Mindless Writer

The world is full of Mystery that we must uncover. We are Explorers of the Dark and the Guardians of its Secrets

[jaylex45]

It's time to move on. It's time to let go. I need to be new but I don't know if i can do it... Can i do it? Let go of the past?

[jaylex45]

Dami talagang nagbabago. Daming dami nagbago. Mga tao sa paligid naten. Mga taong minahal naten. Mga bagay sa paligid naten. Parang ang bilis ng pangyayare sadyang hindi ko na kaya ang bilis. Nung una kausap mo pa siya then ngayon hindi na. Nung una ikaw nagpapasaya sa kanya ngayon iba na. Hindi na ako ang rason ng kasiyahan niya. Ang sad lang kase nabitawan ko siya dahil sa mistakes ko sa buhay. Kung siya lang ang napili ko. Magiging masaya ba ako sa kanya? Kahit malayo siya? Idk maybe since masaya ako nung time na siya ang nasa tabi ko kahit napakalayo namen. It was my happiest moment sa buhay ko nun pero nangunguna ang araw na nanganak ang baby ko. I just missed the days na every night kausap ko siya hanggang umaga. Nagtatawanan. Nagkekwentuhan. Naglalambing sa isa't isa. Phone sex 😂 but most of all the support she gave me when i was in my darkest time. Kung hindi ko siya nakilala, wala na ako dito. I guess i have to let her go completely and be happy for her and for me. I just have to let her go... *Sigh*

[jaylex45]

I'm here again, thinking about the past.

I don't know what to do anything anymore. I don't even know why am like this. I'm just tired... frustrated... *Sigh* what do i do now? What can i do? Dammit I'm at this point again when i got nothing to do...

[astraldemise]

do you have any plans on playing the uuuhhh..... kfc dating sim coming out soon? and yes... kfc as in the fried chicken place

excuse me ?

[astraldemise]

nevermind i cant actually bring myself to google this i cant have “kfc dating sim” in my search history i cant

[astraldemise]

[astraldemise]

[schoute-deactivated20200821]

EXCUSE ME

[rashemibabe]

[jaylex45]

Omg

[jaylex45]

If only...

Seeing her again makes me ask that question again, woukd i be happier with her? Would i be able to change if it was her?

Seeing her happy makes me think all the possibilities if i were to choose her. I would be glad to travel that far just to be with her and i would achieve the dream to travel far for this place. I just regret it. I regret everything and i taken for granted her love for me. I taken for granted everything in my life. Thinking that it would last forever if i take care of it carefully and yet nothing stayed... Nothing last forever and so her love for me did last that long... If only...

[jaylex45]

Getting to work at 7am or 4pm

Getting ready to make people happy

Getting ready for a night or day of sadness

Lets get going and do our usual deeds

An suffering and saddening deeds

The nothingness of my mind

[jaylex45]

Nostalgia

Sometimes when walking along the path, you gonna meet that person again and you will just go on and on without noticing that you aren't walking and just there, talking to that person. Remembering everything then nostalgia took over and you're stunned. Thinking every mistakes, actions and decisions. You don't know what to do. Asking question 'what if i done this differently?' or 'what is i didn't do that?' a lot of question just flood's into your mind like a tsunami and now you're crying and angry at yourself, looking back everything was fine and now how did this happened? What did i go wrong?

Look, that's how life test your strength. No matter what happened, you already done it. No turning back, That's it. Now look at mirror and what do you see? A person. A stupid one. You're just a human and no matter what keep on walking, Everything is fine. You just have to pick what path you gonna take.

[jaylex45]

Idk what to do. I just want to go back, even tho i can't

[jaylex45]

I want to go back in time when i was free

My heart

[jaylex45]

Idk what to say, I feel happy and terrified.

Holding this beautiful soul in my hands.

Thinking that i have to make this girl dreams come true no matter what and protect her.

I am a father now and she is my daughter, my beloved clementine. I will nurture you and protect your dreams.

So that you won't have to face what i have been.

[jaylex45]

At some point in life, I wish you were here besides me.

[jaylex45]

May this year be good to me but i know life is way fucked up to do it

My mind

[memeuplift]

@memespalace​

[jaylex45]

Actually it's true af

[yesterdaysprint]

Barnard Bulletin, New York, December 20, 1935

[doctorbluesmanreturns]

Glad to know that the people in 1935 were EXACTLY the same as we are lol

[jaylex45]

Pretty much me in the end

[jaylex45]

I'm lost again... What do i do now? Which path do i go?

[jaylex45]

Christmas joy

Its already december and everyone is preparing for the most awaited holiday in the year, Christmas.

As everyone of us are going to store to buy our treats, decoration and gifts. There's one person who doesn't enjoy Christmas.

His name is Eden, the girl who once celebrated christmas with all of hia family, friends and her love of her life.

She was happy and joyful as this holiday comes upon them but one, everything change. Family members doesn't go to her house anymore. Friends started to pass ways and celebrating Christmas without her. Her love started to see another girl.

She started to hate the holiday. Thinking that this is bullshit that no one is really the people a year after christmas. She look upon it with disgust as people walk past by her, holding gifts, decoration or treats. But in the end of the day she cries. Wishing that everything go back. Wishing that the last Christmas would repeat but knowing this, she cried more because no matter what everything change. That everythingbis better to die now...

On the day of Christmas eve, she decide to kill herself. On the spike of 12, she will drink all of her pills and lay down on her bed but knowing that, she hesitated.

"what the point of it?"

[tsuki-dono-7-deactivated2019102]

[neuroticgaymusings-deactivated2]

[note-a-bear]

STOP THIS

[jaylex45]

LMAO