[jester-s-words]

07.24.19

Leave me in the cold

Hang me out to dry

Throw me into the fire

Bury me when I die.

Those lost long ago

Are shining in the stars

And their home in the atmosphere

Will someday become ours.

Here the empty bodies

Are vacant where they lie

And the spirits once within

Are scattered through the sky.

[jester-s-words]

07.17.19

Little words

Work wonders to

Put broken minds

To rest

Little words

Used as weapons

To torture and

To test

[jester-s-words]

12.15.18

Rain pouring out the

Holes in my face

Spilling the memories

That can't be erased

[jester-s-words]

09.05.18

Changing lanes and shifting gears

Pedal to the metal, passing the years

Faster and faster is how fast we'll go

To avoid being drowned by the undertow

Life in the fast lane, foot on the floor

Where love is a weapon and life is a war

[jester-s-words]

08.19.18

I didn't want you to break me

So instead I broke myself

I ripped out my own beating heart

And put it up on the shelf

I wanted to have the final word

And finally make you see

The one in my life who's calling the shots

Is now, and always was, me

[jester-s-words]

08.18.18

It's not water under the bridge

Until that bridge is burned

[jester-s-words]

08.04.18

This psychotic jester

Painted all in black

Has drifted into madess

No chance to turn back

[jester-s-words]

07.26.18

Most spirits ascend to meet the sky

To become a new color in the sunset

They join with the atmosphere

Close to the angels, stars that shine

That emerge from a painted canvas

High above the tiny world

[jester-s-words]

07.09.18

You're everything I wish I wasn't,

But I am because you are.

Not even the music stops your noise:

Thoughts that leave me scarred.

[jester-s-words]

07.03.18

I look at the bleeding sunset

Dripping down the sky

Capturing photos lest I forget

The images of the eye/

Chirping crickets grace the ear

With calm and warming sounds

Auditory blessings for all to hear

In evening, beauty abounds/

Darkness reaches it's fingers

Into the husky twilight

The painted color palette lingers

Until it falls to night/

I sit with noise inside my head

As silence sits around me

How I wish the stillness of the dead

Would freeze my mind - come save me/

[jester-s-words]

05.24.18

Walking with the skeletons

People without skin

Dancing with the empty bones

Nothing left within

Crowds of ceaselessly grinning skulls

Vacant, thoughtless voids

Black holes where the eyes once were

Attics full of toys

[jester-s-words]

05.22.18

Monsters are real

But not under the bed

They're locked away

Inside your head

When you look in the mirror

They come out to play

To wreak havoc in your mind

For yet another day

I don't fear the reaper

In fact I wish he'd come

End this writhing madness

Just let it all be done

[jester-s-words]

05.09.18

We lost you so long ago

Back when little did I know

You faded right before our eyes

Yet it came as such a surprise

To see you there slowly dying

They said you'd make it, they were lying

I saw it coming but didn't know

How it would feel to let you go

The pain was and is a pointed thorn

Leaving my sanity shredded and torn

And I can feel it stabbing me

I just want it to let me be

Memories just exacerbate the pain

And make the acidic tears fall like rain

I don't ever want to forget

But I'm swamped by such regret

How can I go on remembering

When all I envision is the ending?

I just want to know if someday

I'll be with you again in some way

This is redundant; I say it all the time

But the only way I feel you is in rhyme

[jester-s-words]

04.22.18

Take everything I have to give

And run away so you might live

It's dark and scary up in here

And sometimes monsters just appear

Out of nowhere, formed by thoughts

Where you can't connect the dots

Inside a head that's painted grey

By the monotony of every day

There's no hope for the ones who wait

To meet their predetermined fate

Some struggle on and some get stronger

While some can't take it any longer

Black holes tell the simple tale

Of what waits for us beyond the veil

From a peaceful death there is no gain

Just endless sorrow and constant pain

For ones forgotten and left behind

Allowed to slowly go deaf and blind

Alone, alone he'll leave you there

Lost and lonely in your despair

What makes you think you're special now?

It's been a good show, but take a bow.

The spotlights growing soft and dim

In the world's galactic rim

Begging you to take the fall

Take it now, or not at all

The stars continue to darkly shine

Over the earth, your final shrine

[jester-s-words]

04.03.18

Those years we spent

Under the sun

Are over forever

All said and done

Summers of days

Playing in the lake

Are gone for good

Since you won't wake

The tractor abandoned

No children will ride

Behind the old wheel

Without you to drive

I'll always be asking

Does the torment end?

I'm just waiting till

I can see you again

[jester-s-words]

03.27.18

Familiar differences haunting me

In the mirror that I use to see

Don't remember what I changed

But now I'm looking at something strange

There's a twist to the face I knew

And I'm not sure what I can do

To reclaim this transforming being

To prevent the shift I'm seeing

From the girl that once was there

To the one whose face I share

[jester-s-words]

03.19.18

Listen with your cold dead ears

As my whispered word appears

I'm sending it off to locate you

Somewhere in the empty blue

When you hear it, come to me

Standing in the cerulean sea

Reaching up into the sky

Towards the hurricanes whirling eye

I see you when I walk alone

A wandering commandless drone

Gusting wind dries invisible tears

As memories fade throughout the years

Now I'm writing these words to reach you

I just hope they make it through