[jcmesxns]

it was perhaps the understandement of the  c e n t u r y that being back on the island wasn’t easy .  while the blonde was typically someone who simply adored beautiful places like these , the  MEMORIES  linked to this place were making it hard for her to relax .  something she figured he’d understand , that he’d feel the same but … obviously , he didn’t . it made her angry that he d i d n ‘ t   .  “ how can you chill in this god damnisland when it’s …. when it’s our island ??  “  &  there it was , the truth she was trying so desperately to keep hidden .  “  maybe you don’t care but i do !  i care because this is where we - “  she stopped , hands motioning all around the beach where just a few short months ago she felt more than with anyone else before .  “  i know it doesn’t change anything , okay ??   i know , i’m not an idiot . but i’m sorry i was just … i was pissed because you … you looked so happy  &  i know that’s selfish to say that i was trying to ruin that but i just felt … it just didn’t seem fair .  not when i’m a mess . not when being here makes me sad  &  i just can’t stop feeling like … “  it was her turn to shake her head , sucking in her lips as she looked away , struggling to find the words that would make him understand while at the same time hoping ,  PRAYING  she didn’t come off as a fool for still holding on . for n o t   moving on .  “  i’m sorry … not just for what i did on this trip but for what happened between us .  i’m sorry for what i did to you …. i’m sorry that last summer was the best we could do  .  i’m sorry i can’t …. i’m sorry i still think about it … &  i’m sorry it took me so long to say this . i guess you can say i’m sorry e v e r y t h i n g .  “    

he stopped in his place at her words  ,  turning to face her but not really making the effort of walking any closer to her  .  but the more the girl seemed to say the more confused he felt  ,  at least for now the anger  ,  although not completely gone had subsided enough to allow him to stay in place as he tried to find the way to even point out the mess that was into words without coming across like a jackass  .  “  lena  ...  you left me for someone else  .  ”  he repeated  ,  not just because somehow it seemed like he had been the one who did her wrong  ,  but also because it was his only explanation to why anything between them had just crashed and burned  ,  when she had failed to give him much of a reason before  .  and perhaps it wasn’t fair to her for him to try to enjoy the island  ,  but it sure looked like she did as well  ,  and he was just so tired of his life being just one disappointment before the next one  .  he pinched the bridge of his nose  ,  slightly exasperated both by the lack of information yet the abundance of it at the same time  .  “  i’m not sorry for what happened between us  .  ”  he murmured with a small shrug  ,  sure  ,  he wasn’t a fan of the part where she dismissed it all right after it happened  ,  but the summer itself he wouldn’t take back at all  .  “  you can’t what  ?  ”  he still wondered  ,  raising a brow at the blonde  .  “  you’re sorry you can’t what  ?  ”

[jcmesxns]

what was her damage … for a moment , the words  HIT  her more than she was expecting them to  &  it showed ,  as it was almost perfectly manifested across her face . gulping , the blonde stood frozen as he began spouting words no one has ever said , at least , not to her f a c e .  it almost felt like a  LECTURE  , the kind her father would give her for inappropriate behavior , the kind that hurt more than a slap across the cheek .  “  it wasn’t  - “  she tried to explain that it wasn’t for her e n t e r t a i n m e n t   , but words failed her as he continued on his rampage , the same one she knew deserved .  “ can you stop - “  she began only to stop again , wishing he would stop as much as she had it coming . she never thought her actions would actually make her feel  ASHAMED , especially when moments ago she reveled in them , but they had .  “ i know it’s not my problem but you can’t just - “  it was like she couldn’t even defend herself , not when nothing she did or said made sense  &  she was finally aware of it . watching him turn around to leave her again , the blonde bit the inside of her cheek , trying to prevent herself from actually feeling the way she was right now , which was  g u i l t y  .  “  look , i’m sorry ! “  she shouted after him , unable to hold it back .    

he heard the girl asking him to stop  ,  and he would’ve liked to stop  .  in fact  ,  he would’ve liked not even having to have this argument at all because just being in bora bora again already asked so much from of his energy  ,  and relaxing shouldn’t be something he had to actively work for when on vacation  .  it should be  ...  well  ,  relaxing  .  but there he was  ,  and once he had actually started to go off on the girl it was like he couldn’t really stop until he finished  ,  whether lena cared enough to hear it or not was a whole other deal  ,  but he needed to say it because it didn’t really made sense to him  .  “  i can’t just what  ?  move on  ?  try to chill in this goddamn island  ?  what can’t i do lena  ?  ”  he went on to press  ,  shaking his head slightly with an exhale past parted lips  .  “  i don’t know what the fuck it is you want from me  .  ”  he finished with a murmur  ,  waving his hand carelessly at her apology  .  “  it doesn’t change what you did  .  ”

[jcmesxns]

                    ❝It’s a vibe, you give off a very ‘creepy biter person’ vibe. Maybe you should really work on that? I can’t imagine that’s good for meeting other strangers.❞ A single shoulder lifted in a quick, half-shrug towards her own joking words. ❝I have no idea what you’re talking about, I haven’t told anyone about your creepy biter vibes. That would be incredibly rude of me to do.❞ And she liked to think she wasn’t exactly a rude person. Though, maybe she was during certain moments of their conversations, without entirely realizing it. All in an attempt at avoidance. ❝Right, I promise I’m not trying to run into you. Which is different from me saying ‘I promise I am avoiding you’, they’re two completely different things, really. I think you’re just hearing things all twisted and wrong over here and I apologize for that, that’s probably all my fault. Maybe I should put it into a letter and have that one hand-delivered too.❞

“  that’s just very judgy and rude to say devon  .  you give the vibe of a person who bites her toe nails while watching netflix and you don’t see me judging you for it  .  ”  he shrugged carelessly  .  it wasn’t exactly the kind of conversationg he liked going for  ,  but if she insisted on holding onto every bit of nonsense that showed up in their conversation then he could deal with that  .  at least for the time being  .  “  are you sure  ?  because that’s kind of the implicit thing you were saying  .  and other than sitting on your jacket that one time  ,  which i apologized for  ,  i’m not sure why you could possibly be avoiding me  .  ”  he added  ,  raising a brow at her  .  “  too  ?  i don’t recall even getting the first one  ,  are you sure the owl didn’t eat it  ?  ”

[claudiafm]

𝒪𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓉𝑒𝓇

[jcmesxns]

b,  “only if i kick you out ” Claudia joked, she shook her head and frowned at aj’s outfit “im almost wishing i still haven’t seen you, i still can’t believe you left all your hawaiian shirts at home, the one place it would have been acceptable!”  she took another long sip from her drink, being dramatic, “no, i think i just haven’t had quite the luck of running into you yet, i hope you haven’t posted anything online yet, I refuse to let anyone think i let you walk around looking that unfashionable.”

“  so i haven’t even sat down and you’re already planning to kick me out  ? ok cool  .  ”  he chuckled  ,  shaking his head at the girl before protesting  .  “  hey  !  you were the one who kept complaining about them  ,  i thought i was doing something right by not packing them  .  ”  aj laughed  ,  looking down at his navy shirt with a small frown  .  “  wait  ,  what is wrong with this one  ?  ”  aj asked genuinely confused  .  he knew he wasn’t exactly fashion-forward  ,  but he liked to think he could manage to look even slightly presentable if he wanted  ,  especially considering the bar during vacation was very low  .

[jcmesxns]

lena could tell he wasn’t finding the whole ordeal as  a m u s i n g  as she did , he was practically fuming right before her , making her wonder if he were to actually explode given the arrows shooting through his dark eyes .  she should’ve been scared ,   REGRETFUL  even , but none of those feelings were present . his words nearly made her smile again , something she tried to hide by taking a sip from her coconut-shaped cup .  s u r p r i s i n g l y  enough , she hadn’t cut him off as he went off on her , that was until he was finished  &  was about to walk away .  “  or what ? “  she asked , tone as daring as ever as she found herself on her feet , staring at him .  “ what if i don’t ?  “  it was like she was purposely jabbing a lion , without any fear of him biting back even though she knew it was only a matter of time .  “  you think i’m scared of you or something ? “  she asked , at this point even smiling , despite better judgement .

“  ok  ,  what the fuck is your damage  ?  ”  he snapped the second the girl continued to poke him  ,  genuinely baffled at the blonde standing in front of him  .  “  are you seriously this empty inside that you go out of your goddamn way to mess with someone who wants nothing to do with you for your fucking entertainment of the day  ?  ”  aj shook his head  .  “  i don’t know if you fucking forgot it but you  .  left  .  me  !  ”  he punctuated every word  ,  confused as to why he needed to say it out loud at all  .  “  you were the one who said it didn’t matter  .  you were the one who said i was just a fucking fling  .  you were the one who ran back to your ex the second you landed  .  and you know what  ?  thank god you did because this delusional brat bullshit is not the girl i fell for  .  ”  he shook his head  ,  mostly out of annoyance  .  “  what i do or who i do it with is none of your business  ,  get it through your head  .  ” aj scoffed  ,  walking back the way he came from  .  

[jcmesxns]

at  his  words  ,  alanna  couldn’t  help  but  shake  her  head  and  let  out  a  light  laugh  .  she  nudges  his  arm  with  her  elbow  as  they  make  their  way  out  of  the  jail  .  “ mhm  okay  .  but  you  better  pay  me  back !  ” she  teases  with  a  chuckle . “ i  can’t  believe  this  .  we  haven’t  even  been  here  two  days  and  you  already  got  arrested  ,  ” she  can’t  help  but  laugh  as  she  hears  those  words  out  loud  .  the  blonde  continues  through  the  parking  lot  back  towards  the  uber  she  took  here  .

he rolled his eyes in amusement  ,  but then again it wasn’t like he wasn’t planning on paying the girl back  ,  as if the whole ordeal wasn’t already embarrassing enough  .  “  yeah sure  .  “  he agreed without much problem  ,  though a low chuckle made it past his lips  .  “  hey  !  it was a dare  .  ”  he defended  ,  as if that made it a better idea  .  in fact it was because it had been such a dumb thing that made the whole thing that much of a bigger joke  .  

[jcmesxns]

                    It was absurd, growing more ridiculous the longer the ‘joke’ seemed to continue. Which she didn’t mind — it avoided any ounce of a topic she didn’t want to come face-to-face with. Something she was sure was almost as ridiculous as the ongoing joke, but she didn’t seem to care. ❝I think you’re just trying to palm off your whole creepy biter thing and I’m sorry to inform you, but you can’t do that. You’re stuck with that for life now.❞ The ridiculous joking worked, simply because she had something to bounce off of, once it felt like hitting a stone wall, everything fell flat. It’s what had her shaking her head as a hand raised, gently scratching the side of her neck as she spoke. ❝I never said I was avoiding you. Just that I’m not actively trying to run into you.❞

“  i would like to know how exactly i ended up as a creepy biter when i haven’t bitten a person in my life before  .  ”  aj shook his head  ,  giving the girl a faux glare  .  “  do you just make it a habit to go around starting rumors about people  ?  that’s not very nice devon  .  “  he pointed out  ,  not that he thought the girl actually went around talking about him at all  ,  let alone saying thing that weren’t true  .  “  you said you could promise me you weren’t trying to run into me  .  which sounds like you’re making an effort to stay out of my way  ...  which means that you would be very much trying to avoid me  .  but i haven’t bitten you so i can’t think of a single reason why that could be  .  ”  

[jcmesxns]

his sudden snap slightly surprised her , as if his reaction was  c o m p l e t e l y  uncalled for  as she slowly slid her sunglasses at the tip of her nose , looking at him like he lost his mind .  a part of her knew there would probably come a moment of  TRUTH   where he came aware of her antics , but damn she be if she were to admit to them .  “  i have no idea what you’re talking about , “  she calmly stated , her lips slightly curving into a smirk even though she tried not to look so god damn conceited .  “  are you okay ?  did something upset you ? “  she continued , barely keeping it together as she continued sipping on her fourth drink since noon .  perhaps it was the a l c o h o l   level in her system already but the blonde felt excessively confident in her actions ,  which definitely showed by the way she acted .

aj rolled his eyes  ,  finding very little about her facade funny at all  ,  and definitely not as endearing as she probably thought she was  .  he wasn’t gonna pretend he wasn’t exasperated  ,  not when the girl had been going off on him for absolutely no reason whatsoever  .  “  you know what  ?  i don’t have the energy to put up with your bullshit  .  i don’t know how conceited or delusional you are that you actually think you’re entitled to get your nose into my business  ,  but whatever you think you’re accomplishing going around telling girls that i’m gay or a horrible person or whatever it is you’re going on about  ,  you can knock it off  ,  now  .  ”  he finished before turning around  ,  walking away from the girl  .

[jcmesxns]

the fact that this was all too normal for the pair should be rather telling . but she had never put too much thought into the touchy feely aspect of their relationship . it’s just the way she’s always remembered things being . she naturally found comfort in the warmth of his hands on her hips . and as his head rested against her abdomen , her hands made a familiar trek to the back of his head where her fingers repeatedly slipped through short tuffs of black hair . looking down at him , she tried not to laugh at his worried tone of voice . “not that bad,” was her half-attempt at being reassuring . the fact that he even has to pause to squint at her while counting to a number she assumes is too high spoke volumes . and this time , she really does laugh at him . “who the hell invented any words ?” a short sigh escaped through her nostrils as she stopped threading her fingers through his hair , slowly pulling away . “i should get you some water … and some pain meds for your impending headache … and you’re probably gonna pass out sooner or later so you might need to change …” she mumbled softly to herself , making a mental checklist full of necessary preparations for his drunk ass to stay over . because letting him stumble back to his own room wasn’t even an option to her .

“  wait  !   who the hell invented any words  ?!  ”  he repeated slowly like margo had asked the single most important question about the universe  .  which was if anything  ,  something he could easily debate himself if his brain cells weren’t currently playing bumper car among themseflves  .  “  i’m fineeee  .  ”  he assured the brunette  ,  even if his slurred voice wasn’t reassuring in the slightest  .  "  come on  ,  let’s lay down  .  ”  he tried instead  ,  though he found it particularly difficult to fix his body comfortably in the sofa  ,  he insisted in tugging one of her hands to bring her down with him  .  “  have you ever wondered how different your life could’ve been because of  ...  anything  ?  ”  he started  ,  humming to himself  ,  partially talking more to himself than for the girl to hear him  .  “  i do  ...  like  ,  what if i had never moved to new york  ?  or what if i had ever told you about my feelings for you or  ... oh  !  what if my dog had never ran away  ?  ”  he started to ramble  ,  interrupted only by a sudden yawn  .  

[claudiafm]

𝒪𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓇𝓉𝑒𝓇

The sun in bora bora was relentless, making claudia’s sun umbrella near useless, at least she had a cool drink in her hands. She listened to the sea and what was around her, it seemed everyone else was having fun elsewhere, Claudia not invited. Or prehaps not, she heard the shifting of sand behind her. “Oh? Has someone decided to join me in solitude?”

[jcmesxns]

“  is it really solitude if i’m joining you  ?  ”  he asked with a small smile  ,  turning to sit next to the girl  .  “  but either you’ve been hiding away or i’m been hiding away because this is the first time i see you since we got here  .  ”  aj pointed out  ,  making a small face  .  “  i mean  ,  where were you when i needed help packing  ,  claudia  ?  ”  he teased  .

[psychorafael]

Matthew Daddario and his mom ♥️🥺🥺

Happy Mother’s Day! 🎈

[jcmesxns]

her eyebrows are pinch together as she gives him a worried glance , but there’s a hint of amusement painted on her lips in the form of a subtle smirk . it wasn’t necessarily rare for him to seek her out this late at night . but normally , she was the drunken mess that needed a hug or a cuddle before breaking down into tears or something equally as dramatic . what an unusual twist to see aj being the messy one out of the pair of them . and he’s going to spill drunken secrets ? oh this was going to be good . margo prided herself on believing that there wasn’t much , if anything at all , that she didn’t know about the giant of a man sitting on her hotel room’s couch . they’d been friends for so long and been through so much together that it was kind of hard to keep things from one another . so as she moved towards him to stand in between his legs and rest her forearms against his broad shoulders , she can’t help but laugh lightly at him . “that’s not really a secret , hon . you have absolutely no discretion while smelling like an entire mini bar ,” she teased . “how much have you had to drink ?” she asked with a tilt of her head .

the amount of comfort between the pair had been building for years  .  from seeing each other at their lowest lows to sharing their highest highs  .  after so long margo should’ve already been used to how physical aj has always been  ,  and the fact was that the intoxicated man at the moment couldn’t care less as he buried his face on her stomach  ,  large hands resting on margo’s hips before laughing at her words  .  at least  ,  until she mentioned his smell  .  he looked up at her  ,  screwing his nose slightly at the comment before tilting his head towards himself  .  “  i smell  ??  ”  he asked  ,  his toe both slightly offended and worried at the thought  .  then again  ,  pretty much ever since he had landed in the island he had been second guessing himself  .  you could literally see the mental math in his mind at her question  ,  but no amount of squinting was gonna give him a good answer to give the brunette in return  .  “  i’m not entire  ...  enterily  ...  entire  ...  ly  ...  “  aj trailed off with a frown  ,  “  who the hell invented that word  ?  ”

[jcmesxns]

                      ❝Hey, wait a second, you can’t turn the whole biting-biter thing on me now. That’s your thing, that’s not my thing, you can’t turn it into my thing.❞ Already she was confused by her own twisting words but the entire thing was really a joke, to begin with, it didn’t really have to make sense. ❝I can promise you, I am not trying to make it a habit of running into you,❞ she expressed while taking a step back, hopeful it just might push her words across just a fraction more. ❝Surprisingly, It is. I don’t know why I thought it would be less hectic.❞

“  i think i just did actually  .  ”  he shrugged with a boyish grin  .  it was pretty dumb if they ever stopped to think much about it  ,  which they didn’t at all  ,  but he was sure if anyone stopped to hear their nonsense for longer than a second they would be met by a confused expression  .  it kept them from actually getting to know each other though  ,  which he had figured by now was what the girl was going for to begin with  .  “  ok  ,  so then you’re saying that you’re avoiding me right  ?  ”  he asked simply  ,  slipping his hands into his pockets  .

[outspokens-ar]

「 closed starter — @jcmesxns​

                      ❝At this rate, I’ll have to change your warning to ‘possible creepy biter and stalker’, probably something with a better ring to it, though.❞ The comment coming moments after having almost come crashing directly into what seemed like a human brick wall. She seemed to pull back her words just moments later as a hand waved through the air, acting as if she could wipe the air clean of her first response. ❝I’m joking, I really need to pay more attention, my fault.❞

[jcmesxns]

“  wait wait wait wait  ...  ”  he shook his head  ,  raising both his hands at her comment  .  “  how do we know you’re not the one stalking me and purposely got on my way to run into me huh  ?  ”  he turned around with a slightly grin  .  “  maybe i should be the one worrying about whether you’re gonna bite me or not  .  ”  aj added with a chuckle  ,  finally shrugging at her clarification  ,  not like he felt it was needed  .  “  nah  ,  no worries  ,  it’s hectic out here  .  ”

[corajames]

❛  ｡♡ ﾟ @jcmesxns​

everytime .  every single  g o d    d a m n   time she even remotely forgot the fact he was on the same island , hell -  in the same resort ,  there he was to remind her .  lena tried her best  not really  to avoid the locations that brought those  BITTERSWEET  memories back , but perhaps the second she saw him looking far too chilled  ( unlike her )  , a side of her came out like a baby dragon from hiding whenever she could’ve controlled it or not . day after day did she try to fight her urge to do sabotage , but each day she failed , the  r e s u l t s  simply being too good for her to stop .  well , until …. she came across margo .  only a few hours after their chat , the blonde was almost a bit too proudly sipping on another drink , lounging in a beach chair while watching the sunset with a smile on her face .  how could she not be happy when she just successfully sabotaged yet  ANOTHER  potential hook up ?  well , that was until a shadow suddenly appeared in front of her , recognizing the man far too quickly for her own liking as she looked up .   “  can i help you with something ?  “   she asked ever so innocently , tugging a straw between her teeth .   

[jcmesxns]

making the best of it  .  putting the minimum effort needed not to run to lena  .  staying on his lane  .  those were the things he told himself he would do once he decided to go back to the island less of a year from the last time he was there  .  and he liked to believe it had been easy enough  ,  except that for some reason no matter what he tried his lane seemed to be one mess after the other  .  inexplicable  ,  until margo made it back to him laughing and teasing him about what lena had told her to shoo her off  .  so for all he had been avoiding her now he was walking straight towards her in long strides  .  “  yeah  ,  how about you mind your own fucking business and just leave me the fuck alone already  ?  ”  he snapped  ,  doing very little to disguise exactly how upset he was about what he could only describe as childish behavior  .  

[jcmesxns]

mass text º aj

alex: don't be a party pooper aj!!!!

aj: that sounds like a horrible idea though, it's all i'm saying

[alanncs]

    ゜ .  ・  ♡   ╰   𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑒𝑑   𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑒𝑟   𝑓𝑜𝑟  @jcmesxns​  .

when  alanna’s  phone  rang  &  she  heard  aj  on  the  other  line  explaining  how  he  ended  up  in  jail  ,  she  thought  she  was  being  punked .  they  hadn’t  even  been  in  bora  bora  a  whole  day  yet  and  he’d  managed  to  get  himself  arrested  .  after  a  long  drive  ,  she  finally  ends  up  at  the  jail  ,  paying  his  bail  &  following  the  cop  as  he  led  her  to  his  cell  .  she  watched  with  her  arms  crossed  as  they  opened  it  to  let  him  out .  brows  raising  in  aj’s  direction  as  she  caught  his  gaze  .  “  i  don’t  know  whether  to  hit  you  or  to  laugh  at  you  ,  ”  she  says   honestly  once  the  cop  leaves  .

[jcmesxns]

it wasn’t completely unheard of aj to go off the rails  ,  after all he had done his fair share of wrongdoings growing up  .  but he had grown out of them after moving to new york  ,  and even when it technically wasn’t a big deal  ,  he certainly didn’t expect to end his night calling alanna to bail him out  .  but alas  ,   intoxication and indecent exposure were very much illegal  .  “  what we’re gonna do is never talk about it again  !  ”  he decided  ,  though he couldn’t help a small smile at the blonde as they walked outside the station  .  “  and i’m also never listening to you again next time you double dog dare me  .  ”  he chuckled  .