I just wish someone would be there for me and advise me through my depressive times. Now I live with depression its a part of my life and I just started realizing it because I always ignored it saying it’s just my imagination but it’s not! I’m in this point of my life well I didn’t realize myself actually my boyfriend helped me to realize that it is effecting my way to live. Don’t ever say oh just be happy or change it because IT DOESNT WORK and it doesn’t make sense for me and for people. I’ve had depression since I was 6 years old and I’m able to now realize it because I was always with myself, my parents weren’t there for more than half of the time. People get mad at me for having depression and I want you to know if you feel the same way pls let me know. And families; give space to the people suffering and try to do some research about signs, symptoms, as well as types of depression and mental health issues. I’m not doing this for attention the people who really know me know my problem but they don’t know how deal with me “Shes just acting” “it’s only for attention” it’s not, it’s really not and when you say that it hurts my feelings but at the same time I don’t care. Because you see that my depression is different Its how I’m living. I have never in my life went to a psychologist regularly or any medical professional for that matter (because my parents said it was for crazy people). When I came to America I went to Intrinsic High School, one time during the year I disappeared for a little bit. During that time I was placed into a mental health facility 2 weeks and I didn’t tell anyone about it. Please don’t tell people not to go I wish I could afford more sources for help but I don’t have that kinda of money I have always deal with my depression on my own. I don’t know much of what I can I do to make me feel better but pls don’t be judgmental this is not a joke and if you don’t treat it it keeps growing and growing and you become infected. It starts to drastically effect you and your loved ones lives even if you don’t realize it. Sometimes I get panic attacks at work where sometimes I have to scream, but I’m used to it. You never want to show your weakness ever that’s why you have your moment, wash your face and keep working. Because you need to survive. Honestly I’m only here for the important people in my life. Sometimes I think they will be fine they are strong and independent, it will pass but its something that would never push me to take my life bc I can’t leave my best friend alone Shes alone too. I won’t let that happen twice to her, and not for the first time for my sisters, mother, father, and the rest I just need continue at this point. I do it bc I can’t leave them alone but don’t take it as a joke when some reveals their struggles bc the moment you minimize that they won’t want to talk about it any more with you and maybe even anyone else. I get sad and bc I used to try to tell my sisters But they said I just wanted attention , I just wanted to be understood and really listened to. But some people don’t seem to understand and it’s because they’re ignorant of different types of depression and that can make people worse by not acknowledging/dismissing their feelings. For you as someone who doesn’t suffer from depression it is your responsibility to try to understand and not ignore signs and symptoms. Please don’t be afraid to seek professional help regardless of anyone’s opinions. FUCK what people say.Don’t be those family members with a full house of ignorant and one mentally ill.
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