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Ever get exhausted of running someone else’s track when you can happily go with your own, at your own pace?
I’m tired of racing. I’m tired of chasing and putting myself at par with my peers when all they only care about is their own progress. I’m tired of seeing the other side as greener when I can’t appreciate my own. This gets exhausting too, and I am aware of my faults. I know that this habit needs to stop and I guess I’m reaching my peak. All I need is that small push for me to get over and cross this mountain.
I want to tell myself that life is not a race, that I can’t compare my chapter 6 to their chapter 12. I know that I can do so many things, but who are you really doing it for? I’m spreading myself too thin to accommodate and do everything instead of focus to fewer things. It’s because I’m afraid that I might lose whatever I’ll be investing so much time in.
I need to tell myself that I can’t have a new life, but I can have a new perspective. All these positive and forward thoughts are floating around my existence, and all I need to do is to acknowledge and cultivate it. I know I can do it, maybe I’m just waiting for somebody else to do it for me?
*sigh*










