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by Beatrix Potter

Everyone in my life tells me how strong I am, how they know I can handle anything because of what I've been through, what I've lived through, and what I've witnessed. What they don't know, is that I'm fucking weak. I'm the weakest human that I know. I'm not strong at all and I can't handle anything. I break down over everything. Over nothing. I have no control over it and it makes me feel powerless.

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Relationships don’t take your anxiety away Relationships don’t take your depression away Relationships don’t stop the bad thoughts Relationships don’t stop your mental illnesses

I tried to explain how my thoughts appear in my head tonight. My friends looked at me like I was crazy

I'm so tired of my friends treating me like shit, taking advantage of me and/or fucking me over. I just, for ONCE, want my feelings to be considered. Or I at least want my friends to care enough to actually hit me up once in a while. Or how about answer me?

This shit makes me want to hurt myself and I haven't had that mindset in years.

I just want to move away from all this toxicity and start over but I CAN'T. I'm stuck here. I feel like a fucking prisoner

And I don't even have anyone to talk to about any of this because I have just about no support system at all. Tumblr is basically my only outlet for actually getting my thoughts and feelings out. TUMBLR is my support system. How sad is that? I feel useless.