Three-Letter Word. Here we go!!

Have Faith. Trust. Believe.

[aib-00]

[jamiergrave]

Broken Mirror

Ever since childhood, she knew she had a lot of flaws. Something she hated about herself and continue to hate on. She didn't like the image she's seeing of herself.

Years passed by, she kept growing, but her self love didn't change much. She tried putting on a mask. She wanted to be kind and the kind of person who would understand anyone in every kind of situation. She wanted to because she knows how it feel to be on the receiving end of unkindness and unfair treatment.

She succeeded. However, why does it felt like it's fake she's seeing. She mean every thing she does nor the good things she says, but it didn't felt right. She starts to question herself. Everything is on a filter since she kept herself from saying offensive things to others. It didn't felt right to offend someone and she's careful on that. No, she's not masking it. She might not be showing her real feelings to other but that doesn't mean she's not real to them. She just don't want to be seen.

However, things happens and she got overwhelmed of things. Why? She did her best yet, what did she did wrong to be hated? Why was she taken for granted? Things got a wrong turn and she become too broken. Too broken that she start hating on herself more. She didn't like what she's seeing in a mirror - her reflection.

Time kept passing by, and hardships continue to come. She experienced failures after failures. Rejections after rejections. And though she didn't want to, she became affected by it. She seems to be drained due to it. It's exhausting. Then, again, upon looking at the mirror, she noticed it's broken - her mirror is. She finally lost the little things she love about herself and it's not getting any better.

Days after days, she didn't feel good about doing anything. She kept smiling but inside she's dying. She glanced once again in the mirror, and she can't help but tear up. She didn't like her broken reflection. It's hurting to see herself like this. She moved forward and reached the mirror. She touched it -- only to see that the one that's broken is not the mirror but her reflection itself. She lost herself.

How could she ever fix it? How could she retrieve the broken pieces one by one?

Broken Mirror ---- Broken Self

#finding yourself #sad #broken #reflection #thoughts #down #depressed #self #selfreflection

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[silly-luv]

[violentwavesofemotion-deactivat]

“…the impossible happiness of loving you in silence.”

— Julia de Burgos, from Song of the Simple Truth: Poems; “Poems to Armando,”

[thegoodvybe]

[understands]

[jamiergrave]

Disappointment

The one thing, I always felt about myself. I wonder when will it stop? When will I finally smile due to contentment that I achieved enough? That finally I worked! And I got what I wanted. When will this time of mine start to move again? I do wonder. And I kept wondering.

[thegoodvybe]

[thegoodvybe]

[jamiergrave]

Must be.

[jamiergrave]

Fine

Nope. I don't want you to help me when I look like I'm struggling. I don't want you to pity me when I look miserable. Nope, I don't want that. Rather, I want you to take care of me when I look fine. I want you to ask me, "How are you?" "Are you fine?" when I am doing well. I want you to, because most of the time, that's the time I'm not fine at all.

#fine #help #notfine #sad #happy #howareyou

[thegoodvybe]

[jamiergrave]

Love, such undying topic.

[jamiergrave]

Falling Behind, Falling Apart

What most of people don't know, unless, of course if they experienced it or currently experiencing it, is that it already hurts falling behind, how much more being blamed for such? It hurts that's why you dont want to talk about it and didn't intend to, since it's something that won't be solved just by talking it out. It's not simple. It will never be.

[jamiergrave]

"Past mistakes make the present you. Stronger. Braver. Better."

JaMierGrave

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