(bon)anne

fast forward, now on: antipsychotics and antidepressants. hi, i use this account as a personal diary, please don't take me seriously, nor try this at home. A D U L T !! super lesbian and in recovery. sincerely yours, Anne.

[joonsdiiimple]

Yeah, i never did an introduction :b

Hi! I'm Anne and i struggle with writing about myself (here's where we act as this is an AA meeting and you say "hi anne")

I'm 21, an 04 because most cool things appeared in 04 (including me).

I'm a lesbian and go by she/her, kind of a masc but end up looking like a vagabond

Bipolar type II and still waiting for a full on diagnosis. Yes, yes i'm medicated. Yes, yes i'm in therapy.

I speak spanish, english and french. That's the order of how well do i speak it.

I'm from latinamerica so you'll always see me complaining about the US doing something to my country in the year 1954. Because i don't forgive nor forget.

I've been in medicine for 84 years, NO SORRY 😭. I'm trapped in my medicine studies but rn i'm taking a mental health break, so the doctor isn't in office.

I'm the admin of the cluster b hub, so if i liked something on your blog i was checking it, probably. It's always a pleasure to meet you and have you there.

About DNI

a. I've never had a problem with minors being on my blog because most of the time i talk nonsense in english here. But if you wanna talk and aren't properly saying your age, if you're not from my community, i certainly ask about it.

b. Most of the time i just dont care and mind my bussiness, but if you are an ass, i'll absolutely block you.

Some things i like :)

(My girlfriend)

Music: MCR, Cuarteto de Nos, Therapie TAXI, Conan Gray, Bad bunny (mi tata 🙏), Little Jesus (they are a mexican rock band, not related to jesus), Cavetown. I like musicals too!! Falsettos is my favorite.

Games: Mystic messenger, anything mdickie (yes i know he's an ass but those games are good), Club penguin and roblox (ask me about my farm).

Hobbies: Reading (currently reading Kitchen by Banana Yoshimoto), drawing and painting, i also play guitar (acoustical and electric) and ukelele :) i have a trumpet but that's another story.

Series: SKAM, One day at a time, Craig of the creek, Smiling friends, The L word, Long Story Short, Nadie nos va a extrañar, anything Zerocalcare and The Pitt

[ur-favorite-fishgirl]

sex is a distraction from your true purpose in life which is to go to the aquarium and look at the fish and go "wooooooaaah.... fishies". cmon guys we all need to lock in.

[joonsdiiimple]

Me está bombeando la cabeza

[joonsdiiimple]

Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can’t go on spoiling your life any longer.

[joonsdiiimple]

Im safe now you cant hurt me anymore

[ct-lambykins]

I have the emotional regulation skills of a toddler

[joonsdiiimple]

Tf you mean it's defenitely and not definetively

[joonsdiiimple]

I should put somewhere here that i'm the admin to the cluster b hub community because i look like a random person liking posts or following people lol

[joonsdiiimple]

Put a dog or something as your pfp dude

[kisseism]

undiagnosing myself. there is nothing wrong with me i am #normal

[joonsdiiimple]

Someone call jesus please i need some of his creations out of my room

[joonsdiiimple]

I thought about it and started crying because i don't want to make my mom sad

[joonsdiiimple]

Necesito el control de todo, algo es algo

[joonsdiiimple]

About to take a funny decision

[jackkdaniels]

when i was a kid i decided that killing people was bad therefore war was bad therefore the military was evil. and adults would tell me it's more nuanced than that and i would understand when i grew up. well i'm a grown up now and idk i still think that killing people is bad and war is bad and the military is evil

[joonsdiiimple]

Quisiera poder tener alguna idea de lo que está pasando, no entiendo por qué si he estado tan bien, de la nada solo empeore. No estaba feliz pero al menos estaba estable ¿saben? No es justo. Hago lo que puedo, trato de hacerlo bien y todo lo que recibo es recaídas tarde o temprano. No quiero estar enferma toda mi vida, no quiero depender de medicamentos para poder estar bien. Solo quiero una vida normal.

Quiero una vida en la que no tenga que pensar que no podré volver nunca a hacer las cosas que me gustaban, o cumplir mis sueños por estar incapacitada de esta manera. Me pone de los nervios que siempre se hable de si volveré este semestre o si estoy segura de que medicina es lo mío. Lo mío es no usar el cerebro demasiado porque creo que tengo daño cognitivo de tanto que estuve deprimida.

Sé que en algún punto saldré de esta, siempre lo hago. Pero que triste saber que siempre van a haber recaídas, y aunque use las técnicas nada hará que mi cerebro pueda hacerme volver a estar bien hasta que un día ya no me sienta así.

No quiero nada, no siento nada, no quiero hacer nada. Me sienta tan mal porque siento que tengo que entretener a la gente y yo solo quiero alejarme, no sé por qué quiero eso si yo no me alejo de la gente que realmente me importa. Pero me siento tan triste que solo siento la necesidad de pudrirme.

No quiero morir, solo no quiero nada. La gente se preocupa y preguntan por qué me siento así pero realmente nada pasó. Siento que necesito una emoción fuerte para que me provoque algo y salga de esto ¿y si me drogo? me suena bien.

quiero salir de mi cuerpo y solo quedarme así, no volver. Escapar y no volver. No sentir dolor ni miedo, solo desaparecer y que nunca me vuelvan a encontrar.

[inanotherunivrse]

in another universe i am not constantly contemplating about ending my life everyday