Unpotty-Training: The Locked Door
The lock clicked the moment the door closed behind her.
That soft metallic snick so quiet, so automatic, so final, was the only sound she ever heard from the door. No keys. No creaking hinges. No turning knobs. Just the cold, casual certainty that she was sealed in, one more day.
The room greeted her with its pastel pink walls and oversized nursery décor, mockingly sweet like frosting on a bitter cake. Everything had been designed for someone her size but not her age. The crib was huge, with tall bars and soft bedding in cheerful yellows and lavenders. She could climb in and out on her own, but only just. And she did—every single night.
There was a small sink in the corner, mounted low and round with a pink plastic toothbrush that had her name, Cora, stuck in bright foam letters on the handle. Just Cora. No last name. No memory of one. No memory of arriving here.
Each morning, the little fridge hummed softly by the wall, full again. Its contents were always the same: toddler meals in squeezable pouches, diced fruits in syrupy cups, soft sandwiches in crustless halves, juice in sippy cups with animal faces. Comfort food. toddler food. Nothing she could cook. Nothing she could use to feel big.
And beneath the changing table—ugh, her changing table—was the stack. A fat, neat row of thick, crinkly diapers, their pastel prints bright and infantile. She didn’t count them anymore. She knew better. Somehow, there were always enough.
The air smelled faintly of powder and lavender detergent. The floor was soft, covered in thick foam mats with ABC patterns. There were bins with toys: a shape sorter, big plastic keys, a bead maze. A few board books stacked by the corner near the fluffy bunny she’d stupidly named Lulu.
“Don’t say it,” Cora muttered aloud as she passed the bunny, its felt ears folded over like it was eavesdropping. “Don’t say it.”
But she did glance at it. Then, blushing, stooped to straighten Lulu’s ribbon.
Her padded steps crinkled softly as she crossed to the fridge. She opened it slowly, already knowing what she’d find. Three meals. A few sippies. Neatly arranged. No notes. No clues. Just like always.
It had been… how long now?
She didn’t know. Time passed differently here. No clocks. No windows. Just that warm ambient light that dimmed each evening and brightened in the morning. She’d tried carving tally marks once, on the crib rail but by morning, they were gone. Scrubbed clean. Someone, or something, was watching.
She settled onto the floor with a sigh, pulling out a grape-juice sippy cup. She hated how it made her feel, holding it with both hands, sucking gently, like it was perfectly normal.
As she sipped, her legs spread slightly without her noticing, the padding between them thicker now squishy, warm.
Her free hand moved automatically, pressing against the diaper’s front. It gave slightly under her fingers. Soft. Damp. Not soaked yet, but definitely wet. She groaned.
This was the second time today.
At night? Sure. That she’d accepted. Every morning now, she woke up in a soggy diaper, the damp warmth and bloated bulk no longer even surprising. She still hated it, but it was routine. Predictable. Almost passive.
But now, she was having daytime accidents.
That was new. That was terrifying.
She tried to remember the moment it happened but there was nothing. She hadn’t felt the urge. Hadn’t realized anything was happening. Her body had just… let go. Without asking. Without warning.
She set down the sippy and stared at the door. Her breath came quicker.
“Who are you?” she whispered again. “What do you want from me?”
The fridge buzzed quietly. The foam mat creaked under her shifting weight.
She stood up slowly, waddling slightly from the bulk of her diaper. It was usable. It wasn’t leaking. Not even close. She didn’t need to change. Not yet.
She could put it off. Pretend everything was fine. That this wasn’t happening. That she wasn’t losing control.
Her eyes drifted to the mirror above the sink just tall enough to show her face, chest, and the slight peek of the diaper beneath her pastel shirt. The cartoon animals stared back at her. So cheerful. So oblivious.
“I don’t need to change,” she muttered, more to herself than anyone else. “It can hold more.”
But the fact that she had to tell herself that…
She glanced at the changing table. The wipes were still in their container. The stack of fresh diapers sat untouched beneath, lined up like soft white reminders of how far she’d fallen. They were always just there. No one left them out for her. No caretaking hands. No gentle instructions. Just the expectation that she’d handle it.
She crossed the room instead, sitting heavily onto the padded mat. It squelched slightly beneath her. She winced.
“I didn’t even feel it,” she murmured.
That, more than anything, was what scared her.
She remembered her first few days here desperate to hold it. Legs clenched tight, eyes screwed shut, curled in the corner with a burning bladder. She would fight it for hours. And if she lost… well, she knew she’d lost. She’d sobbed. Screamed. Slammed her fists against the mat in humiliation.
But now… she just leaked.
The warmth. The lack of effort. The way the diaper hugged her hips, kept it contained, made it easier to just let go and move on.
She hugged her knees, chin resting between them. The diaper rustled under her, and the sound echoed in the still room.
“This isn’t me…” she whispered. “This isn’t who I am…”
But the voice was small. Unsure.
She stood slowly and looked at the changing table again.
Just change, Cora. Be clean. Be dry. Pretend this never happened.
Because she didn’t need to change. Not yet.
Instead, she waddled to the shelf and pulled down a board book: “Colors with Cookie the Cat.”
She settled back on the mat, the squish between her legs oddly comforting now, the plush bunny within arm’s reach.
Each page was simple. Red is for apples. Blue is for the sky. Yellow is for bananas.
Her hand crept up without thinking, pressing the front of her diaper again. Still warm. Still damp. Still wearable.
The book was way to easy. But it was there. Something to focus on.
And the quiet stretched. Peaceful. Gentle. A routine she didn’t ask for but had accepted, even embraced in moments like this.
A sudden heat. A slow spreading warmth. Her breath caught and she froze.
No warning. No urge. Just another accident.
Her eyes widened in horror.
“…I didn’t know I had to go,” she whispered.
She was wetting. Fully. Sitting cross-legged, awake, and soaking her diaper like it was the most natural thing in the world.
But it was done. And her diaper swelled under her, sagging slightly at the crotch.
She dropped the book. Scrambled to her feet. The squelch was louder now. The smell barely there, but real. Tangy. Embarrassing.
This one… this one needed changing.
Her cheeks burned. Her heart pounded.
She waddled to the changing table, hands shaking. She didn’t cry. Not this time. She just felt… numb.
She reached under, pulled a clean diaper from the stack, then the wipes. No fanfare. No reward. No judgment. Just… her. Handling it.
She climbed up and lay back. The lights above were soft. Warm. Nonjudgmental.
She opened the tapes. Peeled back the shell. Wiped. Powdered. Folded. Taped.
And when she slid down from the table, clean and dry again, she saw it.
The screen on the wall flickered on.
“Unpotty-Training Progress: 65%”
Her breath caught. Her hands curled at her sides.
“Fifty-five,” she whispered. “I’m… more than halfway.”
The screen flickered again.
She turned slowly and looked at the crib. Her crib.
The sheets were turned down, already waiting.
And in the silence of the room, the only sound was the soft rustle of her clean diaper as she walked toward it.
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