Five Monsters Call Me Daddy

Jace Micheal Kingston || Father || 29 || Gold medalists and Singer

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Jace shoved his hand in his pockets as he walked through the park. It was just shy of a month that be disappeared into rehab and now he was back. Back home and things felt weird but better. He was better, not 100% but no addict really does get 100%. But he was able to function for the most part. Jace still had meetings to go on, doctors to check in with, a sober coach to talk to a few times a week. If he didn’t leave rehab, he would never know if he could function. He looked around at the house near by. “Geez. Halloween came quick huh?” He said

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elysian looked over and smiled with a small nod. “sure did. i feel like we just celebrated christmas,” she said. “i wish halloween lasted longer. it’s my favorite holiday.”

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He shoved his hands in his pockets. “I’ve apparently missed a lot.” Jace smiled softly and looked around at the decorations. “I hope my kids told here mums what they wanted to be because we’re screwed if not.”

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Jace nodded his head. “I know. It’s just a matter of when.” He said still watching the waves roll in. “Yeah, okay bad choice of words but touching is allowed. Normal human interaction are allowed here which is nice.” The man corrected and got quite for a moment. “My doctor here might okay me going to a gymnastics gym soon.” He said. That part of him for eaten away by fame and the shit it brought with it. “I mean….I’ll never be like I use to, which is something I wasted but….still….”

“take your time, there is no rush at all.” she offered him a smile of reassures. the blonde pressed her lips together from letting a smile escaping through but it failed. she gave it a small moment, she wanted to reach out and touch him but she thought it would be better to save it for later or before she left. “well, you know me. i can hug you all day honestly,” she grinned over at him. charlotte sat up, her smile grew. “is that so? oh, that’s going to be so fun for you. and yeah, you’re older now but it’s okay, i bet you’re still amazing as you were when you were younger, jace.”

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“I was a gold medalist. I could have easily gone to  Olympics....but no....some reason I tried out for that stupid talent show. I don’t know if it was a good idea or a bad idea yet...guess I’ll never know.” He siad with a shrug and leaned over, resting his elbows on his knees. “I guess you not stay here long huh?”

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“I think I do. I think I still have to figure myself out before I can truly answer that to be honest. They’re not forcing me to stay or leave. They want me to go whenever I think I’m ready and they think it’s okay….so whenever I think I’ve figured my shit out I’ll be home.” Jace looked at her and rolled his eyes. “Of course you’re mind would go there. Where else would it go?” He shook his head and looked it to the water again. “Thank but I probably won’t”

“no pressure at all because i did push it and i’m sorry for that. i shouldn’t have done that to you, jace. i’m sorry,” her voice quiet as she spoke her. her fingers picked again at her dress and nodded her head. “i completely understand, i get it. take your time with everything. you’re going to figure everything out and find yourself and when you’re ready, we’re ready too with open arms.” she smiled gently. charlotte let out a small laugh. “sorry but you said it out of nowhere and it caught me off guard. i was like, ‘what? here?’ but anyway,” she giggled out, shaking her blonde locks. “if you do or don’t, just know that you can anytime and i’ll be there.” 

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Jace nodded his head. “I know. It’s just a matter of when.” He said still watching the waves roll in. “Yeah, okay bad choice of words but touching is allowed. Normal human interaction are allowed here which is nice.” The man corrected and got quite for a moment. “My doctor here might okay me going to a gymnastics gym soon.” He said. That part of him for eaten away by fame and the shit it brought with it. “I mean....I’ll never be like I use to, which is something I wasted but....still....”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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Jace watched her nodding his head. “Okay.” He said softly looking back over the water for a moment. “You can touch me.” He said glancing back at her. “You said you wanted to hug me before and your allowed too. They allowe a lot of shit here actually. Like I’m allowed and encouraged to talk to you guys while I’m here. I just declined because I need to just focus on me for a bit.”

“is that what you want as well?” charlotte asked him, her eyes going back down to her white dress as her freshly painted pink nails picked at it once more. she didn’t want to pressure him into a relationship, she wanted things to be both on their terms. her eyes widen at his words, looking back to him before pressing her lips together but a giggle escaped out anyways. “sorry, my mind went somewhere else but it’s funny.” she shook her head, covering her face before removing her hands. “do they?” she hummed, leaning on her hand. the blonde nodded her head. “i get it and i understand. when i return home, you can always call me any time of the day.” 

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“I think I do. I think I still have to figure myself out before I can truly answer that to be honest. They’re not forcing me to stay or leave. They want me to go whenever I think I’m ready and they think it’s okay....so whenever I think I’ve figured my shit out I’ll be home.” Jace looked at her and rolled his eyes. “Of course you’re mind would go there. Where else would it go?” He shook his head and looked it to the water again. “Thank but I probably won’t”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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“No I know that.” Jace said. “Regardless of what we are the kids come first when I get back. And I know figuring us out really isn’t a top thing to do right now….but I’d like to at some point.” He said watching her. “I think in the end….no matter what, me moving out is the best. Together or not I think that’s what’s best for me and if we do stay together and become stronger, finding and moving into a place that’s ours.” Jace explainer watching the women and looking at his hands. “I think the status of us should be left to you. For many reasons but…”

charlotte nodded her head, “i agree with you. the kids come first, no matter what. we put all the kids first always.” agreed the woman. focusing on the kids was something that charlotte wanted to come first before their relationship. they were in the middle of this all, they needed to be first. “okay,” she nodded her head once more. her blue eyes looked over to the waves before looking back to him. “and jace, i would really love that.” she smiled softly. “i want to be with you and there is no buts after what i’m going to say. i believe if we move forward and become stronger, we will be amazing together. that’s what i want.” 

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Jace watched her nodding his head. “Okay.” He said softly looking back over the water for a moment. “You can touch me.” He said glancing back at her. “You said you wanted to hug me before and your allowed too. They allowe a lot of shit here actually. Like I’m allowed and encouraged to talk to you guys while I’m here. I just declined because I need to just focus on me for a bit.”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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“A part of you huh?” He questioned. “Why tho? After I treated you like dirt, did nothing for you or our relationship. Probably did next to nothing for the kids….like you can’t just forgive and forget everything. I wouldn’t and I don’t think I deserve it. Not yet at least and not for a long time….”

charlotte nodded her blonde locks gently. “i don’t know, jace. like i said, i don’t know when it happened but i fell in love with you. it just happened. maybe because i am just a stupid blonde,” she said, pushing back her hair from her face with a small shrug, pressing her lips together. she released them taking in a deep breath in then out. “i know i can’t with everything but whether we’re together or not, we move forward because of the kids and for our wellbeing. we’re going to be in each other’s lives.” she told him. “they miss you a lot. napping time with the boys isn’t the same,” she lightly chuckled. 

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“No I know that.” Jace said. “Regardless of what we are the kids come first when I get back. And I know figuring us out really isn’t a top thing to do right now....but I’d like to at some point.” He said watching her. “I think in the end....no matter what, me moving out is the best. Together or not I think that’s what’s best for me and if we do stay together and become stronger, finding and moving into a place that’s ours.” Jace explainer watching the women and looking at his hands. “I think the status of us should be left to you. For many reasons but...”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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“The shit you see in movies. Lack of freedom and freewill. Doctors and nurses not given a fuck about you, only a pay check. Shit like that I was expecting I guess.” Jace said honestly expect the worst of the worst. “It’s your house, Charlotte. It was never our because I didn’t make an effort……I figured you made up your mind when you didn’t say you were my girlfriend…..and that would make everything so much easier.” He said looking over at her. “It would have been easier if you just made up your mind and I have to deal with it…..because I wanna say I love you but how can you say you love someone when I’ve done the things I’ve done. There’s no trust, I would trust me….I don’t think I’ve done a single thing for you……for our relationship. And what really fucking sucks is that I don’t think anyone will put up with me…..besides you.” Jace said letting out a sigh. “I’ve fucked up a lot…….but treating you the way I did will be my biggest regret.”

“you know honestly, i was thinking the exact same thing when valentina told me where you were. then i pulled up to this and it’s completely different,” she replied back to him. charlotte’s blue eyes stared at him as he spoke, she wasn’t sure on what to say. what could she say? she looked down at her hands, fumbling with each other. “i didn’t say it because i wasn’t sure and because of apart me doesn’t want it to be over, you know? when i thought about seeing you again, i wanted nothing more to just hug you and tell you how much i love you and how i was going to stand by you through it all, thick and thin.” she told him, keeping her eyes on her fingers. never did charlotte think they would have a talk like this. things have changed and for the better. “we both would have to deal with it ‘cause breaking up is never easy. it’s heartbreaking.” the blonde looked up at him, hearing that, she felt a shiver go down her spine. his biggest regret.

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“A part of you huh?” He questioned. “Why tho? After I treated you like dirt, did nothing for you or our relationship. Probably did next to nothing for the kids....like you can’t just forgive and forget everything. I wouldn’t and I don’t think I deserve it. Not yet at least and not for a long time....”

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[charlotte-hepburn]

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“Its easier then I thought it would be. I mean it hard as fuck but….i don’t know. Not exactly what I imagined when I came. We’ve uncovered more problems then I knew I had….so there’s that.” He said and nooded his head. “Cool.” He said simply Ashe looked at his hands for a moment. “I….uh….I’ll call Bailey and ask him to get my stuff out of the house then. And go rip my house apart for anything left there.” He said shifting his feet. “I’m…..I’m sorry for everything I put you through, Charlotte. Being here I’ve learned just…..just how emotional abusive I’ve been too you and I was hoping that you saw that too…” he paused rubbing his hands together. “But yeah, I’ll get my stuff out so you won’t have to deal with me anymore.”

“what did you imagine when you came here?” she question, her brow arching slightly. she was indeed curious to know. this was so different from how they used to talk to each other when it was bad. she could see the difference in many things. “i’m proud that you’re opening up, jace. it’s going to be amazing in the long run, i know it.” the blonde suck in some air while she heard him. “i didn’t know what to say who i was to you because i don’t know what we are. the last time i saw you, it sounded like you didn’t want to be with me anymore. so i’m not sure where we stood in our relationship.” she told him, looking over at him. when he started to apologize, her stomach twisted, her heart pounded in her chest, her eyes started to sting. “thank you,” lowly mumbled charlotte. “i know it now,” she nodded her head for a short second. “there is no rush to get out of our house,” she told him, looking back him. 

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“The shit you see in movies. Lack of freedom and freewill. Doctors and nurses not given a fuck about you, only a pay check. Shit like that I was expecting I guess.” Jace said honestly expect the worst of the worst. “It’s your house, Charlotte. It was never our because I didn’t make an effort......I figured you made up your mind when you didn’t say you were my girlfriend.....and that would make everything so much easier.” He said looking over at her. “It would have been easier if you just made up your mind and I have to deal with it.....because I wanna say I love you but how can you say you love someone when I’ve done the things I’ve done. There’s no trust, I would trust me....I don’t think I’ve done a single thing for you......for our relationship. And what really fucking sucks is that I don’t think anyone will put up with me.....besides you.” Jace said letting out a sigh. “I’ve fucked up a lot.......but treating you the way I did will be my biggest regret.”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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“I’m here.” He said simply at first but took in a breath. “I’m doing okay. Working on a few more things other then the addiction so I can’t say I’m doing bad. Just gonna be here for a while which is probably for the better till I can find a good rehab close to home.” Jace looked at the sea at some other residents taking surfing lessons. He kept to himself for the most part and only did group activities when he was mandated. “Who did you say you were when you came here?” He asked still watching everyone before looking back at her. “Like your relationship to me?”

charlotte stood quiet, listening to his voice as he spoke. her head nodding right after, she was glad to see him getting the help that he needs and she could see it was doing great things for him and not just the addiction part. “jace, i’m incredibly proud of you for coming here and doing this. i can’t imagine it’s easy but you’re really strong,” she offered him a small smile. when he asked the question, charlotte looked down at her hands. she honestly didn’t even know what they were, she still didn’t. she looked back up over to him, “i just said that i was the mother your kids. that’s all i told them.. well besides my name,” she shook her head side to side.  

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“Its easier then I thought it would be. I mean it hard as fuck but....i don’t know. Not exactly what I imagined when I came. We’ve uncovered more problems then I knew I had....so there’s that.” He said and nooded his head. “Cool.” He said simply Ashe looked at his hands for a moment. “I....uh....I’ll call Bailey and ask him to get my stuff out of the house then. And go rip my house apart for anything left there.” He said shifting his feet. “I’m.....I’m sorry for everything I put you through, Charlotte. Being here I’ve learned just.....just how emotional abusive I’ve been too you and I was hoping that you saw that too...” he paused rubbing his hands together. “But yeah, I’ll get my stuff out so you won’t have to deal with me anymore.”

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There was something peaceful to him about contorting his body. Like now when his body basically collapsed back on himself and his legs hung over his face yet stayed perfectly balanced. He was a flexible guy for sure. He shifted into a few different position between he hopped off the pole. Jace recasted his head against the pole for a moment before walking over to her. “So.” He started. “Val told ya huh?” He asked as he dropped himself into the seat across from her. “Had to because she’s the only one who could put it together. Bloody women….”

charlotte’s eyes watched as he hopped off the pole onto the sand then making his way over to her. she never took her eyes off of him as he did so. “indeed she did,” she hummed out, looking at her hands before back to him. “yeah, i wouldn’t be able to have,” she said, her fingers now picking away at her dress as she spoke. she could easily recall the last time she saw him, it was heartbreaking for sure. her blue eyes scanned over his face, she could see how healthier he looked. he looked good, she smiled at him. “you look good, jace. how are you doing?” she asked him. 

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“I’m here.” He said simply at first but took in a breath. “I’m doing okay. Working on a few more things other then the addiction so I can’t say I’m doing bad. Just gonna be here for a while which is probably for the better till I can find a good rehab close to home.” Jace looked at the sea at some other residents taking surfing lessons. He kept to himself for the most part and only did group activities when he was mandated. “Who did you say you were when you came here?” He asked still watching everyone before looking back at her. “Like your relationship to me?”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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Minutes passed before the nurse came back to get her. “Miss. Hepburn, would you mind coming with me?” She asked and lead her down to the beach where Jace was. Balancing on a post on in the sand on one hand. Jace had countless awards and metals from his life before One Direction. He was gymnast that could have easily gone to the Olympics and he lost that part of him when fame took over. When it brought drugs, alcohol, nights with random girls.

“He doesn’t like to be bothered when he’s out here…and we’ve noticed a great difference when we let him come out here. Better then trying to get him to go to Zumba for the day.” The nurse said. “Please, take a seat out here. He shouldn’t be much longer.” The women gesture to some seats stuck in the sand and aged by the sun.

hearing her name, the blue eyes beauty looked up and nodded her head. “hi, yes, of course.” she stood from her chair in the front room. she fixed her purse over her shoulder before following close behind. her eyes scanned around the place, it was indeed very beautiful there and the view was just amazing overall. she could see the families visiting and supporting their loved ones inside as they walked out. 

the fresh air hitting her face as they entered outside in the back where the beach was.  finally, she got a glimpse of him as they drew closer to the man. a smile formed on her pink lips at the sight of him, she did miss seeing his face. charlotte missed a lot about him. she nodded her head, she didn’t want to disturb him with the sound of her voice. “thank you,” she mouthed to her before going to the chairs and sitting down. she then placed her purse onto the side table as she watched him, the smile never fading.  

[jace-kingston]

There was something peaceful to him about contorting his body. Like now when his body basically collapsed back on himself and his legs hung over his face yet stayed perfectly balanced. He was a flexible guy for sure. He shifted into a few different position between he hopped off the pole. Jace recasted his head against the pole for a moment before walking over to her. “So.” He started. “Val told ya huh?” He asked as he dropped himself into the seat across from her. “Had to because she’s the only one who could put it together. Bloody women....”

[charlotte-hepburn]

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the blonde mother stepped off the plane, it was a long flight. the past few weeks have been long and exhausting. she was tired, she couldn’t even imagine how jace was. she had her mother come into town to help jace’s sister with the kids. she knew how stressful it could be with all of them and mostly the three who were all under the age of four. while leo was with his mother for the week, it was nice that the two kept the whole agreement going. in fact, it was valentina who told charlotte where jace was. the singer went to the hospital to go visit him but he was gone and with no luck, she couldn’t find him.

after getting to her hotel and changing into something more wearable than the sweats and oversized baggie she had on. she found herself in a sundress and high heels, she fixed herself up before getting a uber and driving down to the rehab center. “hi, i’m charlotte hepburn. i’m here to see jace kingston,” the polite blonde smiled at the woman at the front desk. when asked if she was the ex-wfie, she shook her head. “no, i’m his… his, uh, mother to his kids.” she shook her head. she went to have a seat after they said they go fetch him. charlotte sat down, fiddling with her purse as she waitied. 

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Minutes passed before the nurse came back to get her. “Miss. Hepburn, would you mind coming with me?” She asked and lead her down to the beach where Jace was. Balancing on a post on in the sand on one hand. Jace had countless awards and metals from his life before One Direction. He was gymnast that could have easily gone to the Olympics and he lost that part of him when fame took over. When it brought drugs, alcohol, nights with random girls.

“He doesn’t like to be bothered when he’s out here...and we’ve noticed a great difference when we let him come out here. Better then trying to get him to go to Zumba for the day.” The nurse said. “Please, take a seat out here. He shouldn’t be much longer.” The women gesture to some seats stuck in the sand and aged by the sun.

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