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Accepting what is

I can’t help but think about the choices I’ve made in the past. How they affect me now, and where they’ve gotten me.. As much as I wish I hadn’t made some of the choices I’ve made, it’s done. I can’t relive those moments no matter how much I want to. I need to live with the consequences of my actions. Live with what I’ve lost and learn, hopefully making better choices for myself when the time comes again.

The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.

Anonymous

So I saw your post on FB about wanting Edible Arrangements, and if I didn't already spend more than half of my financial aid, I would totally send you a basket! (: but anonymously.. just like now hehe. Sorry, I'd rather not, but we haven't had a decent conversation in forever and our random encounters have been super awkward (which is my fault), so it'd just be weird. I miss you, though! I wish I had more balls to approach you, but I don't and I'm just an awkward person, so.. yeah. Haha kbye!

Lol hello

Thinking about you

Sometimes I wonder if you still think about me. I wonder if you still look at me the same way I look at you and think, "god you're still so attractive." I know things didn't work out the way we had hoped, and I know I made some really bad decisions... I wish I could take them all back at times, but I wouldn't be where I am now, and I wouldn't have learned to be a better person. I hope some day you realize I'm a different guy now, a much better version of the old me. Maybe if it works out one day we could be together again and I wouldn't have to miss you so much, but I can't force change in your or my life. Everything has to happen naturally right? Until then all I can do is hope that you're doing well and wish for the best for you. I know deep down the love I once had for you is still there, I know it will always be. Now may not be the time to act on it, and maybe there will never be a time, but I just can't help but think of you every so often, even when I see you. I miss you. I hope you're still thinking about me too.

Pieces

Ever think back through the people you’ve been with? Ever feel like some of them will always have a piece of your heart with them? I do… at times it makes me sad. I think back to the good times I’ve had with them, the times I felt alive, when things were real, and you just never wanted to leave that moment. It was moments like that, that I would leave pieces of my heart with that person, never forgetting. Moments like that, that I felt were worth giving up a part of me and opening my self up to… but when the end of all of those relationships came I would be devastated, heart broken, lost… of course, in time, things healed. I was put back together, and bounced back even stronger. As time passed, it’s moments like this that I look back and think about those little pieces of my heart I left behind with someone I care about and just reminisce. I never regret, but I always think back and wonder what would happen if I never left that piece of me behind?.. I mean of course it’s never good to linger, but I digress. I just hope that those pieces of me left behind made a difference in their life, as their presence did in mine.

Reminiscing

I like having songs that remind me of good the times I've had with the girls I've dated. It's good memories I've made that I can re-live for a moment. Not why things didn't work, or the things we've been through, just the memories I made that were worth keeping. 👌