JadoreVidal

the curation of a curious life

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How to Break-Up (A Manifesto): Part One

What is the truth really?  The truth is coming to grips with something not working.  Like an old 50′s car you bought on a nostalgic whim, that old DVD from the pawn shop that’s scratched to shit?

My idea of relationships has always been ideal, I guess?  Albeit, I never grew up knowing what a traditional relationship was.  Meaning there wasn’t a fence (white picket, at least) with a mother in her mid-thirties interested in your every whim during your day.  Dad, coming home throwing the ball around pretending to listen to your day before retiring to the study for a whiskey and an eventual romp with Mom.

But what I felt relationships should be were where we’re holding hands, supporting each other, love? (whatever that is), companionship?

That wasn’t he and I.  My life was... uncertainty, angst, and anxiety.  But, I digress.

Breaking up is hard, so I am not here to tell you how easy it was.  How we looked into each other’s eyes while a single teardrop went down my cheek?  Nahhhh, that shit ain’t real.

I spent most of my time talking my narcissistic boyfriend off of his psycho ledge, which led me into a therapy driven session of why I chose to be in that type of relationship.  Awareness is the devil.  What did your mother do?  Father?  Grandmother?  What are you missing?  Nothing but dick bitch.  I’m missing dick.  The real question is why I allowed myself to be in a relationship where I was giving 100% and he was giving 30%...meaning he was giving near nothing.  Not dick, not money, not emotional support, nothing.  So...that is the real question?  Again, I digress.

As I contemplate the end of the relationship, I wonder...did you even remember what my dick tasted like?

(Part 2...later)

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Still

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Free styling my favorite scent for water color and eventually hanging in the bath... ... ... ... ... #howIzen #saturday #saturdayvibes #houston

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Serious Vibes #givemethereason #bosco #newgirlcrush

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I'm strong, yes, but do I always have to be the one to relent because I have a greater emotional intelligence?

Real Question

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eudaimonia - a state 0f happiness, health, and prosperity, occurring as the natural result of living in accordance with sound principles.

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My favorite.

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dearth - lack of; short supply

“There’s a dearth of women on television representing the Elaine’s and Tina Fey’s of the world, specifically black women.” - Issa Rae

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We must always take sides. Neutrality helps the oppressor, never the victim. Silence encourages the tormentor, never the tormented.

Elie Wiesel

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I know this person. #wordoftheday

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Friend PSA:  Sometimes I just need you to listen.

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When you’re gay and have a crush on a girl #wcw #womancrush

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What I’ve always dreamt my wife would look (and sound) like

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What we have - Warsan Shire

Our men do not belong to us. Even my own father, left one afternoon, is not mine. My brother is in prison, is not mine. My uncles, they go back home and they are shot in the head, are not mine. My cousins, stabbed in the street for being too—or not—enough, are not mine. Then the men we try to love, say we carry too much loss, wear too much black, are too heavy to be around, much too sad to love. Then they leave and we mourn them too. Is that what we’re here for? To sit at kitchen tables, counting on our fingers the ones who died, those who left and the others who were taken by the police, or by drugs, or by illness or by other women. It makes no sense. Look at your skin, her mouth, these lips, those eyes, my God, listen to that laugh. The only darkness we should allow into our lives is the night, and even then, we have the moon.

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Queen.