I am not a saint

The boy never cried again and he never forgot what he learned: that to love is to destory , and that to be loved is to be the one destroyed. Jace Wayland Herondale || Shadowhunter || Dependent Jace from Shadowhunters/The Mortal Instruments for altversehq

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fairchildiiisms:

                  when clary met jace there was an instant attraction and connection if you wanna dig deeper. well at least for clary but she had a feeling jace was the same way as she knew. she knew that jace was always willing to do what ever it took to help her if she was in trouble but he was also the same way with alec or isabelle. ‘ it could be during rushes of adrenaline. they could be a kick start to your abilities. ‘ clary suggested with a smile as they walked together and held hands which made butterflies in her stomach something that tended to happen around jace a lot. clary couldnt help the playful roll of her eyes when he called her ma’am but didnt say anything about it either. ‘ so the place you got, is it a house or an apartment. ‘ she asked out of curiosity not really complaining either way she was just curious. 

Jace knew Clary had felt the same thing he did that night in the alley at Pandemonium. That was the night everything changed for him, a night he would never forget. He loved Alec and Izzy, they were his family, but his feelings for Clary were stronger. He’d almost broken his parabatai bond with Alec to help Clary, and despite how much it hurt him, he’d do it again if he had to. Though that didn’t seem likely now that they could all get along. “Possibly, the thrill of the fight has always been like a drug to me. Maybe it has it’s perks.” His thumb lightly rubbed across the back of her hand as they walked, her hand in his felt right, like he was where he was supposed to be. “A house. I’m not really sure why, but I didn’t want to deal with neighbors in an apartment. I don’t really like the idea of strangers living next door to me.” He stopped in front of the art store once they arrived, opening the door for her, then following her inside. “Here we are. Lead the way, because I have no idea what you’re looking for.”

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fairchildiiisms:

              in the beginning jace had been hard to read, but as she got to know him and start to have feelings for him, she began to understand him. which in turn meant she was able to get a read on him. she knew jace was willing to die for her along with alec and isabelle. but she was the same way. she was willing to die for any of the people she loved, jace was definitely someone she would jump in front of if that meant him staying alive. ‘ well if they work anyway like the first two. you gotta train more, me on the other hand tend to pop up in times that are life or death. ‘ which was true the first time it happened was when she was going to be attacked by the demon, then the second time magnus had been locked in a room with valentine who surely would have killed him, given the chance. clary gave him a thankful smile when he opened the door for her to walk out. she followed him knowing he knew the place better then her. so once he was walking next to her, clary slipped her hand into his with a smile. ‘ lead the way. ‘

Even after everything, Jace could only love Clary more every day. His feelings were a well known fact between anyone that knew him. He couldn’t hide it, nor did he want to. He didn’t want to live without Clary, all the times she’d been in danger and he couldn’t help her, he had never felt as helpless as he did then. “If I could figure out more about it, it would be nice. It happened in training with you, then it happened when Azazel attacked. I really don’t know how it happened either time. I just knew I needed a way to activate that rune and then it sort of happened.” He shrugged his shoulders. He had tried to figure out exactly how he did it before, but hadn’t gotten anywhere so he stopped worrying about the how, and just let it happen. Following Clary out the door, he walked down the sidewalk, lacing his fingers with hers. “Yes ma’am.” Jace looked at the street signs as they walked, turning when he found the right street. Keeping an eye out for the art store he’d spotted when he was walking the streets to learn his way around after he first arrived.

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fairchildiiisms:

             ‘ and the same goes for you. ‘ clary said with a smile, clary knew that jace was the one to trust with secrets and things. the others were good with talking about your feelings but jace was good at both. or at least he was with her, someone else maybe not. she knew the only other people who saw the same side of him that she did was alec and isabelle. the three of them knew jace wasnt the tough guy that he asked like most of the time. clary nodded when he asked if she was done. ‘ yeah, lets go get the stuff. ‘ clary said with a smile. she couldnt help but excited about getting new art supplies, even back home she had so many of them but it was still one of her favorite things. ‘ sometimes you cant pull out your steele in the middle of a fight. which is what makes your ability cooler then mine. ‘ clary said with a light laugh as well. 

Sometimes Jace hated how easily Clary could see through him most times, and how easily he had trusted her. But at the same time, he knew she would always be there, in the same way he knew Alec and Izzy would always be there. He would die for his parabatai, but he’d die just as quickly for Clary or Izzy if it meant saving them. His family and Clary were his weakness but also his strength. Once she was finished, he picked up the trash and got up, throwing it in the nearest trash can. Turning back to Clary, he smiled at the excited look on her face. He had always loved the look on her face when she was doing anything related to art, whether it was sketching or talking about it, or in this case, thinking about getting new supplies. “Well, maybe I’ll eventually figure out how it works and who knows, maybe I’ll be able to help you out and activate one for you.” He shrugged his shoulders, smiling at her. Clary seemed to have something to do with his power being activated. She was the one he was trying to save the first time it happened, and she was around when it happened the second time while they were being watched by the Inquisitor. “Come on, there should be an art store around the corner.” He opened the diner door for her, waiting to follow her out into the street.

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lightwoodicm:

The smirking grin remained on his lips. “Alright, Mr Cocky, don’t get ahead of yourself, last traiing session we had I almost got the best of you, and don’t forget the list time we truly fought, I kicked your butt.” Alec was good at fighting, but he was more of a leader, Jace was a better fighter than he was, and he did win their fights, even if Alec claims he won, he would have lost. The fight he was referring to was the one they did over Clary and Meliorn, when they almost broke their bond because they had their hearts set on fighting Valentine. But, no matter what, Jace would always be his brother and parabatai. Whether this break was earned or not, Alec couldn’t help but grow suspicious ever second he was here. He was distrustful of things he didn’t understand or didn’t know what was going on, but for now - he’d keep his comments to himself. This was the only break they’d get, before it was known, they’d be thrown back into the demons, the fighting, everything that came with their world, their jobs. “It’s good we’re all here. We’ll figure out what’s going on when we can, but we deserve a break. All of us. 

Jace couldn’t help but flinch slightly at the memory of him and Alec fighting. They never really fought outside of training until that day, and he had been the one who said everything he could to push Alec over the edge. It was a game to Jace, until it wasn’t, and he realized he’d truly angered his brother. “I would have let you do it that day. Kill me, that is. I couldn’t have fought Valentine without you, but I couldn’t do what the Clave wanted either. And I’m sorry for what I said that day, Alec. I shouldn’t have said those things just to make you mad...” Jace knew it was in the past and they were mending the bond between them, but he didn’t remember ever apologizing for it, and he felt the need to. He loved Alec, he was his parabatai, but he also loved Clary. He’d loved her since that night at Pandemonium, though it took him a while to admit it. “I don’t know about you guys, but I’m going to try to use this break to my advantage. Take care of things that I’ve been too busy to focus on at home. Of course, I’m still working on figuring out how to get home too.” It was true. He’d been working with some of the others here to figure out how they’d gotten here, hoping to get more information before he brought what they’d been working on to the others.

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scarletmagiiiic:

              ‘ yeah kinda, he likes to go by many names. though i wasnt aware there actual demons roaming around. ‘ 

“When you’ve been around as long as he has, that’s not surprising. There are, though we try not to let them hang around for long.”

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fairchildiiisms:

                ‘ well i would hope so. ‘ clary said with a laugh as well. joking or not she knew jace could keep a secret safe. once clary had eaten a little more then half her burger and most of her fries she had pushed her plate a little bit away because she was full. ‘ you live with two girls. the house isnt gonna be all girly but you know there will be some girly stuff especially if we have isabelle living with us. ‘ clary said with a playful tone. but their was an element of truth to it. but his comment about her being there did make her blush lightly with a smile. ‘ thats true, i would be lying if i said i didnt want to knock him on his ass a few times. you got the whole runes activating without having to touch them so you have an unfair advantage. ‘ clary said with a playful tone. she could create runes but sometimes in battle you dont have enough time to draw a rune so she was slightly jealous about his ability. 

“I’ll always keep your secrets, Clary. Only the Soul Sword will ever make me tell.” Jace had the whole mysterious act down to a T, and he was good at secrets, considering he had a few of his own. “I can deal with a little girly, just not full on. It’s not like I’ll be bringing anyone home that I need to impress.” The only person Jace cared about impressing was going to be living in the same house as him and knew him better than almost anyone. Outside of Clary, only Alec and Izzy really knew him, and he didn’t want it any other way. “Are you ready to go get your art supplies and clothes?” He asked, gathering up all their trash from eating. “Well, I’ll help you learn to do that. Alec is strong, but you’re small and quick, you can use it to your advantage. Oh, that’s coming from the girl who can draw new runes. I’m sure you can make one to work to your advantage in a fight if you need to.” Jace laughed. He still wasn’t exactly sure how the whole thing worked with activating his runes, it had only happened twice so far.

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           ‘ i have to agree with that, but dont tell izzy i said that. ‘ clary said with a light laugh and a smile. as she listened to him talk she took a bite of her burger. ‘ im more artsy then girly. dont worry we will make it feel homie rather then just a house. ‘ clary nodded when jace said that alec gave up his blade. which she didnt know. ‘ fair enough. i dont know i guess we are gonna have to find out. i beat izzy but alec kicked my ass. to be fair we did train when i first arrived and had no training at all. ‘

“Your secret is safe with me.” He laughed, eating a few more of his fries before he took a drink, being done with his food. Not training like he used to had definitely changed his appetite, making him eat a lot less than he used to. “If you were more girly, I probably wouldn’t let you help. It’ll be nice to have a place that feels like home again. Even if we aren’t all living in the same place, at least you’re there.” He smiled at Clary, listening as she talked about training with Alec and Izzy. “I’m pretty sure when you first got there, Alec would have found a way to kick your ass either way. But I’ll help train you, then you’ll be able to beat almost anyone.”

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“All right.  I’ll keep researching.”  Something good has to come out of this.  

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“Great. I’ll see what I can find out and let you know.” Jace typically didn’t work well with others, outside of his small group of friends, but when it came to getting home, he was willing to work with whoever he had to.

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He ponders it for a moment.  He does want to leave but he doesn’t want people to help.  At this point it’s what he wants more, and leaving is more important.  “That could work.  Maybe the missing details are ones science can’t explain.”  He still wishes Charles was here, he was better at this than him.  

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“I’ll bring it up to Magnus next time I see him. He’s been around a while, so maybe he’ll know how to put the pieces together.” He wasn’t sure any of the other Shadowhunters would know, but maybe Magnus would since he’d been around for centuries.

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“True and there could be a way to calculate where it will hit…which I have no…idea…about.  Let’s hope we catch it or have someone smart enough the comes in to calculate it.”  

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“Math isn’t really my strong suit, but I can see if any of my friends can come up with a way of figuring it out. We’ve all been trying to figure it out, so maybe with your theory involved we can put all the other details together?”

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fckisabellelightwood:

Sometimes she wodered how she would act if she hadn’t been a Shadowhunter. Would she have been different? Or would she still be the way she is now? The thing about emotions would be different, that she knew for certain. But at the same time, is it really that bad to hide how you truly feel? She doesn’t want to annoy the ones she loves. She doesn’t want to share every tiny issue she is facing because if she did, people would get tierd of her. So to keep things from others isn’t as bad as people make it out to be. Sighing heavily at the thought in her head, she looked at him and chuckled. “Well, hopefully I won’t burn down the house” she teased as she started to look through the cupboards for the things she needed.

Jace couldn’t imagine a life other than the one he lived as a Shadowhunter. Sure, there were some things that he’d change, but not who he was. Just things like ever thinking Clary was his sister, or being raised by Valentine and never knowing his real father. The smaller details of life. Being an ignorant mundane seemed awful to Jace. “Isn’t that why I’m here, Iz? To make sure the food is edible and that you don’t burn the house down? I love you, Iz, but you could really use a few cooking lessons.” He teased his sister, a smile on his face. He was hoping to cheer her up and distract her from whatever was on her mind, even if it was only temporary. He didn’t like it when any of his siblings were upset, usually that was him. Especially lately, but for once, he was happy and he wanted his family happy as well.

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“Oh please, Jace. It was bound to happen” he said and let out a soft chuckle. “You are way too distracted. If you want to keep the people of Seattle safe, you need to get rid of every distraction in your mind. Maybe if you do that, you won’t get punched by me again” he teased and then shrugged. “Now if you excuse me, I have food to eat”

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“Okay, so maybe I deserved it, but I don’t think I’ll be getting rid of the main distraction any time soon. I don’t want to anyways. Actually, I wouldn’t even call her a distraction. Either way, Seattle has been boring when it comes to demons, and shouldn’t there be other Shadowhunters around to keep Seattle safe? What about New York? Who’s keeping New York safe if we’re all here?”Jace knew nothing about the attack on Magnus and Alec, and had yet to run into more than a few demons that were easily killed, so to him, Seattle was rather boring. “Have you seen Clary yet? I’m sure she’ll be happy you’re here. Oh right... Yeah. Go eat before you eat me.” He laughed.

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“You’re right they are.”  He taps his forehead in thought.  “The problem is where it opens up.  I woke up in an alleyway so I assume the tear was around there.  It seems to open in various places.”  

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“But if we happen to see where it opens, we can get out. It’s just a matter of being in the right place at the right time. Difficult, but not impossible.”