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Why do i gotta be ugly

That feeling when you wanna see someone what you don’t wanna show them your face 🥲

At no point in my life, that i am sure of what I’m doing

naturaekos

“Have you ever had that feeling— that you’d like to go to a whole different place and become a whole different self?”

—

I’m thinking about ending things.

I felt my pulse and all i could think about is running a blade down my artery. But that’s all I could do, think. I can’t bring myself to get a blade and actually do it. Idk if that’s a good thing or a bad thing. Regardless, I have a strong feeling of wanting to die. I want to pass out. I want to not feel.

Siguro acceptance is key talaga. I must accept the situation and not expect too much.

I must accept the fact that di pa naman kami ganun katagal, na hindi kami magkikita everyday, na every other weekend ko lang sya masosolo, na kailangan nya din ng time for himself like i do, na nasa point kami ng buhay namin na ang daming nangyayari. We must be each other’s peace, we must help each get through this year by making our relationship at least the only thing that’s going well in our lives. He loves me and I love him.

PS. I love the fact that I’m very sure that he does love me ☺️

Communication is they key 🔑 tell him what you feel

I tried. But I’m not good with communicating my feelings in a way that he would feel like he is not enough, because he is enough. I just want more or yung dati. Nung di pa sya busy. I just need to wait. Babalik din sa dati 😔

When we are in a relationship with someone, do we show them that we love them through the ways we know how to express love or do we show it in ways they know how love is expressed?

Love languages are a thing and a lot of couples discover each other’s love language. But how do you apply that knowledge?

What my boyfriend thinks of Valentine’s Day. Totoo naman pero sad parin ako. He never does anything on any holidays. Birthday ko, wala. Christmas, wala, Valentine’s day, wala rin. Haaaaaaaay. Kakaiyak pero okay lang.

Dito ako nag vevent kasi di nya alam tong tumblr ko. Kaya haaaaaaay

I want to take more pictures with him. Kasi ang konti ng pictures namin. Nakakasad. (Lahat nalang kinalungkot ko)

9 months...

9 months na kami. Di ko alam. Ang hirap. Parang minsan ayaw ko na pero most of the time i want to fight for the love i have for him. Ang hirap kasi parang ang hirap nyang kilalanin and the same time he has no interest in discovering more about me. Di ako makapag demand or complain kasi nga gets ko naman na ang hectic ng life nya, ang dami nyang inaasikaso, sasabay pa ba ako? Pero alam mo yun, ang hirap talaga. Parang andito lang ako. Naghihintay ng turn ko. Parang okay, kailan kaya matatapos yung ginagawa nya, kailan kaya masosolve tong problema. Iniisip ko nalang na better days are coming, when all is well and the waves are calm, babalik din sya. Babalik din yung lahat. Sa ngayon, focus nalang muna ako sa sarili ko, sa goals ko.

Minsan nakakainggit makita yung mga couples na they are doing things together, achieving milestones together. Pero okay lang din naman na i have my own thing and he has his own. Wala lang, i just want to be one with him.

He’s still married and he’s on the process on closing the house, then still have to renovate the other one. Ako chill lang. work work work. I want to be his peace because he is mine. I forget all my problems pag kasama ko sya, i am calm and at ease. Di ko alam how to be his peace

Whenever i feel like I’m finally doing better, eating healthy, exercising, not depending on other people’s attention and constantly trying to make myself feel better, i feel like i go down further, everyday gets harder, my yearning for human connection intensifies and i hate it, i feel like I’m stuck.

I’m tired of making myself available for people who are only here for me when they have nothing else to do

taylorswift

Don’t know what else to do

Guys - It’s been announced recently that the American Music Awards will be honoring me with the Artist of the Decade Award at this year’s ceremony. I’ve been planning to perform a medley of my hits throughout the decade on the show. Scott Borchetta and Scooter Braun have now said that I’m not allowed to perform my old songs on television because they claim that would be re-recording my music before I’m allowed to next year. Additionally - and this isn’t the way I had planned on telling you this news - Netflix has created a documentary about my life for the past few years. Scott and Scooter have declined the use of my older music or performance footage for this project, even though there is no mention of either of them or Big Machine Records anywhere in the film.

Scott Borchetta told my team that they’ll allow me to use my music only if I do these things: If I agree to not re-record copycat versions of my songs next year (which is something I’m both legally allowed to do and looking forward to) and also told my team that I need to stop talking about him and Scooter Braun.

I feel very strongly that sharing what is happening to me could change the awareness level for other artists and potentially help them avoid a similar fate. The message being sent to me is very clear. Basically, be a good little girl and shut up. Or you’ll be punished.

This is WRONG. Neither of these men had a hand in the writing of those songs. They did nothing to create the relationship I have with my fans. So this is where I’m asking for your help.

Please let Scott Borchetta and Scooter Braun know how you feel about this. Scooter also manages several artists who I really believe care about other artists and their work. Please ask them for help with this - I’m hoping that maybe they can talk some sense into the men who are exercising tyrannical control over someone who just wants to play the music she wrote. I’m especially asking for help from The Carlyle Group, who put up money for the sale of my music to these two men.

I just want to be able to perform MY OWN music. That’s it. I’ve tried to work this out privately through my team but have not been able to resolve anything. Right now my performance at the AMA’s, the Netflix documentary and any other recorded events I am planning to play until November of 2020 are a question mark.

I love you guys and I thought you should know what’s been going on.

Taylor

sorryinquiting

the absolute nerve

not to be cocky but I have a decent personality, and hella good music taste

so why tf didn’t I get a good body >:(

(Ps the scene that this gif is from had me crying my eyes out)

Asosora muku my friend 😂

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