- differences, p. 5.2
characters: eun jiwon/you
warnings: swearing
- Let's go, - you find yourself already in rather giant slippers, but it's still better than giant heels. Jiwon looks up at you and you put your hand on his cheek, caressing warm skin for a moment.
- Thank you, - he stands up, helping you get out of the car and you follow wherever he guides you to.
- It's chilly without your hands on my legs, - we are dying tomorrow, so today we are taking the best from life.
You hear his laughter again, entering the door he opened for you.
- I wish I could see your face in the morning, - if your drunken flirting in the toilet didn't get him, then his low and hot whisper to your ear made you.. let's say, excited, - It will be priceless. You will remember everything and I would pay to see it.
You want to spank off his smug sarcastic expression from his face, but he is way too right.
- No regrets, - you sniff loudly as a tough woman that you are and you both laugh quietly to not to disturb anyone. But there is no one anyway, - I want.. something spicy. Do they have sandwiches?
- I thought you were going to eat pies or something, - he is still supporting your waist so you follow him obediently, looking around while you have a chance.
- Fuck yeah I will, but I need an appetizer, - he nods knowingly and you both smile again.
You can't ignore a feeling that this situation looks suspiciously dreamy from the side.
It's a date.
It is.
It looks like it, so it is.
You smile wider because of your logical inferences and hug his hand, bumping your face into his upper arm while he places an order. When there's no air in your lungs anymore, you press your cheek to the soft material and look to the opposite side of the counter. Staring into the big windows into the night street, you feel such a relaxing emptiness in your head. Instead of millions of thoughts at once, there is one giant nothing. And it's.. The best. Exactly what you needed.
You feel him shifting then placing his palm on the back of your neck, making you look up a bit.
- It's perfect, - you bump your chin into his shoulder for support, smiling slowly and he looks above your head, frowning.
- What? - Jiwon doesn't seem to understand what you are talking about and that makes you giggle, - What?
- Thank you, - you look away from him because that started to look like a perfect situation for a kiss (and you can't bear a thought about a kiss with Eun Jiwon) and continue to stare at the window alone with your perfect comfort inside.
You have no idea how much time passed until he started to move and you turn around, seeing two paper packages on a counter and a plate with two cups in his hand.
- Oh, I'll take them, - you take packages way too fast and he shrugs his shoulders, saying goodbye to a barista. You do the same and let him guide out, - Thought it would be too heavy for you, decided to be considerate for elders.
Before his annoyed face turns into a beat for your ass (you wish), you place a finger on his lips, making annoyingly polite face.
- Don't say a word. I understand that it might be hard for you to ask for help, bu-.., - Jiwon bites the tip of your finger with a straight face, looking as strict as ever and you sure look like a deer caught in headlights because he can't keep a face for long, bursting into laughter after letting your finger out.
- I will not feed you, - he's still laughing, opening cardoor for you and this time, you get inside on your own and before he takes his driver place, you open a sandwich from a package and bite it. So when he looks at you with 'are you fucking kidding me' face you are aggressively chew a sandwich with a face of a winner.
- It was my sandwich, - he still has 'are you fucking kidding me' face and you stop chewing immediately, placing it back into a paper box.
- Have a good meal, - you place it on his knees, smiling with a fake polite smile, trying to not to chew what is left in your mouth but fail, - It's too delicious.
- It is, - Jiwon stops his 'strict' perfomance and gives you a cup which has 'no caffeine' on it and you smile at his care again, - Try yours. I asked to make it spicy.
You nod, taking a sip of a drink, feeling how it spreads all around your body in a giant warm and sweet wave. You roll your eyes at the feeling and tilt your head backwards, enjoying the taste.
- You ate almost half, how is that possible, - you hear smile in his voice and it makes you happy again. You place a cup in a cup holder and open yours, taking a bite.
- I can spit it, - Jiwon looks at you with all the same face and.. well, you were expecting it.
- I'd prefer you to swallow, - you both know it. The tension in the car is so obvious, you both know it's there. You feel your breath hitchin and Jiwon sips on his coffee, looking away from you.
- As you like, - you see it; you see it so clearly. The way his defense cracks up just enough to see what he really feels. Jiwon closes his eyes slowly, biting his lip and shift in his seat, gulping. You don't know what is under his eyelids; but you for sure know who.
It's silence for a short moment, before he recovers and lean back on a seat, biting a sandwich way too aggressively.
- Calm down, - you laugh, trying to not to make it awkward and he gives you a look worth a million words, - Sorry.
Somehow, you can't feel awkwardness. Even if because all the rules, you must. It's natural with him and you know it's the same for him.
It makes everything so much better.
- Eat you food, please, I beg you, - you know it's just a polite way to say 'shut up already for God's sake' and you generously decide to give him a rest. It's not your stomach singing serenades, no. Absolutely not.
And everything is just perfect. All the ambiguous teasing, and natural softness that sparks in you when you look at him, and laughter that doesn't feel fake even a bit. You feel like crying when hours of driving around pass. You don't want to go. You want to stay with him; not in a sexual way nor in a romantic. Just with a.. person that he is.
A perfect person for you.
You were more than just 'unstable' when you called him and it took a few hours for him to bring peace into your head back.
The last thing you want is to let him go.
- I lost my phone, - you are standing in front of the door to your apartment, trying to find something to spend a few more minutes with him; fighting your brain falling asleep. Because you basically can't even stand properly.
- Sleep first, - he's so calm about it and you pout, knowing that nothing will work.
- Of course you are calm, it's not you who lost it, - Jiwon laughs, supporting you when you poke his chest with a finger.
- You are half asleep and still as vicious as ever, - you end up in hugging him, pressing your face to the his on his neck again. He smells perfect.
- It's the way I flirt, - he pats your head and you swear you felt his lips on your temple. Feeling how your heart goes straight to your feet, you look up on him and bite your lower lip just enough hard to not to say what you are about to say; you will do it anyway, - It's a perfect timing for a kiss.
He nods, looking away with a tiny smirk on his face and you feel him taking a deep big breath.
- It is, - Jiwon leans closer and you can't bear it anymore. You swear you can't. Your whole body trembles with anticipation and it didn't happen even with your kiss; fuck, you don't remember feeling like that in forever. You press the back of his neck in an attempt to make him do it faster and he stops moving right before his lips touch yours, - Don't rush it. Feel it.
The time stops; you close your eyes, feeling his breath tingling on your lips and you do as he says; you feel him. You feel the way his breath hitch when your lips touch; for a brief moment, making you sigh in surprise. He does it again, but staying for longer and you grip gently long hair on his nape, asking for more. You feel him pulling back a little and you meet his eyes glued on yours when you open them; his gaze can make you do anything. It's devouring, you are done.
And he didn't even kiss you properly.
- I need to g-.., - you mutter harsh 'fuck no' and almost press him into you, not giving a chance to move and.. Jiwon has no plans to fight back. His lips guide your the way he wants and you are not complaining at all; his kiss is perfectly warm, wet and so terribly skilled. Your head is spinning on the fifteenth second, you moan into his lips on the thirties and it takes him one minute to make you wet. His lips are moving in a perfect sync with yours; he lets you take a breath as if he knows when to; and he makes sure to answer with a low quite groan on every your little moans, sending vibrations all over your body straight to where you want to feel him the most now.
You have no idea how much you spent on the best kiss of your life, but when you woke up from it, he was pressing you to a wall with a hand sliding up your tight slowly.
You gasp for air, with your head still spinning like crazy and the best thing about it is the way Jiwon looks. Focused, messy and so turned on, biting swollen lip hard while staring into your eyes as if he's going to eat you.
It's written all over your face that you will one thousand percent let him do anything he wants and it makes his life so much worse.
He shuts his eyes and you know that it's over.
- Look at me, - you place both your hands on his cheeks, waiting before he opens his eyes and now it's just.. concern and distance. Distance as far as possible from you, - Don't fucking dare do that. I kissed you. I wanted it. I'm not sixteen or some shit, stop making it seem like I cannot be touched.
- It's not i-.. - he starts to rant, but not now. Boost of adrenaline and endorphin in your body made your mind perfectly clean and fearless.
- Treat me as your equal, not as a young clueless girl, - you kiss him right below his lips, putting an ebd of a topic and push him a little, getting out of his arms, - I wouldn't have said that if I wasn't sure that I attract you. At least, physically.
Jiwon seem to think, frowning and he looks away from you, as he always does when he's being caught off guard.
- Sleep tight, - you put your hands on his shoulders to pull him closer, pressing your lips to his cheek softly, - Thank you for tonight.
You weren't going to apologize like you did the last time, because now you believe that you didn't do anything wrong. And the fact that Jiwon placed the same soft kiss on your forehead before saying 'good night' proves your point.
You are not asking him to start dating you, or fuck you into any given surface (haha.. jk.. unless?..), you just want him to stop pushing his desires away.
The last thing you are hoping for while crawling in bed is to not to die out of shame tomorrow.
Because you still. Needed to work with him.
