*active aug 2024*//tw

25| h: 5'8| gw: 121 cw: 178|

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fasting :p

i fucked up my fast by eating some chocolates a coworker gave me. i only ate around 750c but now i'm on a 75hr fast. no eating until sunday night. i wanna purg3 my dinner i just had. hopefully i can lose 2 pounds.

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omg is 3dtumblr still alive?!?

Well hey! I'm back doing a diet rn. do i even have moots on here? lmao

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heyyyyy I’m backk

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yo I was doing so good until I freak ateeeeee fml

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DOWN -5lbs since the start of yearrr☃️❄️

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hmu on edtwt my feed is pretty chill

@finkorjimi2 on edtwt

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YO 18+ EDNOS FOLKS; THERES A GC FOR YOU TO JOINNNNNN!

I made it! there are no rules, just be 18+ (pls dont lie abt ur age dude) and be a nice adult!

https://discord.gg/k77m42ZY

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✨I’m working really hard in 2022. I will make it to my 1st goal weight. Im tired of feeling like the ugly friend.✨

[anorexiafucksmeup]

I wish losing weight was as easy as movies about anorexia portray it. Like hell yeah,i want an aesthetically pleasing montage with a cool soundtrack of me skipping meals and working out for 2 months and suddenly boom I’m skinny. But nooo, all I get binging and crying into an ice-cream container and feeling like I’m about to pass the fuck out 24/7

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self control is hard

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but being fat and undesirable is harder

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The person I reblogged this from deserves to be happy.

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alright, new diet starts this week. I’m taking it slow and just doing OMAD. I’m gonna try to eat way more green foods hehe

[dankmemeuniversity]

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i’m backkkkk :)

Here’s what my month looked like and some realizations I have about recovery:

A lot of self hate 

There will always be triggers. It doesn’t matter how much of a good day I have, if I look at food packages I instinctively look at the calories and still mentally count how much I had in a day. 

Learning to process my emotions through other means is very difficult when I havent rlly given up on this one.

The worst time of your life can feel like a friend. Not eating, documenting it, working out, documenting it, connecting w others (like you beauties reading this hopefully ;)) feels like I’m not alone. But, when recovering, i feel so alone, and its like i lost a long time friend.

YOU HAVE TO PUT THE WORK IN. 

idk why i thought i could be like “ok im free of ed” and live normally, I have to work twice or three times as hard to recover and I just want to be “normal” 

I literally binged for a month and looked at my self naked in the mirror and i broke, i have to reach this goal and i dont want to stop to recover. 

so, yes i relapsed :(

and the only person i let down was me but at the same time idc?? 

is this mental illness????

i like typing like this lol

The holidays suck, bc all i have been doing is eating and binging and i hate it. 

So, here i am. I’m back! 

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✨Recovering✨

Updates:

11/4/2021: The holidays are approaching and that’s a huge trigger for me. I feel guilty when eating a rice cake so I know eating sus calories will ruinnnnnn my mental health. So as of now I still do OMAD. I like it bc it still works for me. I do get hungry around lunch time. But I’m still scared to eat lunch. I’m still addicted to fasting greatly.

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I think I’m going to try and recover. I’m tired man. I still want to document the process of recovery I still don’t even know how to recover they have all ended in relapses. I’m not going scroll on here bc that would trigger tf outta me. but I will try to update the process. Wish me luck, and you all stay safe :))

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I saw that using ed tags makes your page go boom. sooooo it looks like I’m going to stop using Eddie tags. hi to the 3 ppl who see this Lolol