🌸B U N N I E💕

healing from a breakup and codependency; I still love you

[jellyfish-sama]

It's been 4 months.

I still think about you.

But you no longer remember me.

[extramadness]

[jellyfish-sama]

I used to have someone to go back home to. Someone to hug and give a "I'm home" kiss to, someone to look forward to seeing everyday after work, someone to talk to about my day and about everything silly, someone to cuddle at night when it gets cold, someone to spread my happiness to and share experiences, and someone to spend time with. Now I go home back to nothing, but an empty room by myself. It gets a little bit lonely without you here.

[jellyfish-sama]

"It's okay, if you can't forget it.

It's okay, if you can't forgive me.

It's okay, if you're still angry.

It's okay, if you hate me.

It's okay, if you can't trust me.

It's okay, if you don't want to be with me.

You have every right to feel the way you feel.

You made your choice and i'll respect that

because I love you."

- jellyfish-sama

[jellyfish-sama]

If happy means without me, I'll accept it.

[jellyfish-sama]

I love you..

[jellyfish-sama]

I won't scream for you anymore. I won't talk about you anymore. I won't cry because of you anymore.

But you'll still always be an important person to me in my heart. You'll always be by my side while I accomplish great things. Forever in my wallet, the picture I carry of you.

[jellyfish-sama]

"My heart was beating for you.

But it's broken now.

It just cries.

As I smile on the outside."

- jellyfish-sama (1am posts)

[jellyfish-sama]

Everyone tells me to move on and that it's not worth waiting around for nothing to happen. They say that I'm too pretty and I'll find a better guy someday. A better guy will come along and treat me right. That you clearly don't love me anymore and I should let go.

What they don't understand is that looks aren't everything, a better guy doesn't mean anything, you will only feel that one connection with that one person once in your life. You will click with this person and realize why it never worked out with anyone else. That was you.

[extramadness]

[jellyfish-sama]

I told myself I wouldn't cry anymore, but I think of how madly in love we were then and I find myself crying again.

When someone would do anything for you because they love you that much, how could you not appreciate that?

The more I love you, the more I realized and understand why the ones before me have loved you so much.

[jellyfish-sama]

[jellyfish-sama]

Are you happy?

[jellyfish-sama]

The more days that passes by, the more I feel like you're never coming back.

I have no choice but to accept it and it hurts and it hurts and it hurts all over again. I relive that day over and over again; forever haunting my dreams and memory that I lost you.

Is it bad that I still hope that one day you'll miss me?

[jellyfish-sama]

I miss this.

[jellyfish-sama]

"You didn't like me clingy,

so I learned to be independent.

You liked my long hair,

so I chopped it off.

You didn't like me caring too much,

so I learned to not give a fuck.

You liked my innocence,

so I went out my comfort zone.

You didn't like my tears,

so I stopped crying.

I can do this without you.

Watch me."

- jellyfish-sama

[jellyfish-sama]

I was so selfish, I didn't think about how you were feeling. Instead, it was all about how heartbroken I was. If you no longer want to be with me, I'll respect your decision. I'll stop begging you to come back, I'll stop messaging you, trying to see you, and I'll leave you alone. I'll, slowly, but surely, move on with my life without you and I'll be okay about it. If I love you, I will let you go. The hardest thing to do is walking away when I still love you, but if that's what I have to do, I'll do it.