7.21.2016
What a strange ass day. Awful things. Happy things. Weird things. All in a span of 3 hours.
I’ve been in the job search process for almost 2 months. It’s been both stressful and hopeful. Stressful because I’ve grown poorer and poorer while waiting for responses. Hopeful because I’m excited at the prospect of really challenging my skills and growing in a new environment.
Today, I received a job offer literally 45 minutes before I had a phone interview for another position. I’ve had a few phone interviews almost everyday this week. And right before that job offer, I found out a friend of mine passed away. We weren’t the closest, especially in the last few years, but there was something so freaking beautiful about her spirit. There I was at 12pm so distraught while my office’s work-study sat right in front of me minding her work. (BTW, I take a 2 second break from writing this post to check my email and see another request to set up a phone interview for another company). I know I should not be complaining at all about this. It’s just a bit overwhelming because I went from about a month of no responses and silence and uncertainty of what I want to do with my life to a whole week of back to back interviews with multiple companies and organizations.
I then call up my aunt whom I really close to - she is pretty much my mama #2. We usually take turns in venting about our drama for the day. Today was my turn. I shared with her my job prospects and the news of my friend’s passing. It actually wasn’t met with as much support as I was hoping for. Yes, she was sad and was telling me to pray and everything will be okay. But then she just went on about her problems and how mine can’t compare to hers. Yes, I acknowledge all of us have our share of problems and hers happen to include the negative things that come with aging. But it was almost as if she was completely invalidating mine, which of course was not my expectation in calling her. So it just put me in this really weird limbo land of feelings.
Just needed to get that off my chest. It’s been such a weird year.
xoxo, J
