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{2002} {she/her} {random posts} {mdni} {interests:books/politics/harvey from stardew valley for some reason} {jay’s diary}

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i love how tumblr can be my little diary that i share with friends that have no idea who i am

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attempting to indulge in my habits again and i’m taking my meds consistently again

i hate starting from square one

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back from my depression hiatus…how we doing chat?

here are some pics from my walk today if you care

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just survived a horrible case of strep throat

never thought i’d see the sun again

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wrote two fics about john kiriakou on ao3 i feel so alive

12 year old me would be so proud

(if you want to read them my user is jaybby9 i wrote mr. kiriakou’s babysitter (tw:smut) and am currently writing forced love)

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john kiriakou crush going so hard im back to writing fanfiction after 6 years

i’ve been glued to my computer for the last four days just writing

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do I divorce elliott to marry sam?

i’ve never been a big elliott fan so i say go for it

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i hate how bad i want john kiriakou, he reminds me of a hot teacher you still think about every now and again

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my two current reads (i usually do nonfiction and fiction at the same time)

i’m starting the count of monte cristo tomorrow and i’ve heard nothing but praise for it

this is also my first time annotating a fiction book

this is also my first classic literature book

dostoevsky is next on my list

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pics from my trip (featuring disgustingly high gas prices)

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maintenance was done at my job now the whole workplace smells like trash and ass

[revivivivify]

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this whole “super weather event” was a prank i saw about 5 minutes of rain and it was over

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i just cracked my ipad screen a little bit at work…why is my life bad

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sometimes i wonder what my life would be like if i just went to college…like i feel like i wouldn’t be able to have half the things i have now.

i bought my house at 21 years old…and bought my first car at 23 years old all through a career i never even thought about doing

l appreciate everything that i have, i’m truly grateful…but i wonder if i would be happier if i was doing what i’ve always wanted to do

i wanted to be a forensic pathologist assistant, but if i was doing that i’d still be in school getting my masters

idk sometimes i wish i was doing my dream job…but the other part of me is happy that i was able to accomplish so much in a short amount of time

i also feel like i don’t deserve any of this…there are people who work harder than i do but for some reason i’m where i am

[gumdrops-stuff]

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sometimes i think about the choices i made between the ages of 18-21 and wonder what i was thinking…like why was i talking to a 64 year old man at 19?