues with the show. 

I started watching 13rw after seeing so many of my friends tweet about it. I finished within two, three? days and watched the last episode at my job. A few weeks past, and it really set in that this show really pissed me off. 

Three people in my life have told me when they were self-harming/suicidal. The first person was my best friend in the 6th grade. Second, my best friend my junior year of high school. Third, a close friend in my sophomore year of college (this past year). For the record, I skipped a grade, so the first time someone I loved hurt themselves, and told me not to tell anyone, I was ten. Then I was fifteen. Now I am eighteen. I say this to say, having the weight of the life of someone else in your hands, at any age, is not healthy. It is not okay. I was not qualified then to help, and I’m not qualified now. 

That being said, there are a shit ton of things I don’t agree with when it comes to 13rw. I tried to focus on just my issues with the show and not the characters, but I want to emphasize that when I say Hannah I mean Hannah, not Katherine or any of the other cast members. 

1. The whole thing is a revenge suicide. She didn’t leave anything for her parents. Nothing for her best friend Kat (sp?). No goodbye to the people she knew loved her. But she spent days planning, buying the nail polish to paint every tape with, recording cassette tapes, plotting who she was giving the tapes to, what order they would go in, consequences for not finishing, consequences for not passing on the tapes for people who she felt deserved to feel like they killed her. That’s vindictive. That’s revenge. Placing the blame of taking her own life on 13 other people (Bryce was justified), is revenge. I can’t even blame the show because that’s the whole fucking plot. No one is saying the show glamorized suicide. I am however saying that they sure as hell showed the concept of suicide as a final word to get back at people. In both the show and the novel that is fucked up. 

2. That one part, where Skye (referring to her scars from self-harm) says “this is what you do instead of killing yourself” is absolutely. inexcusable. for a showrunner to have on a television show that would be marketed to anywhere from middle schoolers to young adults. That is not what you do. You seek help. How come in the whole goddamn season there was NO. HELP. she didn’t call a suicide hotline. Didn’t talk to her parents or anyone about how she felt (at least not, non-cryptically). This isn’t even about Hannah, this is about a show choosing to say if you don’t want to kill yourself, you can self-harm. Side note: how many times did the show, post the number to the suicide hotline.

3. They didn’t show any sign of mental illness when concerning Hannah. I’m not saying that mental illness makes you suicidal. I’m saying that 90% of individuals who die by suicide experience mental illness (https://www.nami.org/Learn-More/Mental-Health-Conditions/Related-Conditions/Suicide) (http://depts.washington.edu/mhreport/facts_suicide.php), and even if you want to debate that statistic it is above 40%. I understand that someone, somewhere, would say “[insert mental illness] isn’t like that”, nothing affects two people exactly the same. However, because they didn’t depict Hannah with anything. She comes off as an overdramatic teenager. Which in many cases, is not the cause of suicide. 

4. The suicide itself is probably my BIGGEST issue. I can’t lie as first I was so amazed that they showed how gruesome it was, I felt sick to my stomach watching. But then I learned that mental health experts advise NEVER to show suicide on any mass media. It causes suicide clusters and copycat suicide (the Werther Effect). So despite the fact that it didn’t make me feel suicidal, it might have given someone the push to. That in itself is a reason to not show it. Don’t take my word for it though, here are some links. But Google works just the same. 

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK207262/ “Evidence has accumulated to support the idea that suicidal behavior is “contagious” in that it can be transmitted, directly or indirectly, from one person to another (Gould, 1990). This evidence is derived from three bodies of research: studies of the impact of media reporting on suicide, studies of suicide clusters, and studies of the impact on adolescents of exposure to a suicidal peer.”

http://www.billboard.com/articles/news/television/7776785/selena-gomez-13-reasons-why-criticism-teen-suicide (in which Selena Gomez and all the other producers who are not mental health experts, proudly ignore the advice of mental health experts)

http://www.columbia.edu/itc/hs/medical/bioethics/nyspi/material/SuicideAndTheMedia.pdf “There is overwhelming evidence that the magnitude of the increase in suicidal behavior after newspaper coverage is related to the amount of publicity given to the story and the prominence of the placement of the story in the newspaper.” 

Like I said, 3 of my friends have told me they have hurt themselves and they want to kill themselves. I have tried to hurt myself. I understand. But I cannot condone whatever the hell that show parades as a ‘real life depiction’ when they knew damn well it could cause more damage than good. 

You want good depiction? Watch the movie, About Alex. Watch The Skeleton Twins. Watch something that doesn’t write teenage women as melodramatic people incapable of handling their emotions.

I am a woman of color.

And for so long, I watched TV shows and movies (I’m a film major now) with no one that looked like me in them. It is only this past year, my 2nd year of college, 18 years old, that I stopped the internalized racism and started loving myself. In doing so I have consumed so much POC media I am proud of myself. Because POC are neglected in TV and movies and have been for too damn long. I watched 

Hidden Figures (main characters: black women)

Moonlight (main characters: gay impoverished black men)

The Get Down (main characters: latinx/black/and lgbt+ men and women)

Master of None (main characters: Indian men) 

Chewing Gum, DOPE, Being Mary Jane etc. 

Despite how good the content is, having a few POC as background characters doesn’t make a show diverse. It’s bullshit. @StrangerThings @13rw, especially when they are only there to be villains @Riverdale, or use a poc who is white-passing as an excuse. 

Now shows like The Get Down (whose main latinx female lead doesn’t want a boyfriend so she can focus on her career, whose main afro-latinx male lead is incredibly smart, whose main black male lead is a part of the lgbt+ community and in an interracial relationship in the 70′s in the Bronx, who shows the trans community not as a prop, but as people) and Sense8 (ngl I’m finishing Being Mary Jane first) are getting cancelled. When a show with all the aforementioned PROBLEMS is getting a second season for no reason. 

So yeah, I’m a little pissed. I am going to finish all of the requests I have. Then I am going to take a hiatus. 

I started writing the day after I met Steven Silver (Marcus).  I started writing because I liked the characters and I liked their potential. I need to get back to that.