Jennifer Nevins

The definition of Karma: "How you treat others is your Karma, how others treat you is theirs." I've overcome an incredible amount of things throughout my life and believe this has all made me emotionally stronger, more caring, yet more careful. I've begun a new life on a new path, and this is my new world.

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Couldn't get her to look at me.. But I thought she looked so pretty! Lil autumn kitty Kat.. She totally camouflages with the falling leaves! Lol my cute lil Pepper-Anne 🐈 #autumnkitty #kittycamouflage #lookatmetotakeyourpic #mypepperanne

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I love Halloween.. Always been a favorite holiday! I only wish the weather was a lil more autumn-ish.. Hating this heat! 😲 #happyhalloween #kittypumpkin #hatingcaliforniaheat #bringonthefall!

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My classes are turning out to be quite a challenge this semester.. I'm not taking any general ed just animal science requirements for my veterinary technician program/certification. I need to strengthen my motivation and determination bcuz like they say I'm having my turn with the struggle and it most definitely is real. But at least my lil study buddy is enthusiastic! She's got a sharpie all ready to go! 😸 #kittystudybuddy #vettechprogram #thestruggleisreal #personalchallenge

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Today is our son, Jacob William Nevins, third anniversary. His ashes still sit on the mantel, and for some reason it made me feel better when i put him together with mom before we took her ashes to the cemetery. I want to be clear on something, i don't want any condolences today. I loved my baby even tho he's not here with us now and i only want to make it so he's not ever forgotten. In loving memory of our baby born and died July 27, 2012. You'll forever be loved and remembered. #inmemoryofmybaby #youllneverbeforgotten #instasize

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Happy Birthday to you @jessicabotsch !! 🎉🎁🎂🎈🎊 Don't worry, I've gotta buncha cool lil ecards making for you for your bday today!! Of course I just downloaded the pic but then photo shopped in the words, the lil stickers/cheesy designs, and the borders/frames.. I love you jess! Happy birthday! #happybirthdaylittlesister #happybdayjess #itsyourbirthdaycelebrate #iloveyoulilsis

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Just A Check In

Honestly I'm not entirely sure how tumblr is supposed to be used, I thought it was like a blog, but who am I kidding I'm not even sure how to write a blog! 😊 I just know I have always loved writing, and the cool thing here is for example on Facebook what I post is meant to be shared with all my friends. Here, I feel a little more private. Soooo.. back in April I went to an interview at a gorgeous emergency veterinary clinic in Turlock for a part time job as a dog bather. I know, not a very glamorous job, but I'd be working in an actual veterinary clinic and working with animals. End of next month I start my vet tech courses four nights a week at MJC and no matter how I get in the door, I want to be exposed to that job lifestyle if it's what I think I want to follow as my career path. I'm too old to bed confused and not just make a choice. I LOVE animals, this is undisputed. Can I work with them? I believe I can, but here's an opportunity before I devote myself to schooling. I say this bcuz back senior year in high school I was SO SURE, I had a whole plan, beauty school then business school. Well, I absolutely HATED beauty school and wasn't very good at it.. Maybe bcuz the motivation was lacking with the love of what I was doing, but I realized after all that planning that this career path was not for me after all. I can look at this opportunity much the same. Now, I don't know yet IF I've got the job, I think it's a strong possibility, but until I go here in just a couple hours I won't know. Oh I'm so nervous!!! Terrified actually. Just needed to vent, don't want to put it out there on social media my friends will be reading so I don't jinx myself lol. Well see.

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Sausage fingers!!! Lol at least they're getting a bit smaller lol.. So would it be totally weird to get hubby a ring with the infinity symbol carved into it? Make it like "our special symbol thing"? He says only engrave it underneath, which that's cool too.. But on top of a men's ring what you guys think? No? 😉 #weddingring #infinityringforever #timetogethubbyaring #ilovethisring

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Taking pics of hubby after he had a haircut.. Mmm i still think my man is so sexy! 😙 @tom_nevins I'm lucky having a hottie for a hubby! 😉 lol! I just really liked this pic of you, i guess bcuz it just really looked like you babe. So wanted to save the moment. I love you baby! 💋💘😙 #marriedmyhottiehubby #thisisourlife #luckytobemarriedtomybestfriend #hateshrinkingpicstofit #instasize

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Today this was also one of my posts from "On This Day" a year ago.. Shared it with my good friend Jessica. 💖 We've experienced and lived thru something very painful that i would never wish on even my worst enemy. Reconnecting again tho with you jess has helped me so much, feeling like I'm not alone and there's someone out there who truly understands. Unless it's happened I believe it'd be next to impossible to understand. Anyway I'm getting kinda weepy I guess bcuz that anniversary is coming up as well. To all the beautiful mother's out there who have lost a child, you are not alone. For every one tear I've shed on behalf of our baby Jacob, I've shed one more for this terrible feeling of loss for all mother's. #veryemotionaldayforme #forallthemotherswhohavelostachild #illneverforget #babyJacob #instasize

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Facebook does that "On This Day" thing what you did a year, two years, etc., ago on this day.. Today i feel like i got another special message from Mom. I'd been using that Timehop app and didn't realize it left out anything someone else had sent to me so I just started using Facebook to look back and I've had two of these beautiful messages from mom, they really touched me and it almost felt like she just now sent them to me. I actually use Facebook messenger to write letters to Mom, there's something about the idea that when I've written to her I can click that send button and it somehow ends up getting to her.. It's in my head but it means a lot to me. Somehow it's the little things that help with the intense pain. I know I've been writing such long, narrative, posts lately, and a huge THANK YOU to ask my friends who even bother to really read this far. (I'll know who you are based on that comment alone! 😉lol!) But truly, thank you guys for being friends and truly taking your time to be there throughout my struggle. #iloveyoumama #hatecroppingmypicsdowntofit #missingmom #thankstorealfriends #thestruggleisreal #instasize

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This still goes with the last pic I posted.. I'll be the first to admit I did stupid, foolish things that hurt myself and everyone around me. So what the hell can I do about it now??? Nothing. Move on, be a different, new, and better person. No one can change their past, no matter how badly they want to what's done is done. From here we move forward and be better human beings. Trust is absolutely not something to be given lightly, and even more so, to be given again. I don't even expect this.. I only hope for a chance to no longer be judged on the person I was. Every person on this earth has made mistakes, many they keep to themselves out of fear of being judged. Imagine if all your dirty laundry was hanging out to air for the world. Wouldn't you want to move on, hoping the judgments will pass and the people you care so much about might be able to see that? Being judged hurts, the closer a person is to you the more it hurts. @tom_nevins Thank you for loving me for who I am and who I can be rather than who I was or what I did. I love you #judgement #growingup #everydayisanewway

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This is such a beautiful idea, but that's exactly what it is, an idea. I'm not using this only in reference to intimate relationships bcuz my husband @tom_nevins is probably the MOST accepting of me of anyone. I struggle with this daily, JUDGMENT, from people who don't know me at all and just assume or people who think they know something about me and that something is absolutely defining. Or even worse sometimes, people who do know me, sometimes they think very well, and the judgments they have are even more heavy bcuz they were there in the past. Is any one action we do a definition of who we are? No. What about many actions? Still, no. This is why I do much want to move and start fresh. Unless non judgmental people are only a myth. #judgement #letthepaststayinthepast #todaydeterminestomorrow

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Uuggghhh!! This is just miserable to me! I'm just not a summer kinda gal lol! It's getting up to 105° today, then believe it or not, we get a couple of COOL days, them back up to triple digits! Can't wait to move! 😩😲😠😳😓😭😎😥😨 👈lol that's how many emotions the heat instills in me! 😆 #extremeheat #centralcaliforniasummers #imawintergalmyself #tripledigits #instasize

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Good mantra! Lol! #wordsofwisdom #truth #monkeywisdom

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I am so proud of you @tom_nevins my husband. 😙 You're a good man and i hope you have a good day today! You'll do great bcuz if there's one thing I know about you, it's that you can do anything you put your mind to! I love You! #firstday #proudofmyhusband #iloveyouthomasnevins #instasize

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One year ago today, was having breakfast at Black Bear Diner with my favorite aunts! 😉 That timehop app is fun, it shows me what I shared on social media this same day up to four years ago. I loved this day! Even tho we're all closer now, we don't see each other enough! Should do this again! Love you guys! #timehop #breakfastwithmyaunts #oneyearagotoday #lovetheseladies

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So omg I feel like I just REALLY did it.. I registered yesterday for my Fall semester classes at MJC and have committed entirely to earning my veterinary technician certificate!! I was advised that I can actually complete in a year IF I take all the required courses available each semester bcuz these won't be available again until the next fall semester. So it doesn't actually add up to a lot of units, but it's still a lot of classes and time.. Especially well be challenging as it's all new to me! So nervous/excited/anxious/stressed/overwhelmed/scared/dedicated!! So many feelings! Just wanted to share I'm taking my next big step. 🐶🐾🐈😉 #veterinarytech #Fall2015semester #mjcvettechprogram #soready #soexcitedandscared #animallover