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[jarofviolas]

Watched my spark come back (i had a cig)

[jarofviolas]

Heaven

the centre of the room can be anywhere, the bullet can be stopped in any place. In the heaven of uncertainty, a squeak can change your fate.

to be cursed or to be damned only one falls from your own hand

Then in the heaven of our nonsense all that is christened turns to dust and all that is flawed glitters with rust

jarofviolas

[violettes4roses]

[lilafellfromheaven]

and yet I’m oversharing

[mournfulroses]

Martha Gellhorn, from a letter featured in The Selected Letters of Marth Gellhorn

[jarofviolas]

I love my sister

[jarofviolas]

Intruder

Laying on the black sheets of my bed,

feeling the AC down my spine

and down my leg,

day-dreams of a sweet summertime

circle, in my head.

Even though it's not true,

I use it to manifest, only,

on the last stretch,

winter becomes a state of mind

that rolls over into summer,

across my every sun-set.

- jarofviolas

[heavymetallluver]

[jarofviolas]

Da baddest

[cupidsarrow777]

ᥫ᭡

[roseforviolet]

[urdeadsweetheart]

[roseforviolet]

[luthienne]

i wake up thirsty and i think of palestine. i go to the doctor’s office and i think of palestine. a sign in the corner of the waiting room says ‘this is a place of healing, disruptive behavior will not be tolerated’ and i think of palestine. they probably weren’t thinking of bombs and snipers and mass graves in parking lots. i call my parents and i think of palestine. i drive to the grocery store and i think of palestine. i look at the clear blue sky and i think of palestine. i put the dishes away and i think of palestine. i feed my cat and i think of palestine. i listen to music and i think of palestine. i read poetry and i think of palestine. i text my friends and i think of palestine. i think of palestine and i think of palestine and i think of palestine

[saintmaryoliver]

by mahmoud darwish

[jarofviolas]

My soul has learnt that growing up includes looking into the mirror 

And watching your eyes swell with tears, turning red. 

I don’t know when perception and beauty became the most important thing to me 

But Im unsure if everyone feels the same way, even when they say they do. 

Love has never felt so unattainable 

And the feeling of loneliness has never felt more real 

Posing in my sadness, feeling like a fraud, all these feelings I’ve never felt 

And its not like when your younger and new feelings don’t process as deeply 

This time I feel it exsitentially and its no more due to the influence of sad music

Its a pure hatred for a mind I can’t change,

Its never being able to rest from your own criticisms and constantly being on defence, 

I’ve become the blues I’ve listened to. 

[roseforviolet]

[jarofviolas]

me rn

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am an observer, but not by choice.’

[text id: i often asked myself / do i want love / or do i want proof that i am loveable?]