spondee

bailey hutchinson

[jbaileyh]

im so unbelievably tired that I cannot muster the energy to eat these cookies I just bought

[jbaileyh]

i s2g it could be 25 degrees outside and i could be in the best shape of my life and I'd walk 2 leisurely blocks and still wind up with a sweaty butt

[jbaileyh]

do you ever just get in that mood to meet someone for the first time and connect intensely with them and stay up to ridiculous hours of the night talking about concepts but also subtly getting to know their history through carefully placed details that is how i feel at present

[jbaileyh]

I'M SO FUNNY

[jbaileyh]

fearful of going off into the world and dying

i thought to myself: well, it's not so much that i am afraid of death, it's that i am afraid of how sad my death will make others; this means i am a compassionate and selfless person, because i prioritize the happiness of my loved ones over my own discomfort with mortality

but then i realized i was essentially saying "i don't want to die because everyone loves me a lot," which is the opposite of selfless

[jbaileyh]

i haven't been sleeping well lately, i think because right now i am interpreting sleep as a waste of minutes that could be used seeing my family before i go, or spending time building wonderful memories with my friends, or working more on my graduate school applications

but then i tell myself "no, that is illogical, everyone needs sleep and now is the time for you to sleep"

but i still can't sleep

so i just lie rigidly in my bed thinking about things i won't let myself do until the next day

[jbaileyh]

feeling offended that people seem unable sense when I can't sleep and subsequently initiate involved text conversations with me

[jbaileyh]

every compliment i recieve comes as an enormous surprise to me which is strange because i am such a self-important asshole

[jbaileyh]

butts

[jbaileyh]

and you know maybe this is just because i've had Too Much Coffee, but i suddenly feel okay about most of my things

like it will probably work out

everything will probably work out

[jbaileyh]

mitzi mansion

humdrum mansion

the book of mitzi

[jbaileyh]

i only feel "good" about my work when i've had too much caffeine or too much beer

[jbaileyh]

shout out to the williamsburg DJ that high-fived me when i requested three 6 mafia on the dancefloor

[jbaileyh]

white guy poets must be stopped

[jbaileyh]

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[jbaileyh]

i came to new york to feel weird and drink milkshakes

[jbaileyh]

that questions post was my 100th post