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fucking skummalianga

[jiyasisodia]

abundance of options, likelihood of the choice

[jiyasisodia]

there comes the pretty month of july to convince me that the summer is everything i need and everything i could wish for. sometimes what you seek gets illuminated– softly, gently, with a trace of a hymn, that crickets hum after the dawn chorus– by rays of pure, sublimated bars of gold. i am trapped in a cage of heat and beetles only in my slowest moments, unsure where the next white cloud rests to bike towards. a haze gets caught between my eyelid and iris, the sun’s fault, dust and glitter falling on my face. i blow a kiss to a dragonfly and let the grass brush my havianas.

and the summer breeze calms me.

[jiyasisodia]

a man will discover the word ‘sonder’ and act like he just invented consciousness. bitch i thought of that at 13. #thoughtdaughter #philosopherat8btw

[jiyasisodia]

how do i explain as an atheist that my metaphor for love is religion? because to love is to create a god that is fallible.

[jiyasisodia]

is the ability to understand more important than the ability to predict? and if you get better at predicting, doesn’t that limit your understanding?

[jiyasisodia]

baby volcano

how can i shut up

when anger is never

ever healthily engulfed by a

whisper and a sigh

of slightly raised concern

hidden between the crease

of your eyebrows

beneath the coarse purple-red

of your tongue

anger isn’t soft and short,

transparent and clear

it is more like the heart-pumping

adrenaline addiction of mine

it’s golden brown rustic,

it froths and it churns

bubbles up from bottom up

just to triumph over time

[jiyasisodia]

body of time

cutting skin that isn’t mine

no life, no breathing, none to keep

the heart that pounds will keep the time

to still the knife that knows the deep

[jiyasisodia]

what if god exists, but he doesn’t love you? why do we assume that god is good, it makes him more fictional

[jiyasisodia]

im at maximum entropy

[jiyasisodia]

im like if a girl was {undefined variable}. im like if a girl was [fragment missing]. im like if a girl was (editor’s note: the author’s invocation of the word “girl” in this context is idiosyncratic, perhaps metaphorical) im like if a girl was im like if a girl draft deleted! im like if a girl You have reached your free article limit! Subscribe now to continue reading. im like if a girl was [THREAD LOCKED] im like if a girl (ENDING EXPLAINED!) im like if a girl Unusual activity detected, please highlight all the pictures of bicycles. im like if a girl I don’t respond to prompts that could be deemed offensive, and so I am unable to carry out the request. im-like-if-a-girldeactivated03092023. im like if a girl we are unable to take your call at the minute. im like if a girl isn’t registered under that name. im like if a girl could give you her date of birth. im like if a girl oh yes we have you under […]. im like if a girl LOST CONNECTION

[jiyasisodia]

do i contradict myself? very well, then i contradict myself. i am large, i contain multitudes

[jiyasisodia]

If the path is to detach from the material world,

to release its weight from the soul,

why do monks not abandon life itself?

[jiyasisodia]

consciousness = matter.

matter ≠ consciousness

[jiyasisodia]

“hate is a strong word” and maybe i feel it deeply stfu

[jiyasisodia]

dread the feeling of recognizing the flaws others see in you, because its endless

[jiyasisodia]

supertivority

[jiyasisodia]

deserving

how strange is it, that we can hold an opinion on the righteousness of the matters that transpire in our lives. to judge our character and determine that the happenings are unreasonable. what would be reasonable otherwise? tao te ching but my own thoughts