And the story goes on... @jenniewishesshecouldb - Tumblr Blog

I hope to find love one day, I hope that my love is looking up at the stars wondering where in the world I am, they same way I do he.

I will find love one day

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Feyre and Rhys - A Court of Thorns and Roses

Artist: @pandyals_art

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REMEMBER IN ACOTAR when

Feyre first met Rhys?

““Standing before me was the most beautiful man I’d ever seen””

I think I knew from that first description itself, THEY were meant to be. No heroine would describe another male like that, especially as an ending line in a chapter.

“He smiled for a heartbeat longer. I had never seen anyone so handsome—and never had so many warning bells pealed in my head because it.“

Those we'ren’t warning bells Feyre darling. That was the mating bond.

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Right, I’ve been scrolling Tinder for long enough. Where is my Rhysand at?

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Dionne and I were both named after famous singers of the past, who now do infomercials.

Alicia Silverstone as Cher Horowitz in Clueless

I’m fucking sad man. Like sad sad and it’s really starting to effect me. i know i can’t do anything about it cause i can’t do that to my family. But i want to run away start fresh, clean slate. where no one knows me and can’t hurt me anymore.

I just want to live somewhere where people don’t know me or my family. Where if i’m interested in a guy he hasn’t already talked to/snapped/dated/hooked up with any of my friends. To a place where i don’t have family members banging on the door or calling me to help out constantly. it’s exhausting. I’m burning on both ends basically on fumes at this point. i don’t know how much i have left in me. I’m just not happy anymore. and things that used to bring me join just don’t i’m lost, sad, tired, and just flat out DONE

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Move your feet please (x)

[BONK]

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Me right now. And dammit, it sucks.

Been a while...

tumblr used to be my journal and then as i got older i wouldn’t be on my computer as much or i didn’t think that journaling fit into my schedule in general. I’ve had a really rough year on many different fronts. lots some friends, got some new ones. Struggles with work but traveled to new places.

I am beyond grateful for where i am at in life and how far i have come but i still can’t seem to shake the feeling that my life is missing something major and that i’m still failing. I know everyone moves at their own pace but i will be 30 in 3 short months and i can barely get a date. I’m trying to pin point the reasons. Is it me? If it is me, is it my looks? My personality? My friends? OR is it outwardly things. The fact that i’m working from home permanently so i can’t meet people in the office. Maybe cause the pandemic is happening and meeting people in person naturally is way more difficult. Is it the algorithm on dating apps? Is my taste too narrow and i’m not giving enough people a chance?

Is it a mixture of all of these things?

Possibly, one thing i know for sure is it is ridiculously exhausting trying to date and meet people. I barely have time in the day for myself and my needs especially with working 3/4 jobs. Being broke and decorating my new place. its just all a lot. my anxitey has been at an all time high this year too. I think its time i start journalling a gain for this reason. Just to let my emotions out. I know that no one else will be reading these and even if someone did they don’t know me. BUt i need an outlet outside of my friends. OUtside of therapy to allow myself to release my emotions and stresses. I think its time that i take back my life. I think it is time that i stop letting my mind control me and start living... it’s going to be a long journey and a very difficult one BUT I NEED IT. I’m back TUMBLR and i am so thankful you are still here like the comforting blanket i never knew i needed until i find it again and again hidden in my drawer.

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