hello and welcome!

hello I'm Flea I have other accounts but I'm not going to @ them I don't want this account to be found by any of my friends

[jailshark]

Hello I've decided to make a journal blog because I can't journal irl and feel safer doing it online then irl

(plus my parents don't use Tumblr so this could help me get some things out to!)

I will probably talk about depressive thoughts or possibly sh// thoughts to...

Another reason why I'm making this blog is because I've made too many online friends and if they ever find this blog they'll know what happened if I go missing or leave. This isn't an AEG or an RP blog. I'm scared of disappearing. I'm scared of them

But if you're here thank you for reading and giving the time of day to look at my blogs even if you're a bot at the end of the day thank you...

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Maybe I should die since I keep killing people

Oops to sad to sad

Blehhhhh that nap didn't help

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Idk what to do anymore

I'll always be the reason ppl leave ig

Bleh to negative for today

I should just sleep

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Y'all it's national shark day

Fucking celebrate or I'm drowning your ass

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At least 3am is moving fast for me that's good

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I don't drink that much water how tf am I bleeding this much??

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Fuck I just realized I relapsed 2 days ago fuck

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I went a little bit to deep but there's only 3

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I know I'd look pretty as a girl but why can't you tell me I'll still be pretty as a guy

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Why can't I just be normal!?

Why can't I be a girl like she wants!?

Why does she have to sound so sad whenever I open up

Why does it hurt to want to change

Stop calling me a girl and saying I'm feminine there just clothes for goodness sake

Why can you just except this

I know I'm changing but please understand me

I don't want to be a girl

And no matter what I keep getting called a femboy

I just want to be a guy and wear clothes that's all I want

I'm sorry I'm like this but stop saying these things YOU'RE MY MOM

Just hold me and tell me everything going to be ok please

I'm scared of looking feminine so please stop telling me I look good as female and that you can't just have normal female daughters

Just stop and hold me please

I'm so sorry

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Ugh I feel like throwing up

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Body dysphoria hitting hard today

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I feel sad just wearing them

I hate this

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I feel sad

I'm such a lier

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Whoa I did throw up

And I just realized I didn't take my meds

At least I have some time B4 they kick in I can still cut

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Ew I'm so gross

It was so good tho

I'm bleeding now and can't feel my legs but man was it good

I almost threw up in the middle of it lolz

So gross so gross

It hurts so much but at least I can still walk

I went overboard so gross so gross

I feel so silly tho

I'ma cut and regret everything now

So gross :P