( state of grace. )

JORDAN; twenty-six. she/her. cst. featuring: kennedy johnston, camila perez.

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TEXT: KENLEX

ALEX: is tha t you saying you wanna come over

KENNEDY: I mean, that wasn’t what I was asking..

KENNEDY: But if you would like me to?

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ALEX: laying on the couch

ALEX: my mom has andreas for the weekend, so i was like yolo

KENNEDY: That’s it? You seem like you should have some company if you’re drinking wine.

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TEXT: KENLEX

ALEX: ummmmmm idk, it's pink

ALEX: it's yummy

KENNEDY: Rosé? I like that kind sometime.

KENNEDY: What else are you up to?

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ALEX: i LOVE WIne

KENNEDY: Oh, yeah?

KENNEDY: I love wine too. What kind are you drinking?

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ALEX: Friday after 4 sounds perfect to me

ALEX: Mac and cheese, can you believe it? Kids go crazy for that shit

ALEX: But he eats anything. He's like a dog when you drop food on the floor. Just sucks that shit in

KENNEDY: Of course. I already have a couple of ideas that I could cook up for him.

KENNEDY: What about you? Are you craving anything specific?

KENNEDY: I could also pick up some wine. What's your favorite?

KENNEDY: You could also bring the dogs over, if you want. I have a pretty nice backyard that they could all play in.

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ALEX: Shhhhh your face

ALEX: I would like to hang out again

ALEX: That would work for the two of us, whenever

KENNEDY: Nope. Never. :)

KENNEDY: Great. I'm really glad.

KENNEDY: How about Friday evening? After 4PM, I'm completely free.

KENNEDY: What's Andreas favorite food? I could cook you guys something.

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captmumu·:

Landon hadn’t heard the door close so he knew Camila was still in his apartment. A part of him was annoyed but a small part of him was curious about why she was still around. Things were awkward, hostile and he felt like he could cut the tension with a knife. He almost rolled his eyes are her as soon as she said the word sorry. It wasn’t the first apology she gave to him but it did nothing for him. A sorry didn’t make up for what she did. “You’ve said you were sorry a few times. Do you actually mean that or is the guilt eating you alive?” Landon was a little more curious than he wanted to be, but you couldn’t help something like that. If anything, he deserved a few answers after everything ended so badly between them. Half of the time he can barely remember how they split but other days, it’s like it happened yesterday. The entire situation was exhausting after only a few minutes.

"Landon, I’ve honestly been sorry since the moment it happened. Don’t you get that? I’ve never lied to you.” Camila stood awkwardly for a moment, brows furrowed as she tried to figure out what to say to him. She figured she wouldn’t ever have the chance to speak to Landon again, but she’d thought about what she could say a million times. The situation of her cheating on him was actually somewhat similar to this one, having not remembered a single thing until the next morning. It didn’t make up for what she had done, of course, but it was still the truth nonetheless. “You know, this whole not remembering a single thing? That’s exactly how it was that night,” she explained, voice a bit tamer now, her façade already crumbling due to how awful she still felt about the whole situation. Landon didn’t need to know that it was difficult for Camila to get in another relationship due to still holding onto feelings for him. He didn’t need to know that she felt like she didn’t deserve anyone good after what she had done. All Landon needed to know was that she was sorry. “I would have never done that with a clear mind. You can hate me all you want, but I just wanted to apologize... again.”

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ALEX: I knew it, I'm crazy

ALEX: Me too. We were clearly meant to be friends again, things like that don't just happen

KENNEDY: I mean.. somewhat. But not completely. 😂

KENNEDY: I agree. And I do always say everything happens for a reason.

KENNEDY: Speaking of being friends again.. Would you like to hang out again?

KENNEDY: Something more relaxed, maybe? You and Andreas could come over to my place?

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ALEX: I'm definitely a hot mess express if I haven't really changed

ALEX: But I accept it, some messes are organized and stuff

KENNEDY: You're so not. You're crazy.

KENNEDY: Also, I just wanted to say I'm really glad that I ran into you at the grocery store. That was so crazy and random, but I'm really grateful.

KENNEDY: I'm just glad to have you in my life again.

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ALEX: Cause I'm a hot mess express

KENNEDY: You know, you really haven't changed.

KENNEDY: It makes me really happy.

[...]

KENNEDY: You're not. A hot mess express, that is. 😂

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captmumu·:

While he didn’t like Camila, he still averted his eyes when she ripped off his shirt. Just because he used to see her naked all the time before, that was before. And he didn’t even want to be a little tempted by her body. Camila was basically a succubus. Super hot. But will eat a man alive. And it was no secret that she basically hated him. “You’re so dramatic, you know that? Literally none of that was necessary,” Landon huffed up, getting up from the bed before pulling on a pair of boxers from his dresser. The mention of throw up almost made him want to throw up but he pulled his shit together and just cocked an eyebrow at her. “I hope you flushed the toilet after your little yack-attack… shit’s nasty.” Before Camila could even snap back at him for that comment, he held his hand up to silence her. “Pretending this never happened sounds like the best idea you’ve ever had. Works for me. Sucks for you though, I’m amazing. Anyways… you can shoo now,” Landon said with a sarcastic smile. He didn’t like being petty or anything, but she just got under his skin like nobody else did. Being cheated on does that to a person. 

“Your first instinct was to ask me why I was wearing your shirt, so.. Pretty sure it was.” Camila huffed, annoyed with this situation and incredibly angry with herself. How could she have slept with him and not have known it? How did they not know when they were fucking each other when they’ve done that so many times before? “Of course I cleaned up after myself, Landon. I’m a nurse..” She trailed off, rolling her eyes, annoyed with the assumption that she wouldn’t clean up after herself. Even though Camila knew she deserved it, experiencing how much Landon hated her was… surprising, to say the least. And honestly, all she could do was regret the way things ended between the two of them. But if Camila kept pretending to be angry and cold, then he would never know how broken up she still was about their break up. Maybe they’d only been together for a year, but she had felt like things were so right with him. And Landon so clearly disagreed, because the simple task of moving in together was just too much for him. Perhaps they’d always been on different pages. Deciding to not acknowledge anything he said seemed like the better option. Instead of saying goodbye, Camila started towards the door so she could leave this behind and forget it. Even though she wanted to reach for the doorknob, for some reason her hand felt heavy at her sides. It was an awkward moment or two before she turned around, opening her mouth to say something but she just didn’t know what. “I’m…” She’d said it so many times, and she knew it meant pretty much nothing to Landon. She let out a long breath, bracing herself. “I’m sorry, you know?”

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ALEX: Really? I'm surprised about that

KENNEDY: Why?

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ALEX: You're the best ex ever, promise

KENNEDY: Well. That's comforting.

KENNEDY: I could say the same about you.

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captmumu·:

The first thing Landon knew when he woke up was that his head felt like it was splitting open into about ten different pieces. The second was that someone was walking around in his room and talking to themselves. He didn’t remember taking anyone home last night, but he did remember drinking like a fish the night before. Groaning loudly, Landon rolled onto his back and peaked his eyes open to see who exactly was in his room. She was brunette and obviously had a good body so he gave himself an internal high five for that one. Even drunk, he had good taste in women. “You okay over there, sweetheart,” he yawned out while stretching out his arms and legs. “I hear crazy people talk to themselves.” With one last stretch he sat up in the bed and finally got a good look at who was in the room. And almost died on the spot. Camila. Of course it was his ex-girlfriend who cheated on him and confirmed everything he thought would happen. “Uh.. what’re you doing here? In my apartment. And why do you have my shirt on? Just.. what the fuck, Camila?” Everything he thought about her having a nice body completely out the window because she was the actual devil. A she-devil. There was no way this was even real. It had to be a horrible nightmare, because even if he was drunker then ever, he wouldn’t hook up with Camila again. Landon squeezed his eyes shut and hoped this entire thing was his mind playing a trick on him but Camila was still there when he opened them up again. “So. What the hell?”

A part of Camila wanted to strangle Landon for calling her sweetheart, but.. he didn’t know it was her yet. So it could kind of be forgiven. Kind of. She knew that everything that happened between them was really her fault, but she still couldn’t help but feel kind of angry when he started questioning her as if she broke into his house, got naked and put on his shirt for no other reason. “What?” Camila asked incredulously, looking down at the shirt that she was currently wearing. “You know what? Fine.” She pulled his shirt off of her body, throwing it on the bed towards Landon’s direction. Camila looked around for the clothes that she had worn last night, and started putting them on quickly without talking to Landon. Whenever she saw him or thought about him, all she could feel was guilt. The kind of guilt that eats away at you, and you’re pretty damn sure you don’t deserve to be in another relationship. Because cheating? Yeah, that shit’s unforgivable. And that’s what Camila was: a cheater. Maybe she’d been drunk, but it still happened. After she was fully dressed, she finally looked over towards Landon, giving a shrug. “I don’t know. I don’t fucking know. I woke up bare ass naked next to you, and then I had to puke. I didn’t want to be naked and cold, so I put on a shirt.” This whole situation royally fucking sucked, and Camila wanted out of it as quickly as possible. “Look, I know that you can’t stand to see my face. So let’s just pretend this never happened or whatever. Cool?”

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TEXTS 📲 KENLEX

ALEX: NO

ALEX: You're good. I didn't mean you

KENNEDY: Oh, good.

KENNEDY: I was a little worried.

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ALEX: OH. ew, exes are THE WORST

ALEX: They like.. exist to make everything awkward

KENNEDY: It does feel like that, doesn't it?

KENNEDY: Does that mean I make you feel awkward?

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Waking with a jolt, Camila let out a groan of pain when she realized how badly her head was hurting. Oh, fuck. “What the hell,” she mumbled, realizing that not only was her head hurting, but she really needed to puke. Without really thinking, she rolled out of bed and scurried towards the bathroom, kneeling next to the toilet and waiting for the worst. It was painful and absolutely disgusting, but it was necessary for the hangover to subside. After puking her guts out, Camila stumbled towards the sink and filled her mouth with water, washing out the awful taste. She spotted mouthwash and poured some into her mouth. As she was gargling it, she realized she had no idea where she was. It wasn’t really like her to not know where she was, but by the fact that she was completely naked, it was obvious to her that she’d hooked up with someone. As soon as she walked out of the room and saw Landon in the bed, Camila felt dizzy almost instantaneously. There was no way that they’d slept together and not even realized it. “Oh God, Oh God, Oh God...” She cursed under her breath, grabbing the closest piece of clothing on the floor -- Landon’s shirt -- and pulled it over her head for her to wear. She didn’t want to be completely naked while she was having a huge fucking freak out. Camila started pacing back and forth in the room, obviously very stressed, while her ex-boyfriend continued to sleep in the bed next to her. “How the fuck did this happen? How does something like this happen?” She was mumbling to herself, trying to convince herself to wake Landon up to ask what the fucking fuck happened last night.