I didn't die out, but I went through a lot and I ended up abandoning this blog. Back in April I broke up with my first gf over religious disagreements. I wanted her to be open-minded and respect all the other religious traditions, but instead I shook her christian faith and she resented me for this. I tried my best to earn her forgiveness for a whole month but it didn't work out at all. Spiritually we parted ways when she told me her problems were due to her relationship with god, which I had harmed according to her. As a devoted practitioner, I outright told her that all her inner turmoil was caused by her toxic and exclusive worldview, but I couldn't get through to her. She had been the center of my social life and after we broke up I crashed out. It took me almost two months to finally come around. In the meanwhile I began to feel disillusioned with a philosophy of renunciation and isolation like Theravāda Buddhism. It became clear to me that I needed community, I needed to live alongside others, not apart from them. That's when I was invited by a man I found on reddit to join Soka Gakkai. Since joining, I’ve been attending meetings, practicing consistently, and most importantly, connecting with people. My mental health has been steadily improving thanks to the unwavering support of a community that preaches compassion, courage, and inner transformation. I also joined a Soka Gakkai youth group and will be participating in upcoming events with them. For the first time in a while, I feel rooted, not just spiritually but socially.
This blog may have been silent for a time, but I haven’t given up. I’ve just been transforming.







