Jimmy's thoughts

Hello, it's me, Jimmy. I'm a singer and I want my music to rip things apart with it's intense, so wish me luck. Luv U.

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A girl from my job once told me:

"As long as we're alive - we're immortal".

I replied that it is the dumbest thing I had ever heard, but I was stoned, so I also kinda like it.

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Excerpt from a diary.

12.25 "Healing"

There are no words to describe my pain. I feel betrayed, I feel terrible. Heavy thoughts lie on my heart. I don't understand why people ditch me so easily. I want to say, that I don't give a fck, but it was a low blow. For me it folded into a one big system, and now I feel all of this feelings over and over again.

I drew a triptych - you and he, and he... I don't know how I can trust anyone from now on. My therapist told me: "you can only trust someone as much so that doesn't kill you if you fail". And now I'm just killed.

As the days go by, I mark every new little milestone and wait for it to get better, but it's only getting worse. I didn't say what I wanted to say. And I'll never do. I'm tired of broadcast my thoughts to the empty cold concrete wall. I know - everything looks different from the other side. It makes me feel even more dumb. Delulu. I saw what never existed.

I feel like my ribs are crumbling and lungs are shrinking turning into raisin, and my head... My head is swells and swells till blow. I started crying a lot, almost every day. But my tears no longer bring me relief.

I regret most of all my enormous naivety, which put me in this situation.

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And i thought, that someone would love my dumb habits. There is always something more behind it. A traumatic story, a hidden hope, something you won't tell just stranger about. Something that you'll share only with close one's.

Like... I never put a mug on a table with electronic equipment because when I was a child I spilled tea on my mother's laptop and she gave me such a hard time... Guilty feeling haunted me for a very long time and it was vividly etched in my memory...

Or once we were moving heavy furniture in a rented apartment because my bff is afraid to sleep in front of a mirror.

I mean... when you really love someone... you love his flaws too... and some dumb habits include...

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New song release soon

Yeah, I know

That your windows faces

The sunny side of the street.

But I'm more

Like a heavy rain,

Like a hurricane-force wind

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I celebrated my 20th birthday🎉 sitting on 🎇garbage bags🎇 after a hard shift at the bakery.

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From beginning to the end

We're not lovers, we're not friends.

Just two strangers in a bed

No love, no love, No regrets.

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And I was smiling

Because I like it

When someone likes me.

Was acting all cute and nice

Without thinking once, thinking twice

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Got my baby by my side,

Oh, is she gorgeous?

Wearing nothing, but high heels -

Do it on purpose.

Look at her, such a perfect sight -

Perfect-perfect-perfect body.

Hot weather, hot girls , hot wheels,

We like, we like getting naughty...

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I feel like my pain could become the most beautiful song in the world

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And If your kids ever will see me

In that stupid photo of us

And ask you what I was like

Please, just lie to them, because

They shouldn't know pain that we knew.

Just, please, don't tell them the truth

Just tell them that I was the best.

This is my last request.

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All I wanted was for the world to stop.

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"Welcome to the city

I'm dying in the backseats"

I wrote this song after my love broke up with me by text message while I was breakdown in my friend's car.

The song hasn't been released yet, but I've done some small art for inspiration.