baby i

@dtfnoelle: forever, bitches.

[ashtonlbr]

I think you will find I wasn’t the one threatening to pull someones pants down.

[jfcnoellex]

..shut up.

[ashtonlbr]

I didn’t realise you was that eager to get in my pants again Noelle.

[jfcnoellex]

Shut the fuck up, Ashton.

  You're so dirty.

[jfcnoellex]

all you flawless people, come check out my new roleplay. because all of 1D are open except Zayn because Nala is him. I will love you all down hardcore like my god. Pleeeeeeeease! ♥

here is the linnnnnnnnnnkie. :')

[ashtonlbr]

It’s no problem Noelle. I like your optimism, but something is bound to fuck up, so as great as you are you’ll probably not be able to stop that, I’m a walking disaster when it comes to relationships. Maybe the single life is made for me.

[jfcnoellex]

Shush, don't make me pull down your pants again. I will do it.

[ashtonlbr]

Maybe I will, but believe me one day you will find someone you deserve and you’ll fall in love. I know, yes you should have trusted me, but I can’t blame you for not telling me. Just know that I mean everything I said. Thanks Noelle, I doubt it, I’ll find a way to fuck up but thanks.

[jfcnoellex]

I guess so, and thanks Ashton. Means a lot to me, actually. No, you won't. Trust me on this, you two will be happy together and nothing bad will happen. I'll make sure of it, Mayer.

[fcxscottm-deactivated20130904]

Well there you go then. Mental high five.

I am nobody’s dork. Thank you very much.

[jfcnoellex]

Loser.

Yes, you're my dork and my loser. So, shut the fuck up and accept it.

[jfcnoellex]

Text ↠ Noelle

Lola: yeah, I know what you mean. I think it'll be really nice to have one that doesn't look at you like you're crazy, or just beat around the subject when you're having one of your bad days, as well. you'll be kinda like my breath of fresh air.

Lola: and that sounded a lot less creepy in my head? oops.

Noelle: Exactly, all of my old friends would think i was crazy.

Noelle: Don't worry about it, Lola.

[jfcnoellex]

Text ↠ Noelle

Lola: I would like that, just let me know when you'd like to go and we can for surely get together. also, if you'd like to talk privately, we can get take out and I can share my spot I go to when I want some alone time.

Noelle: That sounds.. great. I don't have many girl friends so it'd be nice to actually have one.

[fcxscottm-deactivated20130904]

It made you laugh though right? And you now feel a bit better so my mission is complete. Go me.

[jfcnoellex]

It did and I do.

God, Scott. You're such a dork, but you're my dork so it's okay.

[ashtonlbr]

Noelle you won’t always love me, I’m just a stupid asshole, you deserve better than that and one day you’ll find it. I-I.. don’t know what to say Noelle. Wow I’m sorry. I wish I could have helped, and believe me if I ever knew I would have. You shouldn’t have felt like that, you’re gorgeous and I would never think of you as a freak, scars or no scars you’re still beautiful. You need to stop apologizing, it’s over and done now, there’s nothing we can do about that but you shouldn’t keep beating yourself up over a breakup like ours. Hey you probably actually got a lucky escape and you can find someone you deserve.

[jfcnoellex]

You'll always have a piece of  my heart though. I know you would have, I just.. my wall was just too fucking high for you to climb over. Thank you, Ashton. I-it means a lot coming from you, like a lot a lot. Shut up, I didn't get lucky. You're a great guy, Ash and the girl you love is going to be so fucking lucky to have you as hers.

[fcxscottm-deactivated20130904]

Just call me Dr Phil.

Or Maury, whichever you prefer.

[jfcnoellex]

You're such a loser.

[jfcnoellex]

Text ↠ Noelle

Lola: see, as I said, there are other factors than trust that go into telling and not telling someone something. and nobody should be made to feel as tho they HAVE to tell them, either. but you guys'll work things out, I have no doubts.

Noelle: Can we uh.. maybe get lunch or something? I'd like someone to talk too..

[ashtonlbr]

Well a point isn’t really enough is it. Exactly me and Lola were no different whatsoever to you and Scott, so I don’t see how there was any need to complain. Never once did I complain about you hanging around with Scott, it didn’t piss me off in the slightest and I certainly didn’t say shitty things about him, so I don’t see why it was so difficult for you. You’re not fucked up Noelle, you just fucked up one time. I didn’t help the situation by being an asshole back, but you should have expected that to happen.

[jfcnoellex]

I-I know.. look, I love you and I think I always will and it's about damn time you uh.. finally know who I am because I trust you. I'm Noelle Odette Mason, and when I was eleven years old I was sexually molested. He was like an older brother to me, he wasn't very much older than me but he still knew what he was doing. He told me if I ever told my parents, he'd hurt me so I kept my mouth shut. From the ages of eleven to fifteen, he sexually abused me. But, apparently god finally answered my prayers and he got busted for molesting a girl and was sentenced to life, I helped by finally testifying against him. Ever since that night,  I cut and I didn't stop. But, a few weeks before I turned seventeen I met you. I was instantly attracted to you and when you liked me back, I started.. feeling happy again. I put down my razor and tried opening up, but I was so damaged that it was hard. And eventually, I became really.. paranoid because girls are prettier than me and aren't freaks who have scars all over their legs and thighs. I became clingy because an amazing guy made me feel loved even though half the time I didn't deserve it because I was a bitch to him. I'm sorry, Ash. I.. really tried to open up and move on from the past so we could be happy but I just.. I couldn't. I'll forever regret that because I lost someone very.. amazing.

[fcxscottm-deactivated20130904]

A few times, yes.

But I don’t get tired of hearing it.

[jfcnoellex]

I honestly, have no idea what I'd do without you.

You keep me.. sane.

[jfcnoellex]

Text ↠ Noelle

Lola: I really hate when people think if someone doesn't tell them something, it's because of a lack of trust. sure, you have to trust someone to open up to 'em, but other factors do go into it. anywho, don't thank me. it's all good, babes.

Noelle: ...........i just.. i do trust him but i've always had this wall up since.. it happened and i've been scared to tell anybody.

[fcxscottm-deactivated20130904]

You don’t have to do that for anyone. Not even me. If there’s thing’s you want to keep to yourself you do that.

[jfcnoellex]

God, have I mentioned I fucking love you?

[jfcnoellex]

Text ↠ Noelle

Lola: seriously, don't worry about it. yeah, I suppose that makes sense, I don't know how much he's told you about his side and some of the shit he's been through, but the asshole-ness is just his way of coping. and he used to be a lot less asshole-y, but he just kinda shut himself down emotionally. I don't know if that happened before, during, or after you, but yeah. it's not very often you actually see the soft side of him, I mean, I rarely see it, but it's there. so, you should never be scared to tell Ashton something. his bark has always been worse than his bite.

Noelle: Seems like he didn't trust me enough either to talk to me. Oh well, shit happens. aha. Anyways, I think I'll just.. open up to him. maybe than he'll at least be my friend again.. thanks again, Lola. it.. really means a lot.