your never truly free

Broken and destroyed are two different things. But when you find a person to put you back together or rebuild you your only fair is to cause them damage.

[rick-harris]

“Yeah, I think I will never be good at taking care of babies….Help me please”

[jackson-wence]

“He’s not gonna hurt you, he just likes to move.”

[jackson-wence]

@jacksonw: i’m stealing this leather jacket

[fvckandie]

It had been two years since Gracelyn had step foot in the school. She glanced around, smiling to herself. “Excuse me, could you point me to room 308?” 

[jackson-wence]

“I could but maybe I would rather hug you instead?” He chuckled turning around when he heard the familiar voice, she had told him she was coming back but been an ass about what day. 

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[jackson-wence]

“I don’t look at him like anything, I only see him as a friend.” She shook her head, wiping her eyes before any tears could actually roll down her cheeks. “At risk of sounding really conceited, you’re gonna have an extremely lonely life if you turn away all friendships with guys that want me.” She stated before turning away from him and walking back over to the door. “Maybe you should just go.” Mona spoke facing the door, lifting her hand to push it open. “I don’t want you here anymore, you can tell him to leave, too.”

“You’re breaking up with me?”  He asked staring at her back, hoping she wasn’t, he couldn’t help that he was easily jealous, and he really did love her.

[jackson-wence]

Mona felt her face getting a bit warm, her breathing becoming more shallow, as she listened to him speaking. Her confused expression turned to one that described pain instead. “So, basically what you’re saying is you don’t trust me. You don’t trust that something won’t happen between us, you don’t trust my loyalty? I get that I don’t exactly have the best track record when it comes to this, I’ve slept with pretty much every guy that’s shown me attention like he has but… I wouldn’t sleep with him. I wouldn’t cheat on you. And it really does hurt that you think I would.” She only began to explain. “You are the first and only friend that I’ve ever slept with and there’s a reason for that. You never treated me like I was some object, like I was a toy to play with. You always were on my side, always defended me, made me feel like an actual person.” Mona didn’t want to cry, she wasn’t sure why her eyes were starting to sting since she’d never actually been in this situation before. She literally felt like her heart was falling apart inside her chest. “I love you, I’ve always loved you. I’ve never been open to loving anyone else. Just because he has a thing for me doesn’t mean that I’m going to instantly jump into bed with him. I haven’t thought about sleeping with him since– since– I don’t even know, it’s been that long. Since I met him? I wouldn’t cheat on you. I wish you would just trust me, why can’t you trust me?”

“I never said-I never said you would cheat. I know you wouldn’t cheat. You wouldn’t end us like that.” He said clearing his throat hating to see her cry. “What I said was I dont like the way he looks at you or the way you look at him, it pisses me off, and I don’t want to be friends with him. I can’t, not knowing he could possibly consider wanting you.”

[jackson-wence]

Mona hesitated a moment, really not understanding why. She shook her head, raising a brow, “because he likes me?” She questioned, refusing to leave him.

“There’s something between you two I see it. I”m not stupid.” He huffed, “And whenever I see him or you two together I’m either reminded of it or see it, and it pisses me off. Because something is there and it isn’t friendship so yes I’m going to be mad because i’m positve he likes you and if you say he doesn’t then you like him, but someone liikes someone and I can’t take it.”

[jackson-wence]

Mona laughed quietly when Coby spoke, putting him down on the ground to let him wander as he pleased before moving towards Jackson. “No,” she shook her head. “I don’t get it. Why are you so angry at Jonah, why do you get like this whenever he’s around, what has he done to you?”

“You of all people should get why.” He said standing up glaring, “You should be well aware as to why I don’t like or trust him.” He said angrily, “So just go out there hang with him okay, I’m not in the mood.”

[jackson-wence]

Mona huffed as Jackson began walking away, rolling her eyes and dropping her head back. She groaned as her eyes closed before mumbling, “I don’t get why he has to be like this.” Looking at Jonah, she shrugged her shoulders. “You two could be such great friends if he’d stop being so childish.” She stated before looking down at the smaller blond below her. A small smile appeared as she watched him walk after Jackson, “I’ll be right back. Make yourself at home.” She instructed before walking after Coby, swooping him up into her arms, and following after his brother. 

Jonah nodded as he watched them. He didn’t understand why Jackson hated him so much. He didn’t do anything to jax. He watched as they walked away. He paced in the room he remained in. “Fuck.” He muttered.

Hearing the door open behind him right after he sat down, “What now? i stayed, happy.” He said clearly annoyed but all he heard was a small voice. “Chilisch” He turned around in the chair to see Coby in Mona’s arm looking displeased with his arms crossed.

[jackson-wence]

Of course she didn’t want him to go and not come back, she didn’t want things to end like that. “I don’t know, Jackson, are we? Does your hatred for him overpower whatever you feel for me? Are you willing to throw away what we have just so you don’t have to be in the same room as him? I just don’t understand why you get so angry being around him. He hasn’t done anything to you,” she stated, throwing her arm out towards Jonah. “I mean, I’m not even like this when Sophia is around and you know how much I don’t like her. I don’t avoid you when she’s around, I don’t suspect that something is going on between you two when I’m not around.”

Jonah looked between the two of them. He didn’t want to be the cause of something bad. Jackson was just jealous but there was nothing to be jealous about. “I’m not a bad guy Jax.”

“Fine!” He said annoyed before walking away, she wanted him to stay, he’ll stay but he’s not going to be around them, she just didn’t seem to get it. SHe didn’t need to be jealous of Sophia because they’re not that close, and he didn’t use to sleep with people who showed her the slightest affection, so yes he wasn’t okay with Jonah. As he waled way Coby once again unbuckled his stroller and walked to Mona and pulled her leg looking up at her. “I halp.” He said before turning to  toddling on after jackson.

[jackson-wence]

“Why can’t you just be friends with him? Nothing is going to happen between us, I’m not interested in him. We’re just friends.” Though her feelings differed early, she didn’t want him to go. In a last chance effort, she was going to give him a choice. “If you leave, I don’t want you coming back.” She tried to be confident in her words but a part of her knew that he’d end up walking out the front door no matter what she said.

Jonah looked between the too of them. “I should have just said I was Jesse.” he mumbled more to himself then anyone. “I didn’t want to cause a rift here.”

“Shut up.”” he said to Jonah, feeling his head about to explode. He then walked towards Mona. “That’s really what you want to offer me, me not coming back, you rather have me angry at the both of you. Or go and not come back.” He said with the annoyance clear in his voice. “Are we at this point?”

[jackson-wence]

Mona scoffed, brows slowly furrowing. “You don’t have a reason to be threatened. We’ve known each other our entire conscious lives, you have been my best friend for years. I’m honestly a bit offended that you think I’d sleep with someone who wasn’t you.” She explained, moving towards him. “Have we slept together, Jonah?” Mona asked, though her eyes remained on Jackson. “Have I offered or brought up sleeping with you or-or blowing you or anything since we first met?” She asked again, expecting his answer to be ‘no’.

“Um no.” he said looking at her. “And no.” he said. “If you even took a second to listen in the halls I’m apparently banging Sophia.” he joked. “Also not true.” he explained. “No need to be threatened, I’m not into Mona like that. Sorry.” he said shrugging.

He was starting to get a headache, this entire situation was annoying, and he sighed in frustration as he ran his hand through his hair. “i’m going home.”

[jackson-wence]

Oh, so now you want to leave?” She questioned, putting her hands on her hips. “Are you really that insecure that-that threatened by him that you can’t even be around him?”

Jonah looked between the two. “Did I come at a bad time…?” he trailed off.

“No i did.” He said more pissed at Mona, knowing he hated Jonah and still he was invited. “you know what insecure, no, threatened yes, and don’t act like I shouldn’t be.”

[jackson-wence]

Mona looked back over to him, confused. “No?” She shook her head, following him over to the door but still keeping her distance. “I invited him after you invited yourself over.” She mumbled before standing on the tips of her toes to look over Jackson’s shoulder at Jonah. “Let him in.”

Jojo smiled as the door opened. “Oh hey Jax. I didn’t know you wanted to hang out also. I brought over some great movies.” jonah smiled. “Jonah walked in. “Hey mona.” he smiled. “My gay side said we should watch Mean girls.” he said knowing that sentence would appeal to Jackson.

“....I physically and mentally do not want to be here.” He said reaching the limit of things he could tolerate. “I’m more pissed off then I thought I would be coming here.” he rubbed his temples. “Fine, you want your space mona, i’ll give you your space.”

[jackson-wence]

The thought of telling him about the times she and Jonah had fooled around that Jax didn’t know about crossed her mind but she knew that would more than likely end their relationship. Just because she didn’t want to be around him didn’t mean she wanted out of their relationship so she kept her mouth shut about the topic. “Silly me for thinking you’d actually respect my wishes.”

Jonah had texted Mona to hang out. He had no idea what was going on. He slipped on fresh clothes as he was just previously in the shower. He drove his big blue chevy truck over to Monas. He got out and walked up and knocked on the door. “Mona, your biff has arrived.”

Hearing his voice sent an anger through him. “So this is why you didn’t want me coming over.” Coby started climbing back into his stroller to buckle himself back in. Jackson went to the door and opened it seeing Jojo there, “Always fun knowing you’re around.”

[jackson-wence]

“I meant what I said, Jackson.” She mumbled before turning away from him. 

“Then you would have said something to get me annoyed and not want to come. You know how I operate.”

[jackson-wence]

Mona only let his arms wrap around her for a couple seconds before she began pulling away from him; bringing her hands up between him to separate their bodies. “Why did you come here?”

“For one, meaghan told me to talk to you because you were being a bitch for no reason, and two, you text me things like this and expect me not to come? You already knew it would have me running when you sent it.”