` โก โ GIVE ME THE GREEN LIGHT.
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itโs aggravating, howย easilyย she can misconstrue his intentionsโhow she can twist them and turn them into something they are not in that pretty little head of hers. itโs clear as day how she takes his words, processes them, and reaches a conclusion. he often enjoyed watching hundreds of emotions flicker over her face, but right now he loathes how he can easily read how she doubts him, how she mistakes his concern for disdain. especially when heโs made it so blatantly obvious that heโs interested in her. knowing full well that he canโt talk sense into her when sheโs like this, he backs off, hands raised in surrender as he puts space between them.ย โiโm just concerned about you, han, since you apparently canโt think to worry about yourself, the responsibility has to fall on someone to do it for you.โ
heโs a storm of irritation and concern as he speaks plaintively, arms crossed over his chest as he bores holes into the back of her head as she walks away, only to return and retrieve her wand. yonghwa snorts, knowing full well itโll aggravate her further. theyโre already on the path towards a full blown argument, thereโs no point in turning back now. maybe once theyโve aired their grievances they can have an actual conversation, like the fully functioning people theyโre supposed to be. but it all goes to shit when sheโs cast the counter spell for the locking charm she had cast earlier. without thinking, he closes the distance between them in a single stride, blocking her against the desk before she could escape.ย
โare you done acting like a kid, han?โ he huffs, looming over her, hands splayed on the desk behind her as a means to get her to finally look at him in the eye and talk.ย โinstead of just walking out of every argument, maybe you should stick around so we can actually figure shit out. because iโm getting really sick and tired of watching you leave. itโs like you keep expecting me to always come around, and someday, i might not even bother anymoreโโ his words are scathing, and perhaps harsher than they need to be, but seol has that uncanny ability to bring the best and the worst out of him. heโs not even talking about her inability to care for herself anymore, heโs breached the unknown territory in regards to their ambiguous relationship ( if one could even call it that )ย โโmake up your mind already. i know i have.โ
yonghwa moves away from her, putting distance and desks between them before he does something heโll regret later. he eyes her, jaw clenched, hands balled into fists until his knuckles were taut and white against bone. without so much as a warning, he pivots on his heel, leaving her there to stew in her thoughts. as he reaches the door, he throws in the towel, suddenly tired of this game of cat and mouse theyโve been playing.ย โyou know where to find me. see you around, han.โ
he doesnโt have to be a legilimens to be able to see through her, his every movement and action bringing about reactions and emotions she canโt quite manage to ever hide. itโs like he knows and revels in that fact, perpetually leaving fingerprints on the glass of her heart, and try as she might, she canโt ever seem to clean them off.ย
โi donโt need you to worry about me!โย
heโll come back because he always does, always has, no matter how far she goes.
so she pushes even more, because it hits her in a soft spot; she doesnโt like to remember their age gap, their difference in life experience, because itโs just another thing stacked against her. reminding her why this isnโt going to work out like she wants it, why sheโs not going to get the fairytale ending with the first boy sheโs ever properly liked, no matter how bad she wants it.
she likes him.ย
this earth-shattering, ground-shaking revelation could not have come at a worse time. sheโs past the point of simple frustration now, her fury absolutely explosive when her hubris is the fuel. โthen maybe you should go fuck around with another girl, kim yonghwa. i donโt know why youโre staying if you so clearly donโt wanna.โ seol refuses to look at him, gaze firmly trained on anywhere but him, because sheโs aware of what sheโs doing. pushing yonghwa further and further away, for no reason other than she canโt admit defeat, swallow her bitter pride, and apologise.
when he puts distance between them, sheโs furious. at herself, at him, at every single atom and particle separating the two of them. itโs a consequence of her actions. she knows that, but it doesnโt mean she likes having to face up to it. this stupid fucking game of push and pullโs been rigged against the both of them since the very beginning, and if sheโd been a better person, sheโd apologise immediately, because thatโs the only way they can win. together.
sheโs not, though.
the first tears brim in her eyes as he turns away. itโs a new experience, this frustration born out of romantic feelings. as he lets the door shut behind him, she grabs the stupid textbook she shouldโve just kept studying, and hurls it at the wall beside the door. it hits its mark with a satisfying thunk, and seol sinks back down onto the table.












