Wow I'm actually on this account, well, I can tell you right now.
I have a new RP account, that belongs to the South Park fandom.
blue-anomie (Craig Tucker)
killednborn (Kenny McCormick)
This account is now INACTIVE.
You can follow me on my personal, but I doubt anyone would care to. LOL.
Jehu stared boredly,"So we're back at this again are we?" He didn't really quite want to be back, though he shrugs nonchalantly. "I'm only here briefly, eh."
"Funny how inactive I've gotten..." Jehu chuckled, smirking a bit.
Correction. How inactive /I'VE/ gotten.
>I've become a new RPer to a Fandom... Called Homestuck.
>I'm running an AU Blog, if you need information on that... Please message me.
I can come here ever-so-often... Only if, and ONLY IF, people send me asks. Other than that, THIS BLOG IS NOW A STRICT PICTURE/ASK RP BLOG, until further notice.
"True, Mun, you're the one running the show here~ Hah..."
Jehu-mun: What do you think about me Roleplaying again?
Jehu: He lazed about,"Not much of it... I mean come on."
Jehu-mun: True. -Pondering for a moment- But I miss all the fun times we had.
Jehu: Sighing, looking over at his Mun,"Then alright, we'll get back into if and only if people actually wish to roleplay -- I see no point in you wasting your breath on other's who aren't going to try."
Jehu-mun: Well you're blunt, as usual.
Jehu: He shrugged off the notion,"Don't jump to quick to your feet about this, alright?"
"Not that will do much," Jehu scoffed, yawning a bit. "Afterall, you were going to drop off the 'community', so you're just 'taking a peek' to see what's up."
"Not that it really mattered either way though..."
I won’t run…. I won’t lose my way…. The suffering I’ve put the others through…. their sadness and hatred…. I’ll take them all and use them to fight! Come forth, my favorite monster, Elemental Hero Flame Wingman!
No time for goodbye he said
As he faded away
Don't put your life in someone's hands
They're bound to steal it away
Don't hide your mistakes
'Cause they'll find you, burn you
Then he said
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for your life
This is my last time she said
As she faded away
It's hard to imagine
But one day you'll end up like me
Then she said
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Whoa-oh, run for your life (Life)
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If I stay it won't be long
'Til I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Whoa-oh, run for.....
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Whoa-oh, run for your life
If you want to get out alive (If you want to get out alive)
Whoa-oh, run for...
If I stay, it won't be long
'Til I'm burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won't be long
'Til I'm burning on the inside
If I go, and if I go
Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
This account is in the process (more of the decision) of either being on Inactive or a Hiatus. This is more of a rant, but it is an explanation. This will be put under a read more.
One of the reasons is, I’m so put off by how the Tumblr RP community has been. I come on, it turns into – to be put bluntly – a fest of people wanting nothing more than to be noticed, and liked. I get that, I thought it was supposed to be fun; all I see is Anon Hate from left and people wanting to be noticed etc, etc, etc (of course it's not all of it, but as of late.. It's been like that). Also, people feeling the anxiety that no one likes them because of what they do, how they portray a character, etc.
And I would like to put out a little story here, and this is true, and for those who know what I am talking about. I’m sorry you had to see this, and had to go through it like I did – at least to see it:
One night, I was browsing and prowling my dashboard – I saw many ‘Signal Boosts’, calling out there was a list of people whom were role-players committing suicide because of the Anon Hate they got. The list grew, and grew.
My friend and I merely only felt sick to our stomachs, that list grew to 6 people (may not seem much, but it is lives there’s a difference), and that was all within one hour. I couldn’t believe my natural born eyes to be seeing this at night, on my dash.
I felt sick. I felt people were so cold-hearted to do that, among that – people felt neglected, beaten down and some people sometimes throw the word anxiety around like it’s toy. It’s not, really it isn’t. I’m fed up. I really am, and the fact I stopped (not exactly stopped, just the fact... I'm not motivated is another thing, I've mentioned this time and time and again that) being active on Jehu it is not because of the people on this blog, or whomever – in fact to be even more blunt – I love each person here. I’m here to listen and talk to anyone, and yet, no one does. No one has messaged me, except for people who are my RP partners and such as for the people whom commonly talk to me on the day to day basis offline on Tumblr.
That’s fine, I don't mind, but why did I have to get nervous? Why do I have to care if I do NOT get one message everyday talking to my character. I get it. Some characters are social and some aren’t. I get it. Some characters aren’t popular and some are and I’m that of the majority of people, that I am a minority blog. No matter how active I will get – I will always stay that way. I have accepted that, I stopped feeling that weird, tingling, sad, and neglected feeling of not being noticed.
The internet is vast.
You cannot feel sad, over the fact that on a minor part of the world watches you, you cannot (this is mainly an opinion, beat me down for it, what point is there really?). You could have 50 followers, they interact with you – at first… Down the line, you become active, but not as active then you earn 100 followers, You start feeling a duty? A bloody duty to keep people entertained and happy to earn more followers, you shouldn’t do that.
I thought role-playing was for fun. It stopped being that when everyday I came on it was just a tedious task of: Reply. Wait. Reply. Wait. Oh look more people. Reply. Wait. Put out a starter. No one replying.
Not once or barely did I have a conversation with those people (and when I did, it was minor but at least it was minor -- but it was still fun regardless). Not that I mind, I just felt overwhelmed, and yet, I wanted to have fun. I still do, but I can’t relax when it feels like a job every time. I know I sound like I’m complaining, I’ll admit that. I’ll admit that I’m a jackass, but this is how I feel.
And I feel honestly sad, and not really bored or anything like that I love Jehu to death as one of the character's I RP, it’s just when I first started I thought I would have fun (and it was at the time) but in past months it stopped being fun and became serious. Tumblr became serious, and that wasn’t fun – I wanted to come from home school or work or whatever to just calmly roleplay and just chat and have fun. Instead I have to be hyped up and wound up in a pool of other’s cesspool of depression and sadness, not to mention seriousness. It aggravated me, irritated me, and has given me headaches. It just wasn’t fun.
That’s only part of what pains me to why I am making Jehu inactive (or on hiatus), this is the second RP blog I’ve had to put down to some sort of reason. I won’t ask people to stop me, I won’t ever ask that (this is my decision to make, and this is mine only). It is a decision I have been plotting upon for the past few months, and now, I’m finally deciding maybe it’s time to throw Jehu away, not forever. He isn’t away in the box with the rest of my other muses. He’s just inactive, to be more specific -- on Tumblr.
Inactive meaning, I will not be posting.
I will not be talking, to anyone.
I will not be on this blog.
But that does not mean I will stop roleplaying.
I made Yuberu remember? Jehu and Haou’s Son, and to be honest, I was having fun there for a bit, and the decision of whether that inactivity thing will become a thing is of still a decision, and I will give it some time. I already know some people already are deciding to do it for their own RP accounts. For similar reasons that I have, and you know what – that’s fine.
Everyone has free will, and no one should be controlled from what one person says.
And by the end of my Summer Break, whether it will be a Hiatus, or inactive it will depend. I’m sorry, I really am.
If you want to contact me. I have a main Tumblr blog, or as other's call it a personal blog, being as it may -- I will post it when the decision has been made.
...Hm, I'm having to make a decision between ships here... Meh, sorry I've been, uh, 'disconnected' toward this account... I'll go on a full explanation at some point this month, for people who are actually concerned -- and actually want to know what's up.